It was a beautiful sunny day in Ireland. I wished my parents were here visiting me for their vacation this moment. Though the sun is bright, the warmth is temperamental that there's a slight humidity giving a fresh air smell. I just love days like this.
Walking down the street locking my rented room, I can see the busy street of the city. Cars and buses. Pubs, musics, retail stores, and the people. I smiled. Its gonna be a great day!
"Lexis!" I heard Troy's voice from the walkway pavement. He was driving his car. He slowed down and made a hand movement of asking me to hope on.
That's my buddy. My best friend. Troy Barrons.
"Mornin! Stop by Anne's. I need my coffee," I told him as I settled down on the passengers seat next to him.
"Alright," He drove me to the coffee shop.
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Class was boring today because it was not Mrs. Jain teaching my favourite philosophy class, it was her replacement. And i'm wasting my 2 hours dosing off.
I took out my phone and texted Troy. 'I wanna have Subway. You?'
And the reply came immediately. That guy. Does he even concentrate in his classes? But a smile creeps on my face.
'On! See ya there XOXO'
Hitting the home button, I was back to dosing till the end of my two hours.
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"Hahahahahaha" Laughter erupted among our group of friends.
Troy and I ended sitting among our general cliques of friends when we saw them at Subways too.
"Troy, man up!" Celina was teasing him.
Troy was drooling over a way muscle-y athletic guy who passed by us to the counter.
"What, shuddap Celina," Then he went back to looking at him.
I rolled my eyes, nudged him to get his attention and raised one of my eyebrow.
Our silent eye conversation goes, "What happened to courting Cassian?"
His was, "He's avoiding me," and I went, "Ah?" Troy just shrugged and went back to eating.
I will have to talk to him privately then. Troy's not open with his sexual orientation that much but I know he's been trying to get Cassian his attention who is also another one of his type. A homosexual.
Troy confessed to me he likes a guy from his department weeks ago and I was so surprised that he was finally hitting home run to chase after someone openly.
After our lunch break, the guys receded leaving me and Troy walking back to campus.
"Anything you not telling me?" I chimed.
He must have expected me asking him that because he sighed.
"No idea Lex. He rarely comes for classes too. I contacted him but it went up to voice mails and I'm worried about him. He told me his dad was against him, Lex,"
Cassian was giving signs of accepting Troy because they've been out many times and Troy always comes back texting me about his date. He's thrilled to be courting someone for the first time and he rambles about it.
Now I'm worried too.
"Its alright. Maybe give him some time to come out of it. He can't avoid classes for long Troy. He will be back," I linked his arm with mine and strode up pulling him out of his gloominess. Something about that gloomy face makes me feels weird. Not liking it.
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Bad dream. Breathing hard and shallowly I woke up. Bad dream. Just bad dream I told myself.
I slide my phone up and saw missed calls. WAIT. WHAT TIME IS IT?! OH SHIT. I'M LATE FOR THE PARTY. SHIT.
I called back to the missed call and started scrambling to my feet to get ready. "TROY! I OVERSLEPT!"
"Get your damn ass here as soon as you can then," I heard music in the background of his phone.
"Got it, see ya,"
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"Hey Alexis, thank you for coming darling, come on in," Troy's mum was already greeting me from her door. I hugged and kissed her cheeks. Bringing a red wine bottle I got for their anniversary.
"Oh dear, you dont have to do that," She frown, concern on the money I spent on them. They have always been really nice. Almost always reminds me of my parents over the sea.
"Hey babe," Troy came walking up behind his mum and hugging me then all the sudden he stilled.
I looked up from his chest to see his face. Questioning with my eyes.
He was looking straight ahead outside the door. Turning, I saw Cassian standing at the pavement, looking nervous. I heard Troy whisper, "He came," and saw the light in his eyes brightening.
"Go," I pushed him towards the door. Happy to see them finally getting together. Relieved somehow.
Standing at the door sill. I look at Troy pacing towards Cassian. They both look a little awkward standing looking at each other but Cassian made his move.
He close the gap between Troy and him. Troy's body was flexing at the distance. Cassian moved his his hand to Troy's cheeks. "I'm sorry Troy. I took a long time."
I could feel the relief passing by Troy and it went through me too. I smiled and went back inside to give them their privacy.
Later on Troy brought Cassian in and he introduced Cassian to his parents. I stood waiting.
"This is Alexis, my best friend and Lex, this is Cassian," He beamed, Cassian seems to be shying.
"Man up Cassian, you will get a lot of bullying around," I was really happy for them. "Champagne for the new couple?" I teased and Troy hit me on my head. I burst out laughing and dragging them to the serving table.
Soon after that day, little did I know things were taking its avalanche of emotions.
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Trampolines was placed in the middle of the backyard and people were occupying it. Soon, I was joining Troy and his brothers. He pulled me in while still jumping and I whooped. Cassian was standing and watching us smiling. More like smiling at Troy.
Then I looked at Troy. Things took it turn. A stupid thought of kissing those lips came to me. Horrified with myself I tried to banish it but it came back. This time, touching his birthmark on his cheeks. Then kissing his closed eyes. Then hugging him with my head on the gap of his should and neck. Horrified and panic flushed over me. My knees buckled and I fell.
"Lex, you okay?" Troy was still jumping and came closer holding his hand out.
"I'm fine. I think I'm getting jumping sickness," Lied. I quickly exit the trampoline and walked back into the house needing water.
What the heck is wrong with you Alexis? He's your friend and he has a boyfriend! Burn your brain! No. No. I'm just getting paranoid that he's taken that's all. Banish that thought! He doesn't like girls for heaven's sake Alexis.
Needing a better space, I left without telling him.
Troy texted me the moment he realised I left without telling him. I told him I didn't want to interrupt anything so I went off. He replied saying, okay, see ya at campus then, XOXO. I didnt reply.
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Next day, I was walking towards my class when I saw two familiar figure walking. Troy and Cassian. I smiled. When Troy saw me, he came over in one stride of his long legs. "Alexis! You have explanation to give young lady! You left the party early! What was that?" Troy exclaimed. Usual Troy and whenever there's a party at his place. I stay over till the next day.
"I wasn't feeling well Troyyyyy. Hey Cassian!" I waved.
"Hey," He smiled. Looking at Cassian and Troy together. Being comfortable, hits something in my chest and stomach again. Am I going to puke? No that's not the puking sensation. Damn it Alexis!
No. Walk away. I did. I turned and without glancing I told them, "I need to use the toilet. See you guys around,"
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'Lex? Something wrong?' - Troy.
'Lex, we are at Subs, come join for lunch,' - Troy.
Missed call.
'Lexis! Answer your damn phone. Where are you? Left?' - Troy.
Missed calls. 3.
'Alexis! At least tell me if you are back home. WTH is wrong with you?!' - Troy.
'Alexis, you sick? Are you in campus? I'll come see you tomorrow.' - Troy.
'F*ck, Lex. Stop making me worry about you. Cassian is worried too you know,' - Troy
His anger is not being contained from each message. I am avoiding him after all. Its been 4 days. I didnt attend any classes nor did I move out of my room.
I need to think about this stupid feeling twice.
Then I heard a bang and a shout outside my door. Must be him. Who else bangs instead of ringing the bell? Troy.
"I know you are in there Lex, open the door," He was calm. Can I not open the door? Should I? What will I do?
Again, "Lexis, open the damn door before I break it!" He is angry. Does he think its his fault?
I opened and my control gave away the second I saw his face. Looking flabbergasted, Troy was red and furious written all over his face.
I stared at him quiet and not sure what to do.
"What the heck Lex," He started to come in but I stopped him. He stared now. "Lex, what's wrong? This is not you. Anything you are not telling me?" He asked, eyes roaming over my face for answers.
"Troy, I'm leaving Ireland in a month time. After our grad," I told him. Looking at him.
He look confused.
"Go back Troy. I'll be fine soon. I need some time alone,"
"You are upset for this? You are avoiding me for this? Because you are going to leave? It does not make any sense Lex," He totally can see through me.
Like that's easy.
"I'll see you tomorrow Troy. I promise," He nod and left.
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I didnt go to campus the next day. I broke my promise and I was getting drunk in some random pub away from my room.
Missed calls again.
Walking back to my room, it was pass 12.00 am and the street was still brightly lit with people walking.
Taking my turn down to my street, I saw Troy standing, slanting on his car, waiting. I'm still in my sense though I'm sober.
I walked passed him. Hoping he didnt realise it was me. But I was held down by an arm. Turning me around. I saw Troy's frowning face.
"Alexis,"
"Troy," I replied.
"Confess to me what is going on now," He sound so serious that I wanted to kiss that lips of his.
I pushed him away, staggering a little from the sudden push. I pace a few feet behind but he stood at his spot.
Still looking at him. I know he know's I'm avoiding him. He knows it got something to do with him and only him.
"I'm in trouble Troy. So much trouble," I said. Slowly picking my words. His facial expression changed to worry. "I can't do this. I should not do this. That's what makes sense. But I am not making any sense. I am horrified Troy. Horrified,"
"Alexis-" I stopped him from talking by putting my hand out.
"I have feelings for you," I said it. There. Standing there like a stupid pathetic fool staring at him. I just ruined our friendship. I ruined it. But he was still standing there processing it. How naive.
"Alexis, what? I-"
"You did not do anything. Its me. Its my stupid feeling. I'm sorry.Troy, I need this distance. Leave me alone for a while while I fix myself,"
"Can I really get my friend back?" Something about his question broke me. Deep. I could almost hear the crack in my heart. Can he?
I gave me a smile. "I'll try,"
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Well life sucks. Why now, Alexis? Why when you are going to graduate and move on to a different place and go on with life does your stupid heart has to play with you?
I went back for classes. Didn't want to bunk it anymore. I missed few deadlines for assignments submissions as well. Sigh.
Its been two weeks. I didn't see Troy or Cassian. No text messages. I can feel the stupid hole in my stupid heart. How could I fall for him? Why? I have been liking him since our first day but it was not like this. Troy was my best friend. Grateful I am to have him by my side when I first came to this country.
I groaned on my bed. I need to do something. I need to get out.
Pub it is. Getting drunk. Like that can ever erase him away.
But I still went. "Give me one of the top whisky," I ordered. Yes, I'm going to puke out everything in this body.
The beat was nice and I began bobbing my head. Its getting to me. The music. I took my whiskey shot and walked to the crowd and started dancing. For that moment I did forget about him. Nothing was important that dancing to the beat and screaming. It was loud enough that no one can here you scream. I made it through around an hour when I spotted Troy there with Cassian both staring at me.
Abruptly stopping. I turn to get another shot in case I was daydreaming.
"One of the same the young lady is drinking," He ordered. So he did came over. Cassian was standing next to him looking slightly worried. So he does know then. Still ignoring, I was swirling my drink. Thinking but not thinking.
"Alexis," He was cautious. I turned to him, looking at them both. Both their fingers intertwined. How absurdly can I be daydreaming.
"You won't get her back. Not for now," I said tentatively. It was getting packed and I needed air. More like I need air away from Troy, real or not.
After about 30 minutes, walking randomly around the street. I decided to give in and go back to my room.
And there he was again. My drunk state must have been imagining him again. I walked slowly. Hearing me approach. I didnt stop at him I walked pass to my building, walking up the stairs, he was following me quietly. Up till my room door. I put the key in and he was still there, not talking. I turned. Nope he's real.
I stifled my movement not to touch him.
"Lex," His voice was soft and sad. I want to kiss away that latter part of him. His blue eyes was piercingly bright under the dim hallway light. I can keep staring at that eyes for hours for sure.
"You will never get her back," I repeated like a broken record. I am.
"Lex, try. Please. I need you Lex. It feels so weird not having you around. Even with Cassian. You are my friend Lex. Try something. I-,I know I'm being selfish. I know this must be killing you. I know how it feels,"
It feels like my throat have been clogged by a stone. I cant swallow and I cant talk. For a good 2 minute we were looking at each other. My hand moved before my brain even processed that it was moving. It touched his left cheek that has his birthmark. Troy stiffen under my touch. He was radiating too much heat in my touch but he did not move away. I didnt look into his eyes. I was looking at my hands touching his cheeks. I smiled.
As if I came out of trance, I immediately removed my hand and turn to unlock my door and stumbling with my keys. Drunk. I'm drunk. It would have taken one swift move to kiss him.
"Do it," He said.
What is he talking about was what I was thinking when realization hits me. He is asking me to kiss him. Blood drained from my face. This is wrong, my brain says.
"Do it Alexis. Kiss me,"
Later tonight I will regret every single inch of myself for doing this but damn the consequences.
I turned and kissed him. I know its mostly my drunk self that was overtaking me but I do know what I'm doing and I'm blaming my drunk state for now.
Troy was frozen in place for few second but he started to give in. I didnt want to think of anything. So I kissed him. Eyes closed, hands at the back of neck. Tears sprang out of my eyes. Our breath mingling when we stopped. Still holding each other. Head and nose touching. I didn't dare to open my eyes. Regret taking over me right this moment.
I let him go and with swift movements, I unlocked my door and shut it hard. Leaving him behind the door without a word.
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Coffee
Wednesday, 24 August 2016
Saturday, 20 August 2016
Winged.
"Its safe here for the time being. The place is warded with protection spells. Only people I allow to come in can walk through it," he told her while standing near the entrance of the so called hut. From the outside, its just made of up bricks and nestled with roofs made up of dry leaves, but Selena knows it does more of its magic inside.
As plain as the hut looks from the outside, the inside was a house where a comfortable house would look like. Everything was in place. A room, a kitchen, a living area and a bathroom covering every corner. It looks like a place taken care by a mother of the family. Who's house is this? Or is it was Selena wondered.
He stood strangely awkward thinking what else it is that should be advised to Selena before leaving her here for the time being. Selena stood staring around gaping.
She was brought here not willingly. No one wanted her in the village of hers. It was all it took for an Highlander to offer himself to bring her over. Who is he? All he said after offering up to take her was, well nothing. He helped her up on his horse and slide behind her and Selena still processing what was happening around her.
Highlanders are mythical creatures according to humans. They possess magic no one could. They partly are shape shifters. Depends on their level of royalty, a full royal Highlander could transform to a full shape shifter. No one disagrees with an Highlander, that was the unspoken rule.
He had wings. Black. Feathers. She had never seen one so beautiful covering the back of a person. His was flowing with royalty but is he one? It was almost the height of him and width twice of his muscularly lean body.
"I have two of my personal Rimwicks attending to you if you need them," He snapped his finger and two floating creatures came in view in front of her that she jerked and backed off hitting a wall behind.
Rimwicks are personal attendees of the Highlanders. They look like floating version of mini gargoyles.
Selena was now terrified of having them around her. Her wide eyes must have been read by him that he added, "They wont come to life unless you summon them to," and that made the two floating Rimwicks to turn to stone and was now on the mantel of the fireplace. Great now two pair of eyes will be watching her movement?
"Thank you," Selena was sincerely thankful but it came out hastily due to her nervousness.
He simply nodded and disappeared. Damn that tricks always gives her chills. Highlanders can teleport. Appearing here and there wherever they wish they want to.
Now she was all alone. Afternoon sun was blazing through but she was bone tired to move around. She move to the couch and slide down warily. Strangely comfortable.
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She must have slept. Because when she opened her eyes, it was night time and someone was cooking someone. She smelled food the moment her sense came and dawned on her that someone was in the house besides her! She stood in a motion too fast for her to conjure that, she black out for few second standing and she saw black wings in the kitchen. Her heart beating wild. The guy is has not to her his name is cooking?
She stalked slowly towards the open entrance. He must have heard her gasping in surprise because he turned to give a glance over his shoulder and continued his cook work.
I saw plates arranged for two and my stomach grumbled.
As if on cue, he turned and place two big bowls of soup filled with scrumptious delicacy that she rarely got to eat at her village.
He motioned her to take a place as he did on her opposite. They had a silent dinner.
But Selena couldn't take the silent treatment. "Name?" She asked while looking at him.
Something flickered in his eyes but he answered, "Lorean Canally."
"Selena Lane,"
Then it went still. He must have realised the awkwardness because he stood and went to clean up his plate, walked over to the room next to the living hall.
Is he going to sleep here? If so where does Selena sleeps she wondered and shivered.
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Its been a week of stay. Selena cooks dinner now because Lorean was rarely in the hut nowadays. No, much to Selena's worry, he does not sleep in the hut, he does not stay overnight. Once a while he comes over then greets, "Lady Selena." She got used to him calling her that since the introduction.
But all she does to get his attention was to clear her throat and speak by not addressing his name. Somehow it feels weird for her to call him Lor, or Lorean. What should she address him? But he seems to not care.
When she cooks, she always cooks for him too, in case he comes and always leave his dish on the table. Surprisingly, the bowl is always empty the next morning. Does he sneak in at night while I sleep? But she knows its him.
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"I want to walk outside," She told him one day when he came over. She was getting frantic being closed with no visitation for her to talk to someone and she badly wanted to walk out and look at something but much to her eagerness, she dont dare till she gets permission.
"You may," Was all he said and disappeared leaving a note on the coffee table in front of the couch.
'Silver satin with heels of your choosing.
20:00 hours.Tonight'
The note said.
Ah? He wants me to dress up?
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Someone came along with Lorean when she was getting ready. A girl. She looks the same age of hers and friendly too.
When Lorean teleported with her together, she straight came to Selena and greeted.
"My greetings Lady Lane. Oh what a gorgeous outfit you wear but let me take over the beautification," She displays too much formality it edges Selena on speaking because she wasnt sure it would come out formally.
But she thank her.
The girl told her to call her Lady Kestrel.
"There, there. All dolled up for the ceremony," Lady Kestrel exclaimed.
Selena was shaken to see herself in the mirror. That was not the person she knows that looks back at her through the reflection but it was her.
Did she used magic? Was that what she meant by beautification? But no, she used sets of colored powdered and lipsticks that she knows only Highlanders can afford. Probably its mixed with magic. All Highlanders are beautiful, even the males.
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Selena was then accompanied by Lady Kestrel in a carriage.
They pass through the road of forestry and now pacing through a city hall heading towards the Highlander's Palace. Is there an event today? Where is Lorean Canally? He is not joining them?
Selena started fidgeting. Can someone like her visit a palace of an Highlander? Wouldn't people recognise her? Oh no. She was shaking now.
"I have woven you with my magic to keep to constraint among the plain view of the Highlanders. Do not worry of being identified," Lady Kestrel said as though she read her mind.
I knew it, Selena thought. Magic indeed she did.
When she walked through the entrance to the event hall, a cold chill ran down her spine. Dejavu.
She feels familiarity but Selena could swear she has never been in here in the 24 years of life. Or did she?
Lady Kestrel was hand in hand with her and she directed them both among the crowds. There were foods everywhere and Selena started drooling at them.
"The days is yours, Lady Lane. Enjoy the food. I advise you eat them before your appetites goes away," She grinned. Oh?
When Selena started moving towards them to get hold of a muffin she saw, she heard loud horn. Announcement. She knew it. Royalties coming in. She quickly twirled and moved away to hide among crowds. Lady Kestrel was having conversation with someone few feet from her.
Somehow being an average height gave her an advantage to see the Royalties from behind the crowd. When the wide wooden door she came through opened again, in came in few white coat dressed chiseled men with wings. Each men with wings of different stealth and size.
Selena marveled at their dressing and the features. Royal Highlanders making an entrance.
Then followed by women, old and young. But unlike their male counterpart, the women had hidden their wings. Somehow making them invisible. Retracted.
And now Selena understood while Lady Kestrel told her about eating the food before her appetite goes off.
Walking in, in the last person of the Royal Highlander was Lorean Canally. Prince of Highlander. His wings were smooth black silk features. It gave her goosebumps.
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Coffee
As plain as the hut looks from the outside, the inside was a house where a comfortable house would look like. Everything was in place. A room, a kitchen, a living area and a bathroom covering every corner. It looks like a place taken care by a mother of the family. Who's house is this? Or is it was Selena wondered.
He stood strangely awkward thinking what else it is that should be advised to Selena before leaving her here for the time being. Selena stood staring around gaping.
She was brought here not willingly. No one wanted her in the village of hers. It was all it took for an Highlander to offer himself to bring her over. Who is he? All he said after offering up to take her was, well nothing. He helped her up on his horse and slide behind her and Selena still processing what was happening around her.
Highlanders are mythical creatures according to humans. They possess magic no one could. They partly are shape shifters. Depends on their level of royalty, a full royal Highlander could transform to a full shape shifter. No one disagrees with an Highlander, that was the unspoken rule.
He had wings. Black. Feathers. She had never seen one so beautiful covering the back of a person. His was flowing with royalty but is he one? It was almost the height of him and width twice of his muscularly lean body.
"I have two of my personal Rimwicks attending to you if you need them," He snapped his finger and two floating creatures came in view in front of her that she jerked and backed off hitting a wall behind.
Rimwicks are personal attendees of the Highlanders. They look like floating version of mini gargoyles.
Selena was now terrified of having them around her. Her wide eyes must have been read by him that he added, "They wont come to life unless you summon them to," and that made the two floating Rimwicks to turn to stone and was now on the mantel of the fireplace. Great now two pair of eyes will be watching her movement?
"Thank you," Selena was sincerely thankful but it came out hastily due to her nervousness.
He simply nodded and disappeared. Damn that tricks always gives her chills. Highlanders can teleport. Appearing here and there wherever they wish they want to.
Now she was all alone. Afternoon sun was blazing through but she was bone tired to move around. She move to the couch and slide down warily. Strangely comfortable.
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She must have slept. Because when she opened her eyes, it was night time and someone was cooking someone. She smelled food the moment her sense came and dawned on her that someone was in the house besides her! She stood in a motion too fast for her to conjure that, she black out for few second standing and she saw black wings in the kitchen. Her heart beating wild. The guy is has not to her his name is cooking?
She stalked slowly towards the open entrance. He must have heard her gasping in surprise because he turned to give a glance over his shoulder and continued his cook work.
I saw plates arranged for two and my stomach grumbled.
As if on cue, he turned and place two big bowls of soup filled with scrumptious delicacy that she rarely got to eat at her village.
He motioned her to take a place as he did on her opposite. They had a silent dinner.
But Selena couldn't take the silent treatment. "Name?" She asked while looking at him.
Something flickered in his eyes but he answered, "Lorean Canally."
"Selena Lane,"
Then it went still. He must have realised the awkwardness because he stood and went to clean up his plate, walked over to the room next to the living hall.
Is he going to sleep here? If so where does Selena sleeps she wondered and shivered.
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Its been a week of stay. Selena cooks dinner now because Lorean was rarely in the hut nowadays. No, much to Selena's worry, he does not sleep in the hut, he does not stay overnight. Once a while he comes over then greets, "Lady Selena." She got used to him calling her that since the introduction.
But all she does to get his attention was to clear her throat and speak by not addressing his name. Somehow it feels weird for her to call him Lor, or Lorean. What should she address him? But he seems to not care.
When she cooks, she always cooks for him too, in case he comes and always leave his dish on the table. Surprisingly, the bowl is always empty the next morning. Does he sneak in at night while I sleep? But she knows its him.
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"I want to walk outside," She told him one day when he came over. She was getting frantic being closed with no visitation for her to talk to someone and she badly wanted to walk out and look at something but much to her eagerness, she dont dare till she gets permission.
"You may," Was all he said and disappeared leaving a note on the coffee table in front of the couch.
'Silver satin with heels of your choosing.
20:00 hours.Tonight'
The note said.
Ah? He wants me to dress up?
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Someone came along with Lorean when she was getting ready. A girl. She looks the same age of hers and friendly too.
When Lorean teleported with her together, she straight came to Selena and greeted.
"My greetings Lady Lane. Oh what a gorgeous outfit you wear but let me take over the beautification," She displays too much formality it edges Selena on speaking because she wasnt sure it would come out formally.
But she thank her.
The girl told her to call her Lady Kestrel.
"There, there. All dolled up for the ceremony," Lady Kestrel exclaimed.
Selena was shaken to see herself in the mirror. That was not the person she knows that looks back at her through the reflection but it was her.
Did she used magic? Was that what she meant by beautification? But no, she used sets of colored powdered and lipsticks that she knows only Highlanders can afford. Probably its mixed with magic. All Highlanders are beautiful, even the males.
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Selena was then accompanied by Lady Kestrel in a carriage.
They pass through the road of forestry and now pacing through a city hall heading towards the Highlander's Palace. Is there an event today? Where is Lorean Canally? He is not joining them?
Selena started fidgeting. Can someone like her visit a palace of an Highlander? Wouldn't people recognise her? Oh no. She was shaking now.
"I have woven you with my magic to keep to constraint among the plain view of the Highlanders. Do not worry of being identified," Lady Kestrel said as though she read her mind.
I knew it, Selena thought. Magic indeed she did.
When she walked through the entrance to the event hall, a cold chill ran down her spine. Dejavu.
She feels familiarity but Selena could swear she has never been in here in the 24 years of life. Or did she?
Lady Kestrel was hand in hand with her and she directed them both among the crowds. There were foods everywhere and Selena started drooling at them.
"The days is yours, Lady Lane. Enjoy the food. I advise you eat them before your appetites goes away," She grinned. Oh?
When Selena started moving towards them to get hold of a muffin she saw, she heard loud horn. Announcement. She knew it. Royalties coming in. She quickly twirled and moved away to hide among crowds. Lady Kestrel was having conversation with someone few feet from her.
Somehow being an average height gave her an advantage to see the Royalties from behind the crowd. When the wide wooden door she came through opened again, in came in few white coat dressed chiseled men with wings. Each men with wings of different stealth and size.
Selena marveled at their dressing and the features. Royal Highlanders making an entrance.
Then followed by women, old and young. But unlike their male counterpart, the women had hidden their wings. Somehow making them invisible. Retracted.
And now Selena understood while Lady Kestrel told her about eating the food before her appetite goes off.
Walking in, in the last person of the Royal Highlander was Lorean Canally. Prince of Highlander. His wings were smooth black silk features. It gave her goosebumps.
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Coffee
Thursday, 11 August 2016
The Black Ops.
"June, get Allison here by dawn. I have a job for you guys," Kai came trudging in with his mission suit. Sheathed sword and daggers around his hips. I bet there are blades and knives hidden in those armor of his.
"What?" I said nonchalantly looking up from my book.
"It's an important job June. I need a proper crew to attempt it," He stepped into the study room and unbuckled his armor.
"You are not stepping inside the study with those filthy boots Kai," I told him, going back to my book.
He heaved an exasperated sigh and stop midway.
"By dawn," He repeated it to me and took off.
Leader of the Black Operations, that's him alright. Always so secretive, moody, arrogant, mysterious, trusts no one and the most perceptible person to the King to assign him of to most of the mission. Even if its not any Black Op missions.
I flipped my book and stood to find Allison.
Allison, member of Kai's Black Op crew. Personally selected by King Tibe to be placed into Kai's crew. Allison is a shooter. She shoots everything and when I mean everything means its literally everything she sees and hates. Shooting a tree branches for apples was the most ridiculous thing she does and she puts it by saying, 'its efficient'. Allison can be compared to Kai for his skills in swords and blades while Allison does with her shootings. She never miss her bullets. Not that I have seen of.
I walk pass the Great Room where mission meetings are usually conducted and to the dormitory area.
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"Oh great the wraith is in this also?" Jesper's grunting was heard even before we opened the door to the Great Room.
"What's the problem with me hanging around Jes? Scared you will pee in you pantsy when you don't see me coming?" I answered.
And yes, that's my so call nickname among the gang or maybe not really among the gang. Wraith, the shadow girl or spy. I am made to me one. Trained.
My walks are ghost-like, cat-like that no one see me coming behind them for stabbings. And most certainly serves as a good spy with my jumping skills. Not that I am proud of it. I am not a shooter or a sword wielder though I am fairly good enough to defend myself. But my game-point would be my spy skills. I get information for my crew. From every hook and crook. Getting into dangerous place, prisons, palace, most guarded place and no one notices.
With all our bickering, we are most certainly a team and lead my Kai. Whom most certainly trust us with out skills.
Jesper is smart ass in our crew. He is the strategist. He can come up with something so useful even in our death bed. He analyses most of the information I give to Kai and comes with ideas and schemes.
"Just dont kill each other alright," Allison said when we took our seat.
Kai seems to be into a piece of paper and next to it looks like a map.
"Kent is not joining?" Jesper ask seeing the missing member in the group.
Kai seem to be picking out only us and its not usual to leave Kent out. We most certainly need Kent in most of our missions. Jesper's question seems to bring Allison and me to it too. Why isn't Kent in?
But judging my Kai's dim quietness I guess he thought about it too before only choosing us.
I raised an eyebrow at Kai's stare but he just look away.
"We are breaking into the Calore Court to steal the most forbidden book to ever exist on earth," Was all Kai had to say to make all three of us to snap our head towards Kai and make us gap at him.
Everyone of us looking at him for some elaboration.
"The Book of Dark Theory," Was the answer that came out of my mouth. I know a lot about books because I spend most of my time in the study. A place for my solace when I'm not doing my missions.
"Yes, and this is not any missions assigned by the governors or senators. This was direct order of King Tibe himself. Its not a mission but a job for us," Kai stood almost like a mass of muscles.
"He wants us to get ourselves killed?" Allison for all her confidence seems to falter.
"Not certainly,"
"Why can't he just ask the Calore Court king himself nicely and get over with it? I mean they are both certainly are on good terms. Our court help's them most of the time and vice versa but its a unspoken rule not to steal anything from our allies. If anything, its the forbidden book! Not some jewels!" Jesper was fidgeting.
I am not sure if my brain is processing this. Getting into the Calore Court means meeting Jaden. My brother and its my childhood. A place I grew up and now I'm supposed to go there to steal some book while talking nicely to my friends?
"We are given two weeks. Today is just to tell you guys about it. I'll give you guys the details tomorrow night. Jesper, I want the layout of the court with security details when we meet up. June, Im sure you know how the book looks like, so you will be retrieving it and with your history with the Calore Court, Jesper would be needing your help,"
I was just gaping at Kai.
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I was waiting for him at the stairs.
"You need to replenish yourself before we head north," Kai said when he saw me waiting for him.
I stood up and straighten myself.
"Kai-"
"We need some stuffs. Help me with the blade sharpening and get all of us some linens and coats. I don't want us to go numb before we even reach the court," He walked into his room and I followed.
His room has an extra office table with lots of files. Papers here and there. A single bed at one corner and an attached bathroom. Its appreciably comfortable for a Black Op leader. I have been into his room countless time to pass him his blades and swords whenever I'm done sizing it up and sharpening it. Its a habit I took ever since I came in here to do that and I can't seem to understand why and without realising Kai gives his swords and blades almost every time when he comes back from missions.
He dumps me his sheathed sword and blades on my hand and move to remove his tunic.
Doesn't he realise I'm standing right in front of him? My muscle twitch at the sight of his upper body. I tried my best to keep myself busy looking at the papers on his table but I guess I failed to control it when it lingered back to him. He has a tattoo. One on his left chest and one on his upper left arm. A dragon and lynx. Both dangerous animals. Almost like him.
"Why isn't Kent in this?"
"He can't"
"Why? An order? You are hiding something Kai and don't you ask me to stop reading you. I know that look of yours," I said immediately.
Kai quietly drape a white shirt over him and walked to the table.
"Get me all this by tomorrow morning. I need to recheck the inventive before the meeting,"
Almost instantly my anger boiled.
"I'm not your slave to run your errands,"
"Well you certainly are under my command June, remember that," He cut me off with an equal voice.
"You know breaking into the Calore court would do me a lot more harm than to others," I have no idea why my throat started clogging.
"You are a spy. I need you to be on your wit and quit faltering with the past,"
"Sometimes I wonder if you even have a heart with that arrogance of yours," I clenched my teeth not to spit anything more worse and walked off.
"What?" I said nonchalantly looking up from my book.
"It's an important job June. I need a proper crew to attempt it," He stepped into the study room and unbuckled his armor.
"You are not stepping inside the study with those filthy boots Kai," I told him, going back to my book.
He heaved an exasperated sigh and stop midway.
"By dawn," He repeated it to me and took off.
Leader of the Black Operations, that's him alright. Always so secretive, moody, arrogant, mysterious, trusts no one and the most perceptible person to the King to assign him of to most of the mission. Even if its not any Black Op missions.
I flipped my book and stood to find Allison.
Allison, member of Kai's Black Op crew. Personally selected by King Tibe to be placed into Kai's crew. Allison is a shooter. She shoots everything and when I mean everything means its literally everything she sees and hates. Shooting a tree branches for apples was the most ridiculous thing she does and she puts it by saying, 'its efficient'. Allison can be compared to Kai for his skills in swords and blades while Allison does with her shootings. She never miss her bullets. Not that I have seen of.
I walk pass the Great Room where mission meetings are usually conducted and to the dormitory area.
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"Oh great the wraith is in this also?" Jesper's grunting was heard even before we opened the door to the Great Room.
"What's the problem with me hanging around Jes? Scared you will pee in you pantsy when you don't see me coming?" I answered.
And yes, that's my so call nickname among the gang or maybe not really among the gang. Wraith, the shadow girl or spy. I am made to me one. Trained.
My walks are ghost-like, cat-like that no one see me coming behind them for stabbings. And most certainly serves as a good spy with my jumping skills. Not that I am proud of it. I am not a shooter or a sword wielder though I am fairly good enough to defend myself. But my game-point would be my spy skills. I get information for my crew. From every hook and crook. Getting into dangerous place, prisons, palace, most guarded place and no one notices.
With all our bickering, we are most certainly a team and lead my Kai. Whom most certainly trust us with out skills.
Jesper is smart ass in our crew. He is the strategist. He can come up with something so useful even in our death bed. He analyses most of the information I give to Kai and comes with ideas and schemes.
"Just dont kill each other alright," Allison said when we took our seat.
Kai seems to be into a piece of paper and next to it looks like a map.
"Kent is not joining?" Jesper ask seeing the missing member in the group.
Kai seem to be picking out only us and its not usual to leave Kent out. We most certainly need Kent in most of our missions. Jesper's question seems to bring Allison and me to it too. Why isn't Kent in?
But judging my Kai's dim quietness I guess he thought about it too before only choosing us.
I raised an eyebrow at Kai's stare but he just look away.
"We are breaking into the Calore Court to steal the most forbidden book to ever exist on earth," Was all Kai had to say to make all three of us to snap our head towards Kai and make us gap at him.
Everyone of us looking at him for some elaboration.
"The Book of Dark Theory," Was the answer that came out of my mouth. I know a lot about books because I spend most of my time in the study. A place for my solace when I'm not doing my missions.
"Yes, and this is not any missions assigned by the governors or senators. This was direct order of King Tibe himself. Its not a mission but a job for us," Kai stood almost like a mass of muscles.
"He wants us to get ourselves killed?" Allison for all her confidence seems to falter.
"Not certainly,"
"Why can't he just ask the Calore Court king himself nicely and get over with it? I mean they are both certainly are on good terms. Our court help's them most of the time and vice versa but its a unspoken rule not to steal anything from our allies. If anything, its the forbidden book! Not some jewels!" Jesper was fidgeting.
I am not sure if my brain is processing this. Getting into the Calore Court means meeting Jaden. My brother and its my childhood. A place I grew up and now I'm supposed to go there to steal some book while talking nicely to my friends?
"We are given two weeks. Today is just to tell you guys about it. I'll give you guys the details tomorrow night. Jesper, I want the layout of the court with security details when we meet up. June, Im sure you know how the book looks like, so you will be retrieving it and with your history with the Calore Court, Jesper would be needing your help,"
I was just gaping at Kai.
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I was waiting for him at the stairs.
"You need to replenish yourself before we head north," Kai said when he saw me waiting for him.
I stood up and straighten myself.
"Kai-"
"We need some stuffs. Help me with the blade sharpening and get all of us some linens and coats. I don't want us to go numb before we even reach the court," He walked into his room and I followed.
His room has an extra office table with lots of files. Papers here and there. A single bed at one corner and an attached bathroom. Its appreciably comfortable for a Black Op leader. I have been into his room countless time to pass him his blades and swords whenever I'm done sizing it up and sharpening it. Its a habit I took ever since I came in here to do that and I can't seem to understand why and without realising Kai gives his swords and blades almost every time when he comes back from missions.
He dumps me his sheathed sword and blades on my hand and move to remove his tunic.
Doesn't he realise I'm standing right in front of him? My muscle twitch at the sight of his upper body. I tried my best to keep myself busy looking at the papers on his table but I guess I failed to control it when it lingered back to him. He has a tattoo. One on his left chest and one on his upper left arm. A dragon and lynx. Both dangerous animals. Almost like him.
"Why isn't Kent in this?"
"He can't"
"Why? An order? You are hiding something Kai and don't you ask me to stop reading you. I know that look of yours," I said immediately.
Kai quietly drape a white shirt over him and walked to the table.
"Get me all this by tomorrow morning. I need to recheck the inventive before the meeting,"
Almost instantly my anger boiled.
"I'm not your slave to run your errands,"
"Well you certainly are under my command June, remember that," He cut me off with an equal voice.
"You know breaking into the Calore court would do me a lot more harm than to others," I have no idea why my throat started clogging.
"You are a spy. I need you to be on your wit and quit faltering with the past,"
"Sometimes I wonder if you even have a heart with that arrogance of yours," I clenched my teeth not to spit anything more worse and walked off.
Tuesday, 5 July 2016
Locked Away
Is it even possible to fall in love in this current massacre?
Everyone is having a hard time working to survive this shift.
Living in small cabins after a huge apocalypse changes people's life and perspective so much.
And being a so called bartender doesn't give u any advantages as well besides you get to live in this cabin for free with food being catered to everyone on this place.
"They are performing again!! Whoops!" Some girls were rushing towards the mini stage where the so call band is performing. Either u perform, serve, wash dish,everyone here had to do a job to be able to live of in a conspicuously spaced cabin. It only fits a bed, a wardrobe and a small toilet. Well no luxury suites even for the riches.
"Who's performing today?" Amanda asked, she's not really permanent staff but she comes and goes.
"It's baekhyun and Chanyeol," I told her.
"Ohhh~ your hot stuff is performing?"
"Manda, he's not my hot stuffs for heavens sake," I whined at her.
"I can tell by the way you guys just look at each other El, that he's in to you,"
"He's totally not. He's just a friend," I protested.
Though in reality my heart does skips a beat whenever I talked to him or walk pass him to serve the guest,when our skins caress each other while sitting and chatting.
I do know the stares I've been getting from him. I do know sometimes he follows me quietly till I reach my cabin and I do know he sings at me sometimes.
"What do u think of the performance today?" Chanyeol asked while I served him his beer.
"Do I have to tell u guys this every single time you two perform?" I cross my hands and frown at them. I sighed at their childishness sometimes.
"Baekhyun came up with the lyrics this time and I composed the music. It was a original piece," Chanyeol exclaimed.
I looked at Baekhyun at raised my eyebrows.
"I'm the god of lyricist," He was trying to joke it off but it came like a show off.
"Show off," I mumbled but damn he looks so so, can I touch that lips of him?
Quickly dumping that thoughts I continued to serve the other guests. Three of us are having dinner later so they are waiting for me to end my shift.
I was walking with the two after dinner when Chanyeol's cabin reached, he went in. We greeted each other goodbyes and baekhyun told me he will accompany me till my cabin. I told him sure.
Awkward.
I cleared my throat to construct a sentence when I was interrupted by him pulling me into a corner of the walkway. He perfectly knows no one will walk in here.
I was so surprised that I squealed and I could feel my whole body was pulsating like it just ran a 100m sprint. He cornered me onto the wall and caged me with both his hands at my side. Staring into my eyes so deeply that I couldn't take it off either.
"Shhhh," was the only word he told me and the next this I know his lips was on mine. Goosebumps ran all over me but my instinct responded. It responded by giving him the kiss he gave me. My lips parted, I was breathing unsteadily.
"Are you even breathing?" He asked me teasing near my cheek.
I tried to push him away from my body but he was too strong and my legs were giving away. He chuckled and stared at my face. Smiling, he caressed my skin. From my forehead down to my nose and slowly to my lips.
"Close your eyes," he told me and I did after blinking several time. His breath was hitting my skin. It's like an act of electrocution. Slowly I feel his lips closing in to mine. This time it was really slow. His smooth soft lips were moving. My hands were contemplating on moving or not to. But I guess my brain just shuts it system and before I could realise it, one of my hand was on his jawline and one was behind his neck pulling and feeling his hair.
A small groaned escaped me and I choked in surprised. He chuckled at it. I bet my whole face is flushed right now.
"I think I got to be going in" I managed to whisper.
He finally let go of his cage around me and backed a little. I stood straight from my leaning position and stared at him.
"Go on," he said.
I moved out from the corner and into the small walkway to my cabin and unlocked it. He was still at the corner watching me till I went in. I shut myself in and my legs got weaker and I slid down behind my door. What did just happened just now? Did we just kissed? What was that even meant to be? What will happen from now on? So many questions but sleep took over.
"Ya chanyeol! That's wrong! Don't you even know how to mix the flour?" We were in cooking class because it was on of our free days and the three of us decided to take a toll n try some cooking lessons offered by the mothers in here. Chanyeol and I luckily got group together for a pair cooking while baekhyun was paired with another guy. And I could feel the jealousy rising from baekhyun because it was not him being paired with me. That side of him just gives me on that he was kind of possessive of his so called girlfriend. Yes we have been dating for 2 weeks now and there was a lot of kissings. Chanyeol knows but he was also teasing his friend. After the end of the session Chanyeol bid is bye because he had to head somewhere. So baekhyun and I was walking around the walkway that was designated to be like a mini park surrounding our cabins. I was heading towards to my cabins turn when baekhyun slowed down his pace and fell behind me. "Aish you scared me!" When I felt two strong arms were hugging be from behind. He laughed it off and suddenly became quiet. "Anything?" I asked. He just shook his head and buried his face into the back of my neck. "Can I sleep with you today?" He slowly asked. "Baekhyun, not today. Please?" He's been asking for the pass two weeks but I keep denying him. I'm not really sure if I'm ready to let him sleep with me. But I do know I really want him to be mine. He pouted but he was understanding and I'm glad he didn't push me either. "When you are ready ok?" He said in his low voice and I nodded. He kissed the back of my neck and let me go. I turned to face him and kissed him goodbye.
Morning with alarm clocks are always the worst of worse. I took of to my toilet to wash myself with a towel around me. Right after I stepped out of my toilet, I heard a knock. Who's this in this freaking early morning?! "Who's that?" The person didn't answer but my door knob twisted. All the sudden I rushed towards the door realizing I didn't lock my door shit! And It was too late. And came in the overprotective bf of mine. "You really should lock ur damn door El, if you don't want some weirdoes inside your cabin," "Ya you, you-," reality hit me that I'm only wearing a piece of towel around my body. Holy shit. Then only did he realise he was also staring at me in surprise. "You didn't answer me!" "That's not important," He said and pulled me towards the door. I leaned onto the door and
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(Author's Note: Well, I wrote this while I was at my workplace out of boredom and had to stop it halfway because I had to continue my work. Hahaha. So the half hanging story. :P )
"Ya chanyeol! That's wrong! Don't you even know how to mix the flour?" We were in cooking class because it was on of our free days and the three of us decided to take a toll n try some cooking lessons offered by the mothers in here. Chanyeol and I luckily got group together for a pair cooking while baekhyun was paired with another guy. And I could feel the jealousy rising from baekhyun because it was not him being paired with me. That side of him just gives me on that he was kind of possessive of his so called girlfriend. Yes we have been dating for 2 weeks now and there was a lot of kissings. Chanyeol knows but he was also teasing his friend. After the end of the session Chanyeol bid is bye because he had to head somewhere. So baekhyun and I was walking around the walkway that was designated to be like a mini park surrounding our cabins. I was heading towards to my cabins turn when baekhyun slowed down his pace and fell behind me. "Aish you scared me!" When I felt two strong arms were hugging be from behind. He laughed it off and suddenly became quiet. "Anything?" I asked. He just shook his head and buried his face into the back of my neck. "Can I sleep with you today?" He slowly asked. "Baekhyun, not today. Please?" He's been asking for the pass two weeks but I keep denying him. I'm not really sure if I'm ready to let him sleep with me. But I do know I really want him to be mine. He pouted but he was understanding and I'm glad he didn't push me either. "When you are ready ok?" He said in his low voice and I nodded. He kissed the back of my neck and let me go. I turned to face him and kissed him goodbye.
Morning with alarm clocks are always the worst of worse. I took of to my toilet to wash myself with a towel around me. Right after I stepped out of my toilet, I heard a knock. Who's this in this freaking early morning?! "Who's that?" The person didn't answer but my door knob twisted. All the sudden I rushed towards the door realizing I didn't lock my door shit! And It was too late. And came in the overprotective bf of mine. "You really should lock ur damn door El, if you don't want some weirdoes inside your cabin," "Ya you, you-," reality hit me that I'm only wearing a piece of towel around my body. Holy shit. Then only did he realise he was also staring at me in surprise. "You didn't answer me!" "That's not important," He said and pulled me towards the door. I leaned onto the door and
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(Author's Note: Well, I wrote this while I was at my workplace out of boredom and had to stop it halfway because I had to continue my work. Hahaha. So the half hanging story. :P )
Sunday, 1 May 2016
Stranger.
"Let's break up Lisa," His voice taunted me.
"Let's break up?! Let's break up! Break up!" I imitated him loud with my anger boiling in me reminiscing that moment he said that. The moment my wonderful 100th days together with him came down like an erupted volcano.
Walking down this empty park facing the river, alcohol bottle in my hand, my face probably looks like shit from all the crying and screaming because I fail at containing myself.
Watch shows 1.00am and here I am looking at the so called lovers river.
"Let's break up Lisa,"
I was chewing the delicious pork chop and stop midway as I process what he just said.
"What?" Questioning just in case I heard it wrong.
"Let's stop this relationship for now,"
"What are you talking? John, we are celebrating our 100th day together. What are you crapping right now?!" I asked putting my utensils down. Something in me is making me shiver.
"Lisa, I'm sorry. I know its sudden but I'm extremely sorry. Right now I need to focus on my career. I need to start focusing on my training. You know the agency is pushing me and all to make me debut right? I have to give my 100% for my debut, its one of my dream Lisa,"
"We talked about this John. We did it before. If there were time to come for you to debut, I'll support you and we will still be together no matter what. You told me you would not let me down no matter what and who you become of. What are you saying now?! Is this the agency? Is this them telling you to break up with me?!"
"Lisa, no. Let's just stop. Let's have a proper meal and part our ways in a nice way, can we?" His eyes was pleading with sincerity but only hatred came through me.
"Part in a nice way?" I snickered and stood up. Too much cliche but I dont think I can give him what he want right now. I took out my wallet and put my share of money on the table. "I know things were changing. I know you were busy with your debut schedule but I wonder how you are gonna be responsible for all the money your company is going to pour after your debut when you cant be responsible for a simple thing like this." and I left.
Sighing deeply, I took another sip from the bottle I was holding.
Strangely I feel like there was a shadow walking pass me. Turning to look who it was, I was taken back when I saw him wobbling towards the bench.
Stranger.
He could be a kidnapper Lisa! Walk away! My brain said.
Trying not to be too obvious but still watching him, it seems he is drunk. Did he break up with someone too? While my brain was bickering, I heard him making weird noise and he stood up. Walking towards me, my brain cell were shouting 'run! run! run!' but I froze.
"Ah- Ah, sir-,"
Before I could muster up my sentence to ask if he was okay or not, he puked just a few centimeters in front of me. Oh my gosh.
"Why did you do that Naeil ah?" He asked. Oh? Is he talking to me or is he just mumbling?
I look around before I walk towards him.
"Excuse me sir, I are you alright? Do you need help?" I patted his back while he was still in a bent position.
"Why Naeil? Am I not good enough already? I have money, I have a house and I- I am famous too, but why?"
He's famous? Now that I realise, I couldnt see his face in the dark. Who is this person? I tried to take a look at him but too much of his face was hidden.
"Sir, is it okay for you to be out like this?" I look around just in case there were someone who followed him or something. No one. What should I do? Leave him? Yes, I should. I tried backing up but somehow I felt guilty.
He seems to be in a worse position than me for being famous. I wonder if he's an actor or singer? Damn why is it so dark and shadowy. Should I call someone from his side? Oh, phone, where is his phone? All the sudden he plopped on me. Oh! Ohmygosh! No, no, I shouldn't be involved with these kind of people!
"Ah, Sir, is there anyone I could call for you? Sir-," He wasn't balancing and his body on me was getting heavier. I tried to move him to the bench but his footing weren't good. Aish!
"Naeil ah, thank you for coming, I know you would," I can feel him smiling.
"Sir, sir," I shook him off and that made him fell off and onto the ground. Omo! "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, are you okay?" I feel bad pushing him now. Why am I talking to him like he is in his right state of mind.
Look for the phone. I tried to find his phone in a less molesting way and found it in his front pocket. Taking it out, I saw the lock screen pic of a couple and goosebumps took over me.
Oh my God.
He is, he is. I took a good look at the person in front of me now and back at the phone.
"Let's break up?! Let's break up! Break up!" I imitated him loud with my anger boiling in me reminiscing that moment he said that. The moment my wonderful 100th days together with him came down like an erupted volcano.
Walking down this empty park facing the river, alcohol bottle in my hand, my face probably looks like shit from all the crying and screaming because I fail at containing myself.
Watch shows 1.00am and here I am looking at the so called lovers river.
"Let's break up Lisa,"
I was chewing the delicious pork chop and stop midway as I process what he just said.
"What?" Questioning just in case I heard it wrong.
"Let's stop this relationship for now,"
"What are you talking? John, we are celebrating our 100th day together. What are you crapping right now?!" I asked putting my utensils down. Something in me is making me shiver.
"Lisa, I'm sorry. I know its sudden but I'm extremely sorry. Right now I need to focus on my career. I need to start focusing on my training. You know the agency is pushing me and all to make me debut right? I have to give my 100% for my debut, its one of my dream Lisa,"
"We talked about this John. We did it before. If there were time to come for you to debut, I'll support you and we will still be together no matter what. You told me you would not let me down no matter what and who you become of. What are you saying now?! Is this the agency? Is this them telling you to break up with me?!"
"Lisa, no. Let's just stop. Let's have a proper meal and part our ways in a nice way, can we?" His eyes was pleading with sincerity but only hatred came through me.
"Part in a nice way?" I snickered and stood up. Too much cliche but I dont think I can give him what he want right now. I took out my wallet and put my share of money on the table. "I know things were changing. I know you were busy with your debut schedule but I wonder how you are gonna be responsible for all the money your company is going to pour after your debut when you cant be responsible for a simple thing like this." and I left.
Sighing deeply, I took another sip from the bottle I was holding.
Strangely I feel like there was a shadow walking pass me. Turning to look who it was, I was taken back when I saw him wobbling towards the bench.
Stranger.
He could be a kidnapper Lisa! Walk away! My brain said.
Trying not to be too obvious but still watching him, it seems he is drunk. Did he break up with someone too? While my brain was bickering, I heard him making weird noise and he stood up. Walking towards me, my brain cell were shouting 'run! run! run!' but I froze.
"Ah- Ah, sir-,"
Before I could muster up my sentence to ask if he was okay or not, he puked just a few centimeters in front of me. Oh my gosh.
"Why did you do that Naeil ah?" He asked. Oh? Is he talking to me or is he just mumbling?
I look around before I walk towards him.
"Excuse me sir, I are you alright? Do you need help?" I patted his back while he was still in a bent position.
"Why Naeil? Am I not good enough already? I have money, I have a house and I- I am famous too, but why?"
He's famous? Now that I realise, I couldnt see his face in the dark. Who is this person? I tried to take a look at him but too much of his face was hidden.
"Sir, is it okay for you to be out like this?" I look around just in case there were someone who followed him or something. No one. What should I do? Leave him? Yes, I should. I tried backing up but somehow I felt guilty.
He seems to be in a worse position than me for being famous. I wonder if he's an actor or singer? Damn why is it so dark and shadowy. Should I call someone from his side? Oh, phone, where is his phone? All the sudden he plopped on me. Oh! Ohmygosh! No, no, I shouldn't be involved with these kind of people!
"Ah, Sir, is there anyone I could call for you? Sir-," He wasn't balancing and his body on me was getting heavier. I tried to move him to the bench but his footing weren't good. Aish!
"Naeil ah, thank you for coming, I know you would," I can feel him smiling.
"Sir, sir," I shook him off and that made him fell off and onto the ground. Omo! "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, are you okay?" I feel bad pushing him now. Why am I talking to him like he is in his right state of mind.
Look for the phone. I tried to find his phone in a less molesting way and found it in his front pocket. Taking it out, I saw the lock screen pic of a couple and goosebumps took over me.
Oh my God.
He is, he is. I took a good look at the person in front of me now and back at the phone.
Sunday, 20 March 2016
Something
The lack of something.
What is it?
I keep trying to find it but its like trying to find needle in a haystack.
Something I need to find it myself.
Something in me.
What is it?
What is it?
I keep trying to find it but its like trying to find needle in a haystack.
Something I need to find it myself.
Something in me.
What is it?
Monday, 21 December 2015
Song For You
A perfect tune up. Some one was playing guitar in the neighbourhood.
A young girl walking pass by the junction can hear it. Its half past ten at night. Her tiring day went in a blink of an eye with the guitar playing in the background. She sat on the bench near the neighbourhood walkaway and kept on listening to the play. Few times that person adjusted the tune and corrected the melody in between but she loved it. She smiled as it ended and there was no more music in the background.
Little did she know that, this music was going to change the course of her life.
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"Alice! Take the order for table number 8,"
"Okay,"
Alice walked to table number 8, where a bunch of young guys were seated looking at their menus.
"Hi, welcome to Honey Star Cafe, ready to order?"
"Hi, sure, I'll have one green tea latte and a glass of water,"
"Hi, I'll have a hot chocolate,"
Alice took down the order and was waiting for the next two of them to order.
"Milk,"
"..." No response from the last one.
"Your order?" Alice looked at the last person who was busy scribbling something on his white paper. He was on earphones.
"Alex," The guy next to him swatted his arm. Now everyone was looking at him.
"Coffee, thanks."
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Its afternoon after Alice's first day of college. Her orientation ended early so she decided to head back home before her shift work starts. The weather was getting windier and clouds were getting denser. And all the sudden, it started pouring. "Oh shit."
She rushed towards the nearest shop she was walking by and entered to avoid getting her papers and books wet.
Turning around, she realised it was an instrument store. It was as though she had entered heaven. The smell of the wooden crafted ukuleles, guitars and pianos made her want to live in them. She saw a beautiful white piano displayed. She got closer to it and laid her fingers on the key.
"Beautiful isn't she?" Alice was awaken from her trance by a male voice and jumped back.
"Oh, sorry I didnt mean to touch it," She apologize.
"No, no, no worries. If you can play, go on," He smiled. He was a young man.
"Oh I, I-, I don't play," Alice was embarrassed by the fact. "I just love music but I'm not a good player," She snickered a sly laugh.
The young man moved closer to the piano and laid both his hands on the piano. Fingers spread, he started playing a tune. Though she couldn't recognize the play, it was a slow and smooth melody.
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Alice was walking to her next class when she heard something very familiar. She stood still. Turning around looking for where it was coming from, she saw a closed door labelled "Music Room". Interest pitched in her but she was already running late for class.
Anyhow she took the chance to glimpse through the glass window to only see a about 10 people sitting in a round. She couldn't guess who was playing it.
Why was she so curious about it anyway? She shook her head and ran for her next class.
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A young girl walking pass by the junction can hear it. Its half past ten at night. Her tiring day went in a blink of an eye with the guitar playing in the background. She sat on the bench near the neighbourhood walkaway and kept on listening to the play. Few times that person adjusted the tune and corrected the melody in between but she loved it. She smiled as it ended and there was no more music in the background.
Little did she know that, this music was going to change the course of her life.
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"Alice! Take the order for table number 8,"
"Okay,"
Alice walked to table number 8, where a bunch of young guys were seated looking at their menus.
"Hi, welcome to Honey Star Cafe, ready to order?"
"Hi, sure, I'll have one green tea latte and a glass of water,"
"Hi, I'll have a hot chocolate,"
Alice took down the order and was waiting for the next two of them to order.
"Milk,"
"..." No response from the last one.
"Your order?" Alice looked at the last person who was busy scribbling something on his white paper. He was on earphones.
"Alex," The guy next to him swatted his arm. Now everyone was looking at him.
"Coffee, thanks."
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Its afternoon after Alice's first day of college. Her orientation ended early so she decided to head back home before her shift work starts. The weather was getting windier and clouds were getting denser. And all the sudden, it started pouring. "Oh shit."
She rushed towards the nearest shop she was walking by and entered to avoid getting her papers and books wet.
Turning around, she realised it was an instrument store. It was as though she had entered heaven. The smell of the wooden crafted ukuleles, guitars and pianos made her want to live in them. She saw a beautiful white piano displayed. She got closer to it and laid her fingers on the key.
"Beautiful isn't she?" Alice was awaken from her trance by a male voice and jumped back.
"Oh, sorry I didnt mean to touch it," She apologize.
"No, no, no worries. If you can play, go on," He smiled. He was a young man.
"Oh I, I-, I don't play," Alice was embarrassed by the fact. "I just love music but I'm not a good player," She snickered a sly laugh.
The young man moved closer to the piano and laid both his hands on the piano. Fingers spread, he started playing a tune. Though she couldn't recognize the play, it was a slow and smooth melody.
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Alice was walking to her next class when she heard something very familiar. She stood still. Turning around looking for where it was coming from, she saw a closed door labelled "Music Room". Interest pitched in her but she was already running late for class.
Anyhow she took the chance to glimpse through the glass window to only see a about 10 people sitting in a round. She couldn't guess who was playing it.
Why was she so curious about it anyway? She shook her head and ran for her next class.
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'MUSIC CLUB AUDITION'
"Hey want to join?" Alice heard people whispering to their friends.
She was standing at the official notice board looking for something to join but he eye caught the music club audition. What can a girl like her do there? She can't sing and she can't play. Defeated by her own low self-esteem, she walk away but she took note of the date since it was an open invitation.
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"Next! Jason," One of the audition conductor called out names of each participants for their performance.
"Jason?" Alice wondered where she have seen that face before.
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It was Alice's free time and she told her new friends that she was not going to join them for lunch and catch them during class.
Walking down the familiar hallway, she found the room again.
This time she opened it. It wasn't locked and no one was in. The minute she stepped in, she felt a totally different vibe.
Someone cleared their throat from behind her. Goosebumps.
Turning, she saw a guy standing behind the opened door looking at her.
"Are you a new member?" He asked.
Familiar face again but her memory was blur on it.
"Err, I n-, ye-, err, yes, yes, I thought there was going to be a meet up or something?" She lied.
"There is?" He questioned more to himself.
"I guess not, maybe not today, I might have mixed up the date and time. I'm sorry, I'll get going," She was about to leave when he said, "Maybe I'll teach my juniors something if you are free,"
Stoned, Alice stood still figuring out a way to run away.
"You play or sing?" He asked.
"Sing," She answered straight away and facepalmed inside her heart.
With few tuning on the bass guitar chords, he started picking on the strings with a plectrum.
Alice don't quite understand what got into her but she started singing, "and at last I see the lights, and its like the fog is lifted, and at last I see the lights, and its like the sky is new,"
Alice don't quite understand what got into her but she started singing, "and at last I see the lights, and its like the fog is lifted, and at last I see the lights, and its like the sky is new,"
He kept on playing while looking at her.
"I can't continue, I have class to attend," Her face was burning.
"Okay, see you soon then,"
"Okay, see you soon then,"
Alice made a quick move to leave the room.
"Hey you sing well," was the last she heard.
She closed the door and ran.
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Wednesday, 2 December 2015
Tuesday, 24 November 2015
Sunday, 15 November 2015
Lessons from How I Met Your Mother.
So I have finally finished watching this so called super popular American TV series 'How I Met Your Mother'. The wholeeeeee 9 seasons in 1 months plus. LOL. Thanks to my crazy bestie (Well you know who your are) for recommending it to me. I totally fell in love with the series from the first episode itself. I highly recommend it to everyone. YES, EVERYONE. I went through hell of emotions while watching this series. Laughing when its silly and crying when it got tooo emotional. Besides, Watching How I Met Your Mother has made me learn a lot of lessons not just about relationship but also life lessons. What real life would be like sometimes. Here are few quotes, dialogues, maybe some are opinions that have made me realize about life and love.
"Shouldn't we hold out for the person who doesn't just tolerate our little quirks but actually kinda likes them?" - Ted
"There are certain things in life where you know its a mistake but you don't really know its a mistake because the only way to really know its a mistake is to make a mistake and look back and say yeap that was a mistake. So really, the bigger mistake would be not make the mistake then you really go your whole life not knowing it was a mistake or not." - Lily.
"Life has plenty of good parts, its the rough parts that makes you thankful that you have people to share it with"
When choosing your friends, imagine sitting on your front porch with them 50 years from now. Do you still want them to be there with you? If not, they’re not worth your time.
When you meet the right person you know it. You cant stop thinking about them. They are your best friend and your soulmate. You cant wait to spend the rest of your life with them and nothing else can compare.
"Your gonna lose a relationship if you keep lying, cutting a person out of decisions, if you keep using words like winning and losing when we talking about our marriage, its not gonna happen all at once but little by little, you gonna lose me," - Lily Aldrin.
"Its not crazy. It's love. If your looking for the word that means caring for someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want no matter how much it destroys you, its love and when you love someone, you just don't stop, ever. Even if people roll their eyes, call you crazy even then, especially then you don't give up because if I could give up, I take someone elses advice and move on, that wouldn't be love, that would be some other disposable thing that is not worth fighting for," Ted.
'Most importantly, whatever you do in your life, its not legendary unless your friends are there to see it.' - Barney.
No matter how hard we try even the best of us goes a little wild sometimes and in those moments we all need someone to help us rally.
Every relationship requires some level of compromise, after all, a couple can't work if they both had a personal mandate of "my way or the highway".
When you find someone you wanna keep around, you wanna do something about it.
None of us can vow to be perfect, in the end all you can do is promise to love each other with everything we got because love is the best thing we do.
"The future is scary but you can't just run back to the past because its familiar. Yes its tempting but its a mistake," - Robin.
"Being in love doesn't mean being "perfect." If you're afraid to have arguments, everything will just build up to the point where it's unhealthy, resentment breeds or things become completely explosive."
Learn to read between the lines. The most important things aren't directly said.
Chemistry is important, but its not eternal. You need a strong foundation for when the sexy stuff fades, because it will.
Do not postpone your own happiness.
I wonder how the screenwriter can come up with such nice things to say and some of them are kinda true too. Well though the ending of the last season was kind of a bummer @@ I had a great time watching it.
Peace!
Love,
Coffee.
"Shouldn't we hold out for the person who doesn't just tolerate our little quirks but actually kinda likes them?" - Ted
"There are certain things in life where you know its a mistake but you don't really know its a mistake because the only way to really know its a mistake is to make a mistake and look back and say yeap that was a mistake. So really, the bigger mistake would be not make the mistake then you really go your whole life not knowing it was a mistake or not." - Lily.
"Life has plenty of good parts, its the rough parts that makes you thankful that you have people to share it with"
When choosing your friends, imagine sitting on your front porch with them 50 years from now. Do you still want them to be there with you? If not, they’re not worth your time.
When you meet the right person you know it. You cant stop thinking about them. They are your best friend and your soulmate. You cant wait to spend the rest of your life with them and nothing else can compare.
"Your gonna lose a relationship if you keep lying, cutting a person out of decisions, if you keep using words like winning and losing when we talking about our marriage, its not gonna happen all at once but little by little, you gonna lose me," - Lily Aldrin.
"Its not crazy. It's love. If your looking for the word that means caring for someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want no matter how much it destroys you, its love and when you love someone, you just don't stop, ever. Even if people roll their eyes, call you crazy even then, especially then you don't give up because if I could give up, I take someone elses advice and move on, that wouldn't be love, that would be some other disposable thing that is not worth fighting for," Ted.
'Most importantly, whatever you do in your life, its not legendary unless your friends are there to see it.' - Barney.
No matter how hard we try even the best of us goes a little wild sometimes and in those moments we all need someone to help us rally.
Every relationship requires some level of compromise, after all, a couple can't work if they both had a personal mandate of "my way or the highway".
When you find someone you wanna keep around, you wanna do something about it.
None of us can vow to be perfect, in the end all you can do is promise to love each other with everything we got because love is the best thing we do.
"The future is scary but you can't just run back to the past because its familiar. Yes its tempting but its a mistake," - Robin.
"Being in love doesn't mean being "perfect." If you're afraid to have arguments, everything will just build up to the point where it's unhealthy, resentment breeds or things become completely explosive."
Learn to read between the lines. The most important things aren't directly said.
Chemistry is important, but its not eternal. You need a strong foundation for when the sexy stuff fades, because it will.
Do not postpone your own happiness.
I wonder how the screenwriter can come up with such nice things to say and some of them are kinda true too. Well though the ending of the last season was kind of a bummer @@ I had a great time watching it.
Peace!
Love,
Coffee.
Monday, 5 October 2015
Mis-takes.
"There are certain things in life where you know its a mistake but you don't really know its a mistake because the only way to really know its a mistake is to make a mistake and look back and say yeap that was a mistake. So really, the bigger mistake would be not make the mistake then you really go your whole life not knowing it was a mistake or not." - How I Met Your Mother.
Monday, 27 July 2015
Stars of Libraria
"Ella you can't keep daydreaming! This is our life, we have to accept it," Lea was hanging on me with her hands on both my arms.
"I hate it Li. I hate what we are doing, I hate this place and I hate that I hate it!" I'm not crying but anger tears are escaping.
Lea folded her arms against her chest and sighed, "I've got to go. Lady Jane will be waiting for her wine. You'll be alright alone?" There was concern on her eyes and voice but I just nod.
Lea, I call her Li and she's used to it. Serving the Majesty Lady Jane of Libraria, we are servants of the house.
Yes, servants.
Coming from a fourth tier family, people like us either opt to work as social servants outside this castle or inside. Females/ girls like us usually opt for inside because its definitely safer than outside. Social servants outside are mostly mans and work as soldiers, facing interstate wars for state peace.
Recently there is an eruption of wars due to placement of Lady Jane as Majesty of Libraria. Its not the interstate but in state as well. People hating each other, talking behind their backs. Well, only ways that got us surviving is to be neutral and work as nothing is happening around you.
Lea and I got into as servants 4 months ago. We are not related but our family comes from the fourth tier.
There are 5 different tiers of family.
First are the Majesties and his or her family.
Second tiers are the ministers who are directly under the Majesty
Thirds are sellers. They are usually those who can afford to open markets to sell stuffs from vegetables to cloths to guns.
Fourth tiers are people who volunteers to work with the Majesty as servants or soldiers. That's where my family stand. Dad was a soldier and he died in a war. Mum doesnt work but she uses our money and survives in our house back in Water Alley. My bro is still young and he's under a must go education system that really does not help your future.
And there's fifth tier, people in this tier are people who cant afford anything. They are either homeless or works with the sellers for small amount of money. That can only afford to buy food.
I was forced to work inside because girls my age are not allowed to be soldiers or go to war. I have knowledge in medicine and healing but what's the point if I'm cleaning house and doing house chores in this big house?
I've helped people with my healing stone and medicinal knowledge. That was when I met Julian.
To describe him, it might take me hours. But his eyes in the color of deep sea. You can't see past his eyes if you look at him. Shoulders broad enough that shows just how much power he has in his hands at the The First Son of Lady Jane. If there's one thing I know about Julian is he has this bright charming smile and kind heart. He fights for the state with other soldiers below him. People trust him. He brings the trust in them. Tousled brown hair that grows pass his eyebrow as well as being a brainiac is enough for girls to swoon over him.
Julian.
"You have got to go back to the castle El, its not safe to keep roaming around here,"
"I'm not leaving. People need me here. Its not getting any better with this war Julian. I've got to stay! You cant just ask me to go back after everything that is going on and will happen! I can't leave you like this too,"
"Dont make me do it," He was talking through his breath. Anger. A very rare one.
"I won't,"
"If people find out who you are and what you are, you cant longer help them. They will take away your stone and your knowledge in a blink of an eye," He was whispering. So much closer to my ears now.
It was dark and were were surrounded by tall trees. It was not really a good spot to talk secretly but what choice do we have? Not his camp and not mine either.
"But I'll miss you," Ii was so low but he heard it. Julian has sharp ears.
I came in as a healer because my dad was able to get me in. People who knows my dad knows me but not everyone. Most of them think I'm a guy who covers himself with emergency mask and cap. Keeping my hair short was an advantage. This was what I wanted to do. To help people and it took me almost a month to convince my dad.
Julian. How did he know? Because of a most pathetic reason. He knows. He just knows.
One day when there was a retreat from another state, I was helping Julian for the first time. I have no idea who I was helping.
"How did you got in here?" He ask quietly as I was wrapping his arm with bandage.
His question was tricky but I got the idea on what was his question.
"My dad told me you were hurt. He pointed to this direction," I told him anyhow to divert it.
"No. You. You are not-"
"Shhhhhh" I silenced him.
He was shocked at my action of putting one of my fingers on his lips.
I quickly took it away knowing my mistake.
"Please. Dont tell me in. I want to help you guys. Please,"
He chuckled and I wasnt sure if he's serious or teasing. That was when I really saw who he was.
"My Sir, is everything ok?" My dad came up to us. Sir? My face started to heat up realising who I was treating. It was The First Son of Lady Jane. I locked my eyes on him but he wasnt looking at me. So this is the son?
"Ah, yes," Julian gave a no-problem nod. Dad looked at me and it signaled my time to leave the place and go find others who needs my help.
"Ella? Ella wake up," Some one shook me awake and I stood straight up realizing I shouldnt have fell asleep in the first place.
It was Lea.
"Oh my gosh, I-, I was supposed to bring dinner to Kyle!" My face started to turn red. It seriously was a big mistake to fell asleep. Oh no, no, no. Kyle is not your kind of person to handle.
I look at Lea agaped. Thinking of an excuse for bring his dinner late.
"I've already gave him his dinner," Lea said smiling and I can see she was tired.
Kyle, The Second Son of Lady Jane was a ruthless guy, he throws food if he doesnt like it, he shouts at the servants if they didnt bring his breakfast to his room. He ignores his mother's command at times. He get drunks. I've seen worse of Kyle when he threw all his dinner away because I was late by few minutes for the first time I met Kyle. He was the total opposite of Julian.
"I hate it Li. I hate what we are doing, I hate this place and I hate that I hate it!" I'm not crying but anger tears are escaping.
Lea folded her arms against her chest and sighed, "I've got to go. Lady Jane will be waiting for her wine. You'll be alright alone?" There was concern on her eyes and voice but I just nod.
Lea, I call her Li and she's used to it. Serving the Majesty Lady Jane of Libraria, we are servants of the house.
Yes, servants.
Coming from a fourth tier family, people like us either opt to work as social servants outside this castle or inside. Females/ girls like us usually opt for inside because its definitely safer than outside. Social servants outside are mostly mans and work as soldiers, facing interstate wars for state peace.
Recently there is an eruption of wars due to placement of Lady Jane as Majesty of Libraria. Its not the interstate but in state as well. People hating each other, talking behind their backs. Well, only ways that got us surviving is to be neutral and work as nothing is happening around you.
Lea and I got into as servants 4 months ago. We are not related but our family comes from the fourth tier.
There are 5 different tiers of family.
First are the Majesties and his or her family.
Second tiers are the ministers who are directly under the Majesty
Thirds are sellers. They are usually those who can afford to open markets to sell stuffs from vegetables to cloths to guns.
Fourth tiers are people who volunteers to work with the Majesty as servants or soldiers. That's where my family stand. Dad was a soldier and he died in a war. Mum doesnt work but she uses our money and survives in our house back in Water Alley. My bro is still young and he's under a must go education system that really does not help your future.
And there's fifth tier, people in this tier are people who cant afford anything. They are either homeless or works with the sellers for small amount of money. That can only afford to buy food.
I was forced to work inside because girls my age are not allowed to be soldiers or go to war. I have knowledge in medicine and healing but what's the point if I'm cleaning house and doing house chores in this big house?
I've helped people with my healing stone and medicinal knowledge. That was when I met Julian.
To describe him, it might take me hours. But his eyes in the color of deep sea. You can't see past his eyes if you look at him. Shoulders broad enough that shows just how much power he has in his hands at the The First Son of Lady Jane. If there's one thing I know about Julian is he has this bright charming smile and kind heart. He fights for the state with other soldiers below him. People trust him. He brings the trust in them. Tousled brown hair that grows pass his eyebrow as well as being a brainiac is enough for girls to swoon over him.
Julian.
"You have got to go back to the castle El, its not safe to keep roaming around here,"
"I'm not leaving. People need me here. Its not getting any better with this war Julian. I've got to stay! You cant just ask me to go back after everything that is going on and will happen! I can't leave you like this too,"
"Dont make me do it," He was talking through his breath. Anger. A very rare one.
"I won't,"
"If people find out who you are and what you are, you cant longer help them. They will take away your stone and your knowledge in a blink of an eye," He was whispering. So much closer to my ears now.
It was dark and were were surrounded by tall trees. It was not really a good spot to talk secretly but what choice do we have? Not his camp and not mine either.
"But I'll miss you," Ii was so low but he heard it. Julian has sharp ears.
I came in as a healer because my dad was able to get me in. People who knows my dad knows me but not everyone. Most of them think I'm a guy who covers himself with emergency mask and cap. Keeping my hair short was an advantage. This was what I wanted to do. To help people and it took me almost a month to convince my dad.
Julian. How did he know? Because of a most pathetic reason. He knows. He just knows.
One day when there was a retreat from another state, I was helping Julian for the first time. I have no idea who I was helping.
"How did you got in here?" He ask quietly as I was wrapping his arm with bandage.
His question was tricky but I got the idea on what was his question.
"My dad told me you were hurt. He pointed to this direction," I told him anyhow to divert it.
"No. You. You are not-"
"Shhhhhh" I silenced him.
He was shocked at my action of putting one of my fingers on his lips.
I quickly took it away knowing my mistake.
"Please. Dont tell me in. I want to help you guys. Please,"
He chuckled and I wasnt sure if he's serious or teasing. That was when I really saw who he was.
"My Sir, is everything ok?" My dad came up to us. Sir? My face started to heat up realising who I was treating. It was The First Son of Lady Jane. I locked my eyes on him but he wasnt looking at me. So this is the son?
"Ah, yes," Julian gave a no-problem nod. Dad looked at me and it signaled my time to leave the place and go find others who needs my help.
"Ella? Ella wake up," Some one shook me awake and I stood straight up realizing I shouldnt have fell asleep in the first place.
It was Lea.
"Oh my gosh, I-, I was supposed to bring dinner to Kyle!" My face started to turn red. It seriously was a big mistake to fell asleep. Oh no, no, no. Kyle is not your kind of person to handle.
I look at Lea agaped. Thinking of an excuse for bring his dinner late.
"I've already gave him his dinner," Lea said smiling and I can see she was tired.
Kyle, The Second Son of Lady Jane was a ruthless guy, he throws food if he doesnt like it, he shouts at the servants if they didnt bring his breakfast to his room. He ignores his mother's command at times. He get drunks. I've seen worse of Kyle when he threw all his dinner away because I was late by few minutes for the first time I met Kyle. He was the total opposite of Julian.
Saturday, 2 May 2015
When I was a Kid
Helllloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,
Readers/people/strangers/acquaintance/besties/whomever reading this XD
It been almost a month plus I last updated, even though I go online a lot to check on peoples blog update. Haha. Well, I'm actually busy with my final year and labwork and assignments and presentation. Pretty much what everyone goes through in their final semester.
Well, lets come back to my title, 'When I was a kid' is a copy paste of When I was a Kid by Beoy, a Malaysian author who writes about his childhood experience when he was a kid, I read all 3 of his books and it always reminds me of my younger days and how I ridiculously funny and weird and lame I was.
And I thought why not I try to write out mine while I go down my own memory lane :P
1. Run, dinosaurs!
When I was kid, Jurassic Park was famous. I remember watching the movie over and over again on TV.
There was this scene in Jurassic Park where, the kids and their dad were being chased by dinosaurs and they were running to save themselves. They finally came to this fence and had to climb over.
Me after the movie, pretending to be chased by invisible dinosaurs and runs around the house and climb over staircase, pretend to fall and hurt and pretend to run again.
2. Washing Machine Ride
My house had this washing machine, well you know how it looks like right? It spins when you press start. So when I was a kid, I used to sit inside the washing machine because I fit perfectly well inside it and spin myself around till I get dizzy. Hahaha.
3. Grass Cutter?
Last time before my house was renovated, we had a lawn of grass at our house compound. There would be grass cutters covered in boots and mask and looks like fire fighter weekly.or monthly coming over to trim the grass. When I was a kid, I dreamt of becoming a grass cutter because I thought the equipment for trimming the grass was just too cool.
That's all for today XDDD
From,
Coffee.
Readers/people/strangers/acquaintance/besties/whomever reading this XD
It been almost a month plus I last updated, even though I go online a lot to check on peoples blog update. Haha. Well, I'm actually busy with my final year and labwork and assignments and presentation. Pretty much what everyone goes through in their final semester.
Well, lets come back to my title, 'When I was a kid' is a copy paste of When I was a Kid by Beoy, a Malaysian author who writes about his childhood experience when he was a kid, I read all 3 of his books and it always reminds me of my younger days and how I ridiculously funny and weird and lame I was.
And I thought why not I try to write out mine while I go down my own memory lane :P
1. Run, dinosaurs!
When I was kid, Jurassic Park was famous. I remember watching the movie over and over again on TV.
There was this scene in Jurassic Park where, the kids and their dad were being chased by dinosaurs and they were running to save themselves. They finally came to this fence and had to climb over.
Me after the movie, pretending to be chased by invisible dinosaurs and runs around the house and climb over staircase, pretend to fall and hurt and pretend to run again.
2. Washing Machine Ride
My house had this washing machine, well you know how it looks like right? It spins when you press start. So when I was a kid, I used to sit inside the washing machine because I fit perfectly well inside it and spin myself around till I get dizzy. Hahaha.
3. Grass Cutter?
Last time before my house was renovated, we had a lawn of grass at our house compound. There would be grass cutters covered in boots and mask and looks like fire fighter weekly.or monthly coming over to trim the grass. When I was a kid, I dreamt of becoming a grass cutter because I thought the equipment for trimming the grass was just too cool.
That's all for today XDDD
From,
Coffee.
Saturday, 7 March 2015
Amnesia.
"Morning! Rise and shineee!"
"Hmmm, let me sleep for a while moreeeeee," She growls and turns away from the sunlight that was hitting her face.
"Its our honeymoon, we are supposed to be out enjoying," I tried peeling the blanket.
"Its our honeymoon that's why we are suppose to be sleeping in a day long," she mumbled and let the blanket goes off.
"Are you gonna wake up or do you want me to wake you up?" I climbed on the bed.
Her eyes opened the next second she felt the bed squeak or was it the part where I told her i'll wake her up?
"Go away from me you pervert," She moved to the side and pushed using both her legs but it wasn't good enough to move me.
"Hehehe," I made an evil laugh and close in towards the lying body.
"AHHHH!" She screamed and laughed. "You are heavyy!"
That made me chuckle.
I pulled her on top of me and made myself facing her with my back on the bed.
She acted as though she was still sleeping.
I looked at that beautiful flawless face that I married to. Just enough to make my day bright and sorrow gone to the bin. Her ruffled hair made her look more sexy and mature. I smiled and kissed her sharp nose.
"Morning," She whispered.
And it went black. I couldn't see anything. I open and closed my eyes but it was still pitch dark.
"Peter? Peter? Can you see me?" A voice that wasn't familiar was floating above me. Then I could see everything. The bright light was coming back but I wasn't at the hotel room with Emily. I was at a place surrounded by white walls and machines and a glucose bottle was going into my vein. Hospital?
I saw the doctor rushing towards me.
"Mr. Peter, stay calm, you are alright now," The doctor said but took out a stethoscope to check my heartbeat. "Do you remember you name sir?" Said the doctor.
"Well yes, I'm Peter of course. Wait why am I in the hospital? Where's Emily?"
"Mr. Peter, you have been in coma for a month now,"
"Is Emily here? We were at out honeymoon when I went blank. Where is she?" I tried to look around but I only saw another girl/women with worried look.
"Oh, Pete," She sighed but sadness can be seen in her eyes.
"Who are you?"
Her face went blank and she ran out crying.
"Is there anyone else?" I asked the doctor who was still standing there.
"Son! Peter!" I saw my mum and dad and sister walking in now.
"Ma? Appa? Nelly? Where's Emmie?" I was so confused.
"Oh dear lord. She's not here Pete,"
"Why?! What happened? How come I was in coma for a month?"
"You met an accident Pete," My sister said with her stern tough voice she always use when it comes to serious matter. "Emily is no longer with us nor does she belong to you anymore. The doctor said you might have an amnesia that leads you to forgot what happens for the past years," Her eyes were teary.
I was frowning. "What?"
"Hmmm, let me sleep for a while moreeeeee," She growls and turns away from the sunlight that was hitting her face.
"Its our honeymoon, we are supposed to be out enjoying," I tried peeling the blanket.
"Its our honeymoon that's why we are suppose to be sleeping in a day long," she mumbled and let the blanket goes off.
"Are you gonna wake up or do you want me to wake you up?" I climbed on the bed.
Her eyes opened the next second she felt the bed squeak or was it the part where I told her i'll wake her up?
"Go away from me you pervert," She moved to the side and pushed using both her legs but it wasn't good enough to move me.
"Hehehe," I made an evil laugh and close in towards the lying body.
"AHHHH!" She screamed and laughed. "You are heavyy!"
That made me chuckle.
I pulled her on top of me and made myself facing her with my back on the bed.
She acted as though she was still sleeping.
I looked at that beautiful flawless face that I married to. Just enough to make my day bright and sorrow gone to the bin. Her ruffled hair made her look more sexy and mature. I smiled and kissed her sharp nose.
"Morning," She whispered.
And it went black. I couldn't see anything. I open and closed my eyes but it was still pitch dark.
"Peter? Peter? Can you see me?" A voice that wasn't familiar was floating above me. Then I could see everything. The bright light was coming back but I wasn't at the hotel room with Emily. I was at a place surrounded by white walls and machines and a glucose bottle was going into my vein. Hospital?
I saw the doctor rushing towards me.
"Mr. Peter, stay calm, you are alright now," The doctor said but took out a stethoscope to check my heartbeat. "Do you remember you name sir?" Said the doctor.
"Well yes, I'm Peter of course. Wait why am I in the hospital? Where's Emily?"
"Mr. Peter, you have been in coma for a month now,"
"Is Emily here? We were at out honeymoon when I went blank. Where is she?" I tried to look around but I only saw another girl/women with worried look.
"Oh, Pete," She sighed but sadness can be seen in her eyes.
"Who are you?"
Her face went blank and she ran out crying.
"Is there anyone else?" I asked the doctor who was still standing there.
"Son! Peter!" I saw my mum and dad and sister walking in now.
"Ma? Appa? Nelly? Where's Emmie?" I was so confused.
"Oh dear lord. She's not here Pete,"
"Why?! What happened? How come I was in coma for a month?"
"You met an accident Pete," My sister said with her stern tough voice she always use when it comes to serious matter. "Emily is no longer with us nor does she belong to you anymore. The doctor said you might have an amnesia that leads you to forgot what happens for the past years," Her eyes were teary.
I was frowning. "What?"
Friday, 6 March 2015
Random Story.
"Sena, you will be looking after the members for a few months till their manager comes back," Says the president.
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"Kai!" Sena almost shouted but she suddenly got aware that they were in a building full of people.
"What?" He stopped what he was doing and turned around to look at her.
"Were you blind? I am right in front of you!" She said almost annoyed by his attitude.
"Oh really? So what? You've seen me changed before right?" He smirked.
Sena frowned as Kai neared her and wrapped his arm around her. "That was in your house. Not when there's people around," She growled and pull away to walk out.
Sena has already gotten used to this stupid thing Kai does like Sena was just a guy and not a girl. At times Sena wonders if he is a homo or what.
"Suho, where are you guys? Kai is already here," Sena asked through the phone call she made on her way out of the changing room.
"On our way Sena. Stuck in a jam. Will be there soon," Suho answered on the other side.
"Okay," She settled down on the corridor benches outside the changing room.
Kai got here early because of his different schedule from the others.
The changing room door opened and Kai came out with the performance outfit and walked passed her. "YA! Where are you going? The others will be here soon, you better stay put,"
He ignored her as if she didnt even talk and walked away and turn to the left of the corridor.
She took a deep breath.
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"What?" He stopped what he was doing and turned around to look at her.
"Were you blind? I am right in front of you!" She said almost annoyed by his attitude.
"Oh really? So what? You've seen me changed before right?" He smirked.
Sena frowned as Kai neared her and wrapped his arm around her. "That was in your house. Not when there's people around," She growled and pull away to walk out.
Sena has already gotten used to this stupid thing Kai does like Sena was just a guy and not a girl. At times Sena wonders if he is a homo or what.
"Suho, where are you guys? Kai is already here," Sena asked through the phone call she made on her way out of the changing room.
"On our way Sena. Stuck in a jam. Will be there soon," Suho answered on the other side.
"Okay," She settled down on the corridor benches outside the changing room.
Kai got here early because of his different schedule from the others.
The changing room door opened and Kai came out with the performance outfit and walked passed her. "YA! Where are you going? The others will be here soon, you better stay put,"
He ignored her as if she didnt even talk and walked away and turn to the left of the corridor.
She took a deep breath.
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"So are you guys ready?" She asked one last time before they take the stage.
There were already loud cheers from the fans when the group name were announced.
"We are!" They said together. Sena looked at Kai. He wasn't looking at her.
"Okay, I promised you guys Korean BBQ after this right? So, do well!" She cheered them up and smiled.
"YEAY!" Chanyeol and Baek squealed.
"Your mics are gonna be on soon, so no more mumblings ok!" She pushed them forward.
Everyone moved except for Kai.
She looked at him and saw that he was staring at her.
"Kai, faster, before they start the music!" Her eyes gotten wide when he came close and kissed her cheek and walked towards the others like usual and joined them.
Her heartbeat rose up so much that she can feel blood rushing to her cheeks.
She looked down at her hand and noticed the ring she is wearing, carved, Kai.
There were already loud cheers from the fans when the group name were announced.
"We are!" They said together. Sena looked at Kai. He wasn't looking at her.
"Okay, I promised you guys Korean BBQ after this right? So, do well!" She cheered them up and smiled.
"YEAY!" Chanyeol and Baek squealed.
"Your mics are gonna be on soon, so no more mumblings ok!" She pushed them forward.
Everyone moved except for Kai.
She looked at him and saw that he was staring at her.
"Kai, faster, before they start the music!" Her eyes gotten wide when he came close and kissed her cheek and walked towards the others like usual and joined them.
Her heartbeat rose up so much that she can feel blood rushing to her cheeks.
She looked down at her hand and noticed the ring she is wearing, carved, Kai.
Thursday, 5 March 2015
Random Story.
"Oh come on just finish those Cyanne!" Kate was yelling at me for leaving two bites of food on the plate.
"I can't. I'm super duper full," I showed her my puppy face though I know it won't work on her.
"Eat it." She was stern and stood up to clean her plates and spoon and the empty dishes.
Yeap, that's Kate my housemate I've been living with for almost a year and half. I've left my hometown Georgio to continue my studies at in Broadcasting and Journalism in the university miles away from my house. Kate's a friend I will rarely get with her sarcasm and wit but she does hate it when people don't finish her food she cook. So I chunk all the food in the plate in one go and swallowed. Not that its not nice, its just my appetite is very tiny to go on with.
Yeap, that's Kate my housemate I've been living with for almost a year and half. I've left my hometown Georgio to continue my studies at in Broadcasting and Journalism in the university miles away from my house. Kate's a friend I will rarely get with her sarcasm and wit but she does hate it when people don't finish her food she cook. So I chunk all the food in the plate in one go and swallowed. Not that its not nice, its just my appetite is very tiny to go on with.
"How' your preparation with the concert going on?" Kate ask while washing the dishes at the zinc counter.
"So far no problem. I have Dave, Rick and Charles helping me with the flyers and tickets. Sophia is helping me with the decoration and stage arrangement. I guess one thing left for me to look for is the sound system and lighting," I fiddle with the waste on my plate.
Its been a crazy month for me because as the president of the Music club, I have to take an initiative to be active on something and the members and myself have came up with the idea to do an open concert collaboration with other universities around and also from each school to perform.
"I have someone I know that might help you with the sound and lighting system. Let me see if I still have his number," She put the last washed plates on the plate hanger and took her phone out from her pocket. "Oh here it is, take down, name, Harry, number, 06-675893202,"
"Harry?" I gave her a quizzical look.
"Oh come on! You can't possibly think only your ex has the name Harry?" Kate rolled her eyes.
"Ok, ok, I'll call on check on it then," I stood up and went back to my room while Kate continued cleaning the table.
Harry, no. Please, dont do this. Harry! You can't do this. Listen we can talk through it, come on. Please pick up my phone.
I looked at the dial-er with the name Harry on it. Sighed and pressed call.
"Hello?" A voice of a guy answered. Oh come on, just talk! He's not the Harry that left you.
"Hello? Who's this on the line?" The voice asked again.
"Sorry, sorry, hi! I mean hello, this is Cyanne,"
"Cyanne how can I help you?"
What's' wrong with you Cyanne! Talk.
"My friend gave me your number so I could ask/talk to you about sound and lighting system for a concert I'm planning,"
"Oh, is that so? Great. That means we must meet up to talk about it with my boss,"
"Oh, great. Okay, I'll see you then, Harry right?"
"Yeap, See you,"
I shut the phone.
"I have someone I know that might help you with the sound and lighting system. Let me see if I still have his number," She put the last washed plates on the plate hanger and took her phone out from her pocket. "Oh here it is, take down, name, Harry, number, 06-675893202,"
"Harry?" I gave her a quizzical look.
"Oh come on! You can't possibly think only your ex has the name Harry?" Kate rolled her eyes.
"Ok, ok, I'll call on check on it then," I stood up and went back to my room while Kate continued cleaning the table.
Harry, no. Please, dont do this. Harry! You can't do this. Listen we can talk through it, come on. Please pick up my phone.
I looked at the dial-er with the name Harry on it. Sighed and pressed call.
"Hello?" A voice of a guy answered. Oh come on, just talk! He's not the Harry that left you.
"Hello? Who's this on the line?" The voice asked again.
"Sorry, sorry, hi! I mean hello, this is Cyanne,"
"Cyanne how can I help you?"
What's' wrong with you Cyanne! Talk.
"My friend gave me your number so I could ask/talk to you about sound and lighting system for a concert I'm planning,"
"Oh, is that so? Great. That means we must meet up to talk about it with my boss,"
"Oh, great. Okay, I'll see you then, Harry right?"
"Yeap, See you,"
I shut the phone.
Friday, 27 February 2015
I KENOT 'TAHAN' THIS.
YES, THE TITLE SAYS IT ALL.
If you are asking about what do you mean by that title, it is about 'BOREDOM'.
You read it right. BOREDOM.
I AM TOTALLY BORED TO DEATH RIGHT NOW. LIKE SERIOUSLY. MY HEAD IS GOING CRAZY. I NEED TO DO SOMETHING, I NEED TO STUDY SOMETHING, I CANT HANDLE MYSELF BEING CAGED IN MY OWN HOUSE.
Excuse me for typing all my words in capital letters. I just had the need to release all my bulked up boredom into writing it out that it came out bold and mad.
Let me give me a basic routine of what I do in my house;
Morning;
Wake up 9am/9.30am, pick up the phone next to me to wish Waikeong and some others who I got notifications from the other social networks, 10am go downstairs, brush teeth, make breakfast, eat. 11.30/12pm, starts cleaning up study room, my room and parents room, sometimes go out to buy something for mum for lunch preparation.
Afternoon;
Shower, sit, do dad's paperwork at the same time procrastinate, reply Waikeong and chat with him on Whatsapp, scroll FB, Twitter, Instagram at the same time, listen to songs/covers, talk to mum sometimes, then go back to bussiness, do dad's paper work, and repeat, makan.
Evening;
Same thing. Except no more talking to mum. Just help her hang the washed cloths. Sometimes tries to do workout.
Night;
Surf the net till bedtime, makan, sleep.
So alll these repeated routine is driving me NUTS. Its insane staying at home and doing things that bores me. I have tried doing some other things like baking, watching korean shows but all these comes to an end and my boredom kills me again.
I just cant wait for my semester to start so I can get my ass back to Taylor's and start with my Final Year Project.
3 MONTHS OF FREAKING SEMESTER BREAK IS WAY TOO MUCH FOR ME TO TAKE IT.
Its not like I'm on holidays or what not to enjoy it. Its just going back to home. Though there are times, my parents bring me out for a small outing. Even that doesnt last long okay. I mean I can come up with something, like write a story, or read up my novels, or continue my FB adlibs or draw but it just didnt struck the interest in me for now. All I can think of is going back to my University and start my semester. I'm all hyped up for it to start!
This got me to realize that, I'm not the kind of person that can stay at home and do nothing. I need to walk around, make myself busy and make myself interested in something.
Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock. Time seems to fly so slow when I'm eagerly waiting the it to pass by.
Sigh, anyway I'm sorry for taking up your time to read my bored up boring post because I got bored and blogged. Hahaha.
Love,
Coffee.
If you are asking about what do you mean by that title, it is about 'BOREDOM'.
You read it right. BOREDOM.
I AM TOTALLY BORED TO DEATH RIGHT NOW. LIKE SERIOUSLY. MY HEAD IS GOING CRAZY. I NEED TO DO SOMETHING, I NEED TO STUDY SOMETHING, I CANT HANDLE MYSELF BEING CAGED IN MY OWN HOUSE.
Excuse me for typing all my words in capital letters. I just had the need to release all my bulked up boredom into writing it out that it came out bold and mad.
Let me give me a basic routine of what I do in my house;
Morning;
Wake up 9am/9.30am, pick up the phone next to me to wish Waikeong and some others who I got notifications from the other social networks, 10am go downstairs, brush teeth, make breakfast, eat. 11.30/12pm, starts cleaning up study room, my room and parents room, sometimes go out to buy something for mum for lunch preparation.
Afternoon;
Shower, sit, do dad's paperwork at the same time procrastinate, reply Waikeong and chat with him on Whatsapp, scroll FB, Twitter, Instagram at the same time, listen to songs/covers, talk to mum sometimes, then go back to bussiness, do dad's paper work, and repeat, makan.
Evening;
Same thing. Except no more talking to mum. Just help her hang the washed cloths. Sometimes tries to do workout.
Night;
Surf the net till bedtime, makan, sleep.
So alll these repeated routine is driving me NUTS. Its insane staying at home and doing things that bores me. I have tried doing some other things like baking, watching korean shows but all these comes to an end and my boredom kills me again.
I just cant wait for my semester to start so I can get my ass back to Taylor's and start with my Final Year Project.
3 MONTHS OF FREAKING SEMESTER BREAK IS WAY TOO MUCH FOR ME TO TAKE IT.
Its not like I'm on holidays or what not to enjoy it. Its just going back to home. Though there are times, my parents bring me out for a small outing. Even that doesnt last long okay. I mean I can come up with something, like write a story, or read up my novels, or continue my FB adlibs or draw but it just didnt struck the interest in me for now. All I can think of is going back to my University and start my semester. I'm all hyped up for it to start!
This got me to realize that, I'm not the kind of person that can stay at home and do nothing. I need to walk around, make myself busy and make myself interested in something.
Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock. Time seems to fly so slow when I'm eagerly waiting the it to pass by.
Sigh, anyway I'm sorry for taking up your time to read my bored up boring post because I got bored and blogged. Hahaha.
Love,
Coffee.
Tuesday, 17 February 2015
Will always be there.
Hello to everybody who's having the holiday of their life and to those who's life is just as boring and meagre as me. TT,TT Tht's because I'm on my semester break which is not really a holiday for me. 3 months of semester break is just too longggg and horribly boring ya know!
Anyway, it's been ages since I blogged something proper right? So here's something I just thought of posting after reading tonnes and tonnes of articles about being in a relationship and keeping it long distance for a certain period of time. I know I'm gonna crap stuffs again but bear with me ya~.
I was thinking of posting it after I start my semester but then nah, I'm too bored and I wanna blog something and post something. =P
So it's been almost 2 years eh? Like not yet but almost, very close.Ah, yes its about my relationship with this most lamest, silliest, and also ridiculous boyfriend I ever had. Never thought I could hold on to this for this long actually. When I first accepted him, I was never on the mindset to see my future with him. Never did I thought I was going to set my heart for him. All I thought was I should give in and give myself and him a chance. After all, I rejected him few times and he was still after me for months and months. In the end, he took this one chance I gave him and showed me he's worthwhile by just being plain himself.
Being in a relationship got me to realize, not all guys are the same. When you expect him to be your king or prince charming or whatever Korean drama type of guy but no. Reality is wayy, wayyyy different than you think it could be. At least its not as worse as Korean dramas.
As for this fella, he's just plain himself. I mean he does try to make me happy. His effort that I always treasure. Even it is just plain simple things like visiting me out of the blue, getting me Famous Amos cookies, bringing me out for dinner or dessert eating and even inviting me over to his house for dinner too. He's always trying to make me happy.
And our relationship was nothing like Korean dramas. It was just plain simple and we always go with the flow. He's willing to be responsible. The most important thing being in a relationship that I learn was both the girl and the guy have to be responsible. Its not just the guy that has to take effort but the girl too.
I've done my part to appreciate what ever things he has done to me, make it it was romantic or not such as just driving me to school even when he's no more attending or bringing me out for dinner after his work even when he's dead tired (yeah he was working for time being till he got accepted to go Aussie to continue his studies if you guys are wondering. He was doing his internship.). To that I've tried to make him my own made cards, photo books of us, giving him letters, get him small things that he likes (especially foods), cooking for him. Though I know I kinda suck at that still and I even tried baking (This came out successful because I ended up taking baking as my new hobby!) Even it is not big I hope he understands.
So now he has already flown to Australia to continue his final year there for 10 months. I supported his decision on letting him go miles away from his family and me to study. Its also one of my way to let him know that I trust him no matter where he goes. I was happy that he's going overseas, few thousand miles away to continue his last year. He can finally get to see the outside world without his parents and also learn to be independent (though he was already independent) XD. But yeah.
I thought I could handle the relationship with him being so far away. With me not being able to see him face to face, with me not being able to hold his and tease him and bully him, cry to him, go out 'makan' with him and his family and what not. I thought I was super ready because its just freaking 10 months. But I guess I wastotally tiny bit wrong. :( I was totally holding up my tears, showing off he's the weak one crying. :P but then when he left us (me and his family) standing there looking at the signboard 'international departure', I realized the biggggggggggggggg hole.
When I reached home that night, I couldn't sleep, thinking how am I going to survive when I come back to KL again? Its not going to be the same anymore. He wont come and visit me, or he wont be there to surprise me, I have to go out dinner by myself and also do grocery shopping alone. All I can do was miss him. Ah, the next 10 months (my Final year project and also my internship) gonna be totally different I realized.
But we got a chance to challenge our relationship. Its to take up all the ups and downs by being far apart and come out clear after that!
#random
From,
Coffee.
Anyway, it's been ages since I blogged something proper right? So here's something I just thought of posting after reading tonnes and tonnes of articles about being in a relationship and keeping it long distance for a certain period of time. I know I'm gonna crap stuffs again but bear with me ya~.
I was thinking of posting it after I start my semester but then nah, I'm too bored and I wanna blog something and post something. =P
So it's been almost 2 years eh? Like not yet but almost, very close.Ah, yes its about my relationship with this most lamest, silliest, and also ridiculous boyfriend I ever had. Never thought I could hold on to this for this long actually. When I first accepted him, I was never on the mindset to see my future with him. Never did I thought I was going to set my heart for him. All I thought was I should give in and give myself and him a chance. After all, I rejected him few times and he was still after me for months and months. In the end, he took this one chance I gave him and showed me he's worthwhile by just being plain himself.
Being in a relationship got me to realize, not all guys are the same. When you expect him to be your king or prince charming or whatever Korean drama type of guy but no. Reality is wayy, wayyyy different than you think it could be. At least its not as worse as Korean dramas.
As for this fella, he's just plain himself. I mean he does try to make me happy. His effort that I always treasure. Even it is just plain simple things like visiting me out of the blue, getting me Famous Amos cookies, bringing me out for dinner or dessert eating and even inviting me over to his house for dinner too. He's always trying to make me happy.
And our relationship was nothing like Korean dramas. It was just plain simple and we always go with the flow. He's willing to be responsible. The most important thing being in a relationship that I learn was both the girl and the guy have to be responsible. Its not just the guy that has to take effort but the girl too.
I've done my part to appreciate what ever things he has done to me, make it it was romantic or not such as just driving me to school even when he's no more attending or bringing me out for dinner after his work even when he's dead tired (yeah he was working for time being till he got accepted to go Aussie to continue his studies if you guys are wondering. He was doing his internship.). To that I've tried to make him my own made cards, photo books of us, giving him letters, get him small things that he likes (especially foods), cooking for him. Though I know I kinda suck at that still and I even tried baking (This came out successful because I ended up taking baking as my new hobby!) Even it is not big I hope he understands.
So now he has already flown to Australia to continue his final year there for 10 months. I supported his decision on letting him go miles away from his family and me to study. Its also one of my way to let him know that I trust him no matter where he goes. I was happy that he's going overseas, few thousand miles away to continue his last year. He can finally get to see the outside world without his parents and also learn to be independent (though he was already independent) XD. But yeah.
I thought I could handle the relationship with him being so far away. With me not being able to see him face to face, with me not being able to hold his and tease him and bully him, cry to him, go out 'makan' with him and his family and what not. I thought I was super ready because its just freaking 10 months. But I guess I was
When I reached home that night, I couldn't sleep, thinking how am I going to survive when I come back to KL again? Its not going to be the same anymore. He wont come and visit me, or he wont be there to surprise me, I have to go out dinner by myself and also do grocery shopping alone. All I can do was miss him. Ah, the next 10 months (my Final year project and also my internship) gonna be totally different I realized.
But we got a chance to challenge our relationship. Its to take up all the ups and downs by being far apart and come out clear after that!
#random
From,
Coffee.
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