I'm Just A Sad Song.

First of all, the title is due to the song that is currently being played on Youtube! Its been on repeat ever since my crazy bestie posted it on my wall. It has these addictive lyrics to it and nice melody. Sang by We The Kings ft. Elena Coats- Sad Song. Basically its a song about relationship. And since I do have a certain someone in my life, it suits me so well. THANK YOU SO MUCH SHU YUAN!

Back to business. I've been real busy for the last few days. Midterm exam is been going on since last week till next week. T,T After getting back one of my exam paper. I was so devastated. Only 28/50. Yesh, for my Food and Nutrient Evaluation paper. I felt so lifeless the moment I received my paper and went through it. Most of my friends had full marks. That's like freaking madness. Really. I was just too shocked and wondered how can they get full marks? Sigh. Then I realize, they have good memorizing skills. I imagined them having these really good brain that can absorb almost all the lecture notes in one go. While me, being pathetic enough to even absorb half of the lecture notes and most of it runs out of my head when I study a new chapter. =,= which was so saddening.

I came home that day, sat on my study table's chair and started to wonder. Is this how a science based student have to be? Is this how all science student have to be to get a good results? Memorize every single lines and sentence and words just to get good marks? Go mad memorizing without understanding it? That's what my lecturer told me. It no point you understand, you have to put the exact word that's inside to get the marks. You are a science student, be scientific. I was so speechless that I almost wanted to tell her this is not fair. Not fair to the people who understand and explain it in their own way to the one who actually memorized the whole thing exactly in the notes. I mean come on! What's the diff if you put;

Students answer: 'Mix the food sample and solvent into the beaker' and lecture notes: 'add the food sample into the beaker containing solvent'

Is there any difference? Both of them sound the same to me and still 0 marks given.
Then I wonder am I not a science student? Why can't I memorize scientifically?
I felt so lifeless thinking about it.
Being a low-brained and not good at memorizing and you still wanna get good results means you have to be studying every single day. That's what I think it's supposed to be like. And the pressure of seeing your friends getting good marks and you parents spending you money to make sure you study well and get really good results too, I had a mental breakdown. Like finally and real one.

I screamed at the wall. Luckily no one was home. Screamed and screamed. I felt so weird. Heart beating so rapidly then I shut my self up. Stopped screaming and calmed myself. There that was better I said to myself.

The next day, I had another exam. So I studied so hard for it. Slept at 2 am after really making myself sure that I can do my paper well enough. So when I took the exam, thunder strikes me. I memorized all the lecture notes given and actually left out just A SINGLE PIECE OF TUTORIAL PAPER THINKING IT WONT BE ASKED IN THE EXAM. And jeng jeng jeng, you know what happened right? There was a freaking 20 marks question on just that single sheet of paper that I IGNORED. There you go. Sigh. But I managed to write something though.

So next week another two more papers and reports to hand in. There goes my life.

Randoms.

This post is just me randomly mumbling over my life.

1. When you found out your most hated teacher is your mentor for your whole Uni life.

What? WHUUTT?

2. When the same subject lecturer decided to give you another assignment after assignment. Assignments, assignments andddd more assignments! Yeay! =,=

3. Freaking house mate that does not clean the kitchen when ever she uses it. ARGH! And how many 'post it' pad do I HAVE TO STICK AT THE KITCHEN SAYING "KEEP IT CLEAN!".

4. That lazzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyyy feeling you get when you are not in the mood to do your report and you started to blog. Hahahahaha! :P

Its A No weekend Saturday!

Its Saturday!

Yes, its a weekennddddd.

So?

So, what?

I have classes on Saturdays T,T

So I overslept today. Supposed to wake up early and wake Wai keong up so he wouldn't oversleep and the opposite happens again. Well you see, I actually woke at 7.30am and was waiting for the alarm to ring.... attttt 7.40am. I scrolled my fb, twitter & .........................*sleeps* This is the part where I didn't know how I actually SLEPT. @@ I thought I was dreaming when I heard my phone ringtone and picked up to hear Waikeong's voice, 'Bii,' OHMYGOSH. ITS 8.20AM! MY CLASS IS AT 9AM. 

 So I rushed and cleaned myself messily. Came out in 10 mins and got ready. Waikeong came exactly when I finish packing.

Apparently we were not the only one late! Few of my classmates were late too. And the lecturer was too nice to let us be late. Hahahaa! He started the class and believe me when I say this:

YESH!! @,@

He can just crap sooooooooooooo many things out of his head without looking at the slides on the projector. =,= Well mostly he lecture us about Food Safety and Quality Management. You can guess it from the subject name itself. Its alllllllllllllllllll about Safety and Management in an food industry. ALL STUFFS.

So he decided to give us an assigment on HACCP. Where we have to freaking do a real HACCP Manual for our own company. So what is a HACCP? Hazard Analysis and Critical Control Point Manual. Don't know yet? Go Google please. Its sure CANT BE DESCRIBES IN A WORD.

I was grouped up with Wai Keong Syamim and Vinson. Do you realise I'm the only girl here. YESH.

But no worries. Problem settled by Wai keong's dad (Stated in my previous post). 

So today, we decided to stayback and finished it up all at once. And we ended up staying for hours!! Like 9am till 6.30pm. After compiling all our assigned work. This was my reaction:

Yeap it is. =,=

Decided to call it a off and go for dinner. And I had KFC! Yeay to yummy foood and yeay to more belly fats!

Yeap that's how I look like now. Im serious =,= SQUISHY TUMMY I HAVE! XD

Beginning of Everything.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Its been a long time since I last blogged eh?
What can I say, time doesnt allow me so. >.< though when I do have time, I sleep.
Hahahaha!

Life since my semester 4 started is going on in a very proportionate way I guess, oh wait no. Its going like a increasing curve graph. =,= Yesh. I feel like there is just toooo many things to do at the end of the month.

Well so far, midterm exam is going on and I've been eating a lot ever since I started eating. Well that doesn't sound convincing. But yeah my mouth wants to digest some food and make the amylase working!

I munch alot. Like a lot a lot. =,= Waffles, apollo wafer cake, oreos, cheesecakes, snowflakes, ice creams, bread, biscuits.

YES I DO.

I got back my quiz for nutritional biochem last week. And to say I scored it, is the total opposite.

There goes my quiz marksss only 4/10. Nice work Hem. Nice work lecturer. Nice work. Practically everyone hates her ever since out quiz. Well I HATE HER. That's for real. She just insulted my one-whole-day-pencil-sketched-storyboard saying it's lack of effort and besides, she says he worries on my video making part of it. You WAIT. Im gonna ace this Dr. Meanie! Yeah here at you face grrrr.

                                   

I got my quiz results for my another subject and I did well. Well BOO YEAH.

Assignment and Reports are piling up every single week. And when you know you are the only person that is responsible for your whole group. TT,TT And individual reports = pure procrastination = screw this.

Well thanks to Waikeong's dad, our assignment on doing a HACCP Manual for Beer is done. THANKS A BUNCH PEOPLE. All we had to do is just copy paste. Pro style yeah! But still needs adjustments to do. Our product is Smokey Lager Beer, Feel the Aroma~ HAHAHA!

Next up, midterm was today and I studied for it and Jinnyboy entered our class asking for whiteboard markers from our lecturer who didnt know who the hell he was. He was like, 'hey,concentrate,' when we were giving him a blank look! xD Well, wished I could have taken a pic with him but yeah I was in the middle of my MIDTERM PAPER. =,=

Went to pyramid today~ And stocked up food again! Just in case I ran out of food to eat when I'm in my room. XD Had dinner and desert with boyfie. Thank you so much bii :)

SNOWFLAKE! Yeay~ Its Mango Gold.

Anddd Nando's Burger!

Well I didnt know he was gonna do tht. He moved from smiling to this when I clicked the picture button. But I like this! :)

That's for today! I'm new to putting gifs on my blog. Inspired by my crazzzyyyy bestie Chua Candy Yuan. XD Do tell me if the gifs are unreasonable and doesnt suit my sentences. Hahaha!

So long!

Coffee.

The Start of Semester 4

So today marks the first day of my Semester 4 Year 2. Wow. I'm a Sophomore! I'm a senior for three batches behind me and junior for three batches in front of me.

The first class was at 8am, Food and Nutrient Evaluation. Mr. Waikeong came early because I woke him up early. Kekeke! XD Packed breakfast and went for class. So it was our same lecturer from last year. And I started getting distracted in the first class of the first day. GREAT. Two hours class but we talked the lecturer out to get out earlier for the next two hour class.

Next class 10am, Nutritional Biochemistry. Dont get scared. Dont get scared by its name. Dont get scared but I DID. The lecturer looks a lil lil bit sstriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiict. She started her lesson right after the introduction to the subject. And the only person she recognise in her class was me. YEAP. ME. Because I knew her last sem. She was my mentor. "I know some of you here, Hemlatha. Hemlatha right? You are my mentee yes?" That time I was blurring out, like daydreaming actually and I came back to reality when she spelled my name out of her mouth. I was like whhuuut. She knows me? She remembers my name after 4 months?! Yaish!

So after that class I wanted to pee pee but eventually MOST OF THE TOILETS WERE CLOSED DOWN DUE TO WATER RATIONING. I have to like go find for a not closed down toilet when there used to be toilets every floor. *Cries*

Recess time and I was excited to see the new food court that was closed down for 5 months. So it has a indoor food court and outdoor food court but it doesnt make any difference in this weather. In or out, it was still hot. =,= It doesnt seems to be blowing air cond in the indoor area. AND the food priced were INCREASED. Almost gave me a heart attack when my food with rice, two vege and a small half fish cost RM9.90 *Cries again* But there are some new food like western food, pasta, burgers and etc.

Then me and waikeong bought the new menu chatime and shared. Caramel with chocolate Cadbury. Well not bad. Its still drinkable. Hahaha!

We had a talk on MQA accreditation for our School of Bioscience. Its gonna be fully approved by MQA and be taken out from its prohibitory MQA. So the Dean has selected several people from each batch to attend an interview that will be done by to panel from the Malaysia Qualification Agency to approve our School. And one of those unlucky person is me. I had been told to be ready for the interview next month and memorise the Vision and Mission and few taylors related stuff. So when they ask me questions, I know about it and also to give good comment about the School. Yesh. I have to. @,@

After the talk I had next class 3pm, two sleepy hours because it was raining. Food Preservation. It was Ms. Chan, our few-years-older-than-us lecturer. She was okayy but I actually wanted to get out of the class for the day. So she ended the class early after seeing our bored face! Hehehe!

Me and Waikeong rushed to the car park so that we could get out of Taylors before the usual Taylors jam starts. And yesh! We did! We got out without a jam. Yummyy!

Came back home and realised after rambling my whole bag and taking out all the stuff out of my back that I left my keys in Waikeong's car. How smart. -,- I made him come back lol. Ooops sorry. He pass me my keys and here I am sitting and blogging!

The Waiting

A story of a girl who waited for her fiancee. Waited. And still waiting.
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Walking through the wind that pushes past our hair. Do you still remember this place, Ash?
I wish you would. I am here. Walking day and day around here. The sonata wind, the snow that sprinkles around me. Its the first snow I'm seeing without you. Its the first day I'm walking without you. Where are you? Are you here with me? Are you up there looking at me through the sky? Talking about the sky, its very beautiful day today. The sky is filled with bright cloud. Just like any day we used to walk hand in hand and see  the sky above us. I've brought out your bicycle out today instead of mine. Its been long since I rode bicycle. I hope I don't bump into someone else, like how I did to you. It was our very first day here that day. The day I set I set my eyes on you. Our more like you set your eyes on me? =) I came yelling at your back to move away because its my first time riding a bicycle out here. And you, you were walking with your bicycle next to you. When I think about it. It makes me sound like a most infamous silliest girl you could have ever fell for. Are you hearing me? Are my thoughts drifting to you?

We bumped. We met. I payed for your damaged bicycle and you kept coming after me asking me, "So you think paying me money for a new bicycle would make be much better? It was my favourite bicycle I got from my grandpa, it doesnt change anything that you ruined it." Making me angry and making me feel guilty so much. You annoyed me the most. But as day past, we kept meeting each other co-incidentally at this place. I used to ignore you everytime. But one day you didnt appear. I thought you were late. I waited. Next day, the after but you didnt came.

Why do I feel empty when you weren't there? Why do I feel so clueless? Like how I feel now. You are not here like that day. I thought you left. Like how you did last time. But you came. You came back for me.

You stood under those beautifully blooming tree with your new bicycle smiling when I saw you. I didnt know what came into me but I remember I ran towards the tree. Ran towards you. I was embraced by you. Then I knew how its feel to be contented and I didnt feel empty anymore. You fill my heart, Ash.

But where are you now? You promised me you will bring them and come for me. You promise to give me what you took away from me. My heart. You promised me to be here with me. Are those promise meant nothing. You filled up my eyes and heart. I keep thinking about you. Where are you now Ash? Are you up there looking at me being empty and clueless again?

The ring on my finger doesnt give me any answer. I can't find it either. I can't seem to let go of it. Tears. I cant seem to let go of the tears that kept rolling.

Its a beautiful day, Ash. Look down at me wherever you are. I brought flowers too. I'm sitting under the same tree I came looking for you when you disappeared. It still has our name carved in it.

'Ash n Tess'.

What do I do now, Ash?

Give me a sign for the day.

I would love to walk away from this tree and never look back. I set his bicycle aside leaning across the tree and set the flowers down.

I walked. Walked and never looked back.

You can have you bicycle back, Ash. I love you.

Rest In Piece always.

Sincerely,
Tessa.

Do Not Play With Fire.

"You coming cousin?" Reece was chewing her gum as usual popping bubbles.

"No, I've got some cast to learn today," 

"Oh come on! Uncle won't be mad just for a day! Besides its a weekend, L!" Reece started pulling me out of my chair. I groan. She does has a point.

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"Ree, this is not the place we are supposed to be," Her car stopped right in front of the town's famous night club.

"Aw, L, just once please!" Reece was trying to work out her charms but its normally doesnt work on me.

"Ree, Uncle will be furious if he knows we came here," I was calm enough to reason with her.

"L, Uncle won't know if he don't need to. You got it?" She got down the car and waved at me to get down too.

Sigh.

When I opened my car door, there it came banging and booming the band from inside the club. Rows of girls and guys were waiting outside to make out inside. I wonder why they came all the way here to do it.

Reece held my arm and walk past all the ones who are queue-ing straight to the bouncer.

"Hey, Mr.Snotty," That's what the badge says so Reece pronounce it. Her charms usually works on mortals. 

He slide open the safe line belt and made us walk through it like a VIP. 

I could smell everything when we entered.

Reece let go of my arm and jump over her so called hooked up boyfriend who was waiting for her. So this is why she dragged me. To make me stand here while she make out with her boyfriend? 

I moved along the people who are cramped around each other to a more airy area. I found a seat and sat.

"Hey babe~" A voice came behind me and smelled liquor. Breath smoldering my back shoulder. "OUCH!" He crippled. His fingers were burning. "Did you- did you do that?!" He was freaking out.

Let's say that's my kind of game. Mamma says don't play with fire when I was a kid but you know when you grew up with it, you actually get used to it. 

Fire. A friend and a foe to me.

Fire. A gift and a curse to me.

Fire. 

"Leave me alone," I turned to face him and he ran.