My dream of the day

Its all happening. The dread that I’ve been avoiding.

It’s happened.

Everyone I know is gone.

“Hem, let’s go. We need to finish this last mission we stood for,” My best buddy is here but anytime, anything can happen.

Why am I still here? Am I that of a survivor?

We promised to finish them off. The people who are in charge of this demolition.

I’m frustrated but scared. I’m angry but helpless.

“Ok..where are we heading?”

“To the East of the forest. We could get something from the debris,”

“Are you sure, we can still find anything there?” I asked her Peter who is leading this team with confident and passion to destroy those people who did this to us. Cheng is very close to Peter in the case that they never leave each other's side. It's lie they are inseparable. And looking at them together makes me wonder on someone. Someone, i'm trying not to remember in this situation we are facing together.

Well, there’s nothing much to take up revenge, since all my loved one are gone. Gone in just a single bomb blast. My family is not here. My best buddy had lost hers’ too but she have Peter, who would give anything to save her. Who is brave and accompanying her all the way.

Is Luhan still alive? I’ve never seen him after the last run we did. The look in his eyes was so much for me to resist.

“We have to get clues,” He assured the team of 7 of us.

Me, Cheng, her boyfriend and 4 others we came across from the bomb blast last time. They have join force to follow us.

“Come on let’s get moving,” He stood up followed by Cheng with her spear.

I followed them behind. Somehow not ready to face the reality that lies ahead of us.

We walk through vines, bush, tall forest trees and we finally found the part of the last bomb blasted  section. The dusts are still hanging. The whole ground smells horrible. But it’s empty.

“This is it,” Cheng pointed in front of us.

“Be careful of whatever you touch,” Peter inform us.

Slowly we began to walk around at different angle but not far away from each other. Cheng followed Peter in front of me. I took their left. We searched for a specific clue.

Every single people in this district are dying out of bomb blasts.

This has been continuing for more than a month. Anything we touch turn into fire. It’s a button to turn on the dangerously blasting bombs the people in the Metropolitan has set up.

I came across a pipe, a letter which was  burnt, and a very uniquely looking wheel.

Its green and looks a lot like a steering wheel that was fixed to a large underground pipe which was half protruding.

What is this thing? I’ve never seen something like this before.

“Hey guys,” I call out slowly when I curiously steer the wheel  to see the outcome.

And there is was again the loud sound, everything in front of me went slowly, the noise that was peering through my ears like a sharp razor, the heat that pass through me. I fell onto the ground.

I took a look at my side and Cheng was fallen on her feet too but next to her was a large amount of dust and fire.

“Peter,” I whispered. What did I do?

Cheng was staring at the blast with her eyes wide enough to engulf what just happened.

I stood up immediately and the result of the blast was a very heavy dizziness and my left hear was still ringing.

“Cheng!!” I ran towards her. “Cheng! I’m so sorry! Cheng,get up,” I pull her to sit.

Cheng wasn’t speaking but she was calm and quiet.

What did I do to her? It was my fault! I made her lost the last person she was hanging on.

Tears rolled my cheeks and it was stinging. I pulled myself to my knees and let it out. Now its only us left. We lost Peter and the other 4. What can we do now? What could we possibly achieve?

My left ear was still ringing and I’m sure I lost my eardrum because I couldn't feel the wind on my left, I touched my ear and it was bleeding.

“Peter,” I whispered again.

Chen stood up after several minutes. I looked at her gaze and I know she is hiding everything inside her. She is trying to mould it inside herself. That’s what she do, always do. Never show her feelings to others.

“Let’s go back to the Hut. We can ignite a car and get going to the metropolitan,” Cheng told me and started walking in front of me without waiting.

I followed her immediately.

We reached the Hut. It consist of a small wooden restaurant and I remember there was an old lady who used to serve us food here. Few unwanted cars were parked here. Any of them could be fixed with a bomb.

“I’ll call Gan to ask him how to ignite the car,” Cheng told me an I just nod looking at her.

The restaurant was quiet and no one comes around after the incident that took place. We lost half a quarter of people from our district.

“Okay,” Cheng nod her head to the instruction on the other side of the phone.

Gan is one of the spy genius from the district but he never came back after joining the Metropolitan. Whenever we need news, we'll call him.

“I’ll just ignite a fire and throw it into the exhaust,” Cheng told me.

This is it. We are going there. But why do I feel like I don’t want any of the trouble? Why am I hesitating?

I turn around to look at the empty restaurant which was just a few feet in front of me.

A tall lean figure moved out and then in. I look at him and he resembles lot like Luhan. He took a second glance at us and froze.

Luhan?! “Luhan?” I mouthed.

He stood there looking at us.

Its him! Its..”Luhan!” I ran towards him and he was temporarily shocked. We hugged each other tightly.

“Hem!” I heard Cheng call out.

“Hem?” Luhan was making sure he wasn’t imagining. His was in utter surprise.

“Yes,yes,” I cried again upon his assuring hug.

“I thought you were gone, I thought you left me,” He said still holding on me.

“I thought you were gone too,” I said without even releasing his hug.

We stay put together until Cheng’s voice was heard again.

“Hem!” It was closer and she was walking towards us.

“I’m not leaving Cheng! I’m not! I can’t do this. I know I was up to it but seeing the situation now, I don’t want to Cheng,” I ran away from both of them into the wooden made restaurant and straight into a room.

The last thing I saw was Cheng standing there heartbroken face with Luhan looking at my way.

What have I done? Did I lost my only hope to revenge the Metropolitan?

Did I just broke my promise to be next to my best friend all the time?

I thought I finally found someone who I can cry to and understand me and I don’t want to leave him.

I was lying on he bed which I’m sure is Luhan’s. He must be the only one staying here besides the old lady, the owner of the empty restaurant.

There was a knock on the door but within second the door opened, revealing Luhan with his sweatshirt.

He came towards the bed and kneel in front of me.

I looked into his eyes.

He slowly caress me and we looked into each other eyes .

“She was just worried of you. You have to understand she just lost someone special to her,” I know he’s talking about Cheng. But the grip on my hand where he was holding me tighten and I can feel that he don’t want to lose me in a situation like this too.

“I..” I couldn’t finish my word. I know exactly how she feels. Its beyond wordless

.

Luhan climb on the bed next to me and took me in his arm.

“You have to talk to her,” He said and I nod.

He kissed my neck and look at my eyes for permission. If losing someone I love will be the last thing, I’ll do anything with him.

I kissed him. Slowly and passionately.  Luhan was careful enough not to hurt me and my feelings.

We were together this night and I wish this will last all my life.

The next day, I was welcome with bed coffee and a bread.

“Good morning sleepy head,” Luhan looks brighter and he was wearing a blue t shirt.

“Good morning,” I slowly stand up and lay my back on the head board.

He gave me a morning kiss on my forehead and serve me the tray of breakfast.

“I’ll be outside,” He said after passing me the tray and closed the door.

I walked around the room and surveyed.

Luhan only have a small picture framed with his family picture and a small teddy bear, his clothes.

I remember before I left the district for the team, Luhan lost his family in the bomb blast.

I went down the stairs and saw Cheng sitting at the table with her tray of bread too.

I approached her slowly and my guilt increases.

"Hey," I sat next to her.

"Hi,"She said without even looking at me but busy idling with her bread that she never eat.

"I'm sorry about yesterday Cheng,"

"No, it's my fault too, I'm sorry,"

"No, Cheng, it's just..I."

"Hem, I told you, I don't need your explanation," She finally took a bite from the bread.

"You have to understand me, I don't think we need to do this," I slowly approach her the topic.

She gave me a stare.

"Cheng, we should stop and just live with whatever we have now,"

"So you are telling, we just keep quiet and do nothing?" Cheng was a little furious.

"I'm not saying something bad, I'm telling this for our good too,"

"No! No, Hem! I want to do this! I need too, for...for, Peter," She said the last word in a low voice

I  know how bad she feels now. The lost she had is unbearable.

Am I being selfish?

I stood up, took my tray, dump it aside and went to my room leaving Cheng without an answer.

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I was under Luhan's arm that night.

He was telling me about going to meet Peter's parent who is a few miles away from where we are.We need to inform them about peter.

I refused at first but Luhan was good at talking and he manage to talk me out.

"Everything will be alright. I'm right here, Luhan whispered in my ears and we drifted to sleep cuddling each other.

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We were walking with long wooden sticks in our hands.

Me, Luhan and Cheng. We are on our way walking through forest to Peter's house.

I was all the time next to Luhan. Cheng kept quiet all the way, but her face show it all that she is stressed out.

By the time we reached the house it was afternoon.

An lady who recognise to be Peter's mother answered the door.

We told her that we were his friends. Cheng wasn't talking much because she wasn't feeling good with this talk.

"I'm very sorry for the lost of your son ma'am," Luhan apologised.

"Oh, no dear, I know everything will be this way even how conscious we are," Peter's mother was very understanding.

"I'm sorry," Cheng who was quiet all the sudden talked. "It's partially my fault," She said still gazing the blank air.

"Oh, dear," His mother was worried of her. "No, no, come on," She went closer to Cheng and hugged her.

"My boy has done a great job protecting someone he loved and I'm proud of him,"

Tears streaming down my eyes and Cheng finally broke down in his mother's arm.

Luhan was holding my hand tightly.

"I'll help you," A voice came out of nowhere.

We trun to look around and saw.

Peter!

Or someone like Peter?

"Peter?" I was shocked that my voice came out low.

Luhan was surprised too that we stood up from out seats.

"You?"

"Kris,"

"Peter's twin bother, This time Cheng answered.