Song For You

A perfect tune up. Some one was playing guitar in the neighbourhood.

A young girl walking pass by the junction can hear it. Its half past ten at night. Her tiring day went in a blink of an eye with the guitar playing in the background. She sat on the bench near the neighbourhood walkaway and kept on listening to the play. Few times that person adjusted the tune and corrected the melody in between but she loved it. She smiled as it ended and there was no more music in the background.

Little did she know that, this music was going to change the course of her life.

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"Alice! Take the order for table number 8,"

"Okay,"

Alice walked to table number 8, where a bunch of young guys were seated looking at their menus.

"Hi, welcome to Honey Star Cafe, ready to order?"

"Hi, sure, I'll have one green tea latte and a glass of water,"

"Hi, I'll have a hot chocolate,"

Alice took down the order and was waiting for the next two of them to order.

"Milk,"

"..." No response from the last one.

"Your order?" Alice looked at the last person who was busy scribbling something on his white paper. He was on earphones.

"Alex," The guy next to him swatted his arm. Now everyone was looking at him.

"Coffee, thanks."

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Its afternoon after Alice's first day of college. Her orientation ended early so she decided to head back home before her shift work starts. The weather was getting windier and clouds were getting denser. And all the sudden, it started pouring. "Oh shit."

She rushed towards the nearest shop she was walking by and entered to avoid getting her papers and books wet.

Turning around, she realised it was an instrument store. It was as though she had entered heaven. The smell of the wooden crafted ukuleles, guitars and pianos made her want to live in them. She saw a beautiful white piano displayed. She got closer to it and laid her fingers on the key.

"Beautiful isn't she?" Alice was awaken from her trance by a male voice and jumped back.

"Oh, sorry I didnt mean to touch it," She apologize.

"No, no, no worries. If you can play, go on," He smiled. He was a young man.

"Oh I, I-, I don't play," Alice was embarrassed by the fact. "I just love music but I'm not a good player," She snickered a sly laugh.

The young man moved closer to the piano and laid both his hands on the piano. Fingers spread, he started playing a tune. Though she couldn't recognize the play, it was a slow and smooth melody.

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Alice was walking to her next class when she heard something very familiar. She stood still. Turning around looking for where it was coming from, she saw a closed door labelled "Music Room". Interest pitched in her but she was already running late for class.

Anyhow she took the chance to glimpse through the glass window to only see a about 10 people sitting in a round. She couldn't guess who was playing it.

Why was she so curious about it anyway? She shook her head and ran for her next class.

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'MUSIC CLUB AUDITION'

"Hey want to join?" Alice heard people whispering to their friends. 

She was standing at the official notice board looking for something to join but he eye caught the music club audition. What can a girl like her do there? She can't sing and she can't play. Defeated by her own low self-esteem, she walk away but she took note of the date since it was an open invitation. 

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"Next! Jason," One of the audition conductor called out names of each participants for their performance. 

"Jason?" Alice wondered where she have seen that face before.

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It was Alice's free time and she told her new friends that she was not going to join them for lunch and catch them during class. 

Walking down the familiar hallway, she found the room again. 

This time she opened it. It wasn't locked and no one was in. The minute she stepped in, she felt a totally different vibe. 

Someone cleared their throat from behind her. Goosebumps. 

Turning, she saw a guy standing behind the opened door looking at her. 

"Are you a new member?" He asked. 

Familiar face again but her memory was blur on it. 

"Err, I n-, ye-, err, yes, yes, I thought there was going to be a meet up or something?" She lied. 

"There is?" He questioned more to himself. 

"I guess not, maybe not today, I might have mixed up the date and time. I'm sorry, I'll get going," She was about to leave when he said, "Maybe I'll teach my juniors something if you are free," 

Stoned, Alice stood still figuring out a way to run away. 

"You play or sing?" He asked.

"Sing," She answered straight away and facepalmed inside her heart. 

With few tuning on the bass guitar chords, he started picking on the strings with a plectrum.

Alice don't quite understand what got into her but she started singing, "and at last I see the lights, and its like the fog is lifted, and at last I see the lights, and its like the sky is new,"

He kept on playing while looking at her. 

"I can't continue, I have class to attend," Her face was burning.

"Okay, see you soon then," 

Alice made a quick move to leave the room. 

"Hey you sing well," was the last she heard. 

She closed the door and ran. 

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How?

Jealousy is an emotion. Acting on it is a decision. 

But how do I control it? 

The feeling of infinite doubt.

Lessons from How I Met Your Mother.

So I have finally finished watching this so called super popular American TV series 'How I Met Your Mother'. The wholeeeeee 9 seasons in 1 months plus. LOL. Thanks to my crazy bestie (Well you know who your are) for recommending it to me. I totally fell in love with the series from the first episode itself. I highly recommend it to everyone. YES, EVERYONE. I went through hell of emotions while watching this series. Laughing when its silly and crying when it got tooo emotional. Besides, Watching How I Met Your Mother has made me learn a lot of lessons not just about relationship but also life lessons. What real life would be like sometimes. Here are few quotes, dialogues, maybe some are opinions that have made me realize about life and love. 


"Shouldn't we hold out for the person who doesn't just tolerate our little quirks but actually kinda likes them?" - Ted 

"There are certain things in life where you know its a mistake but you don't really know its a mistake because the only way to really know its a mistake is to make a mistake and look back and say yeap that was a mistake. So really, the bigger mistake would be not make the mistake then you really go your whole life not knowing it was a mistake or not." - Lily. 

"Life has plenty of good parts, its the rough parts that makes you thankful that you have people to share it with"

When choosing your friends, imagine sitting on your front porch with them 50 years from now. Do you still want them to be there with you? If not, they’re not worth your time.

When you meet the right person you know it. You cant stop thinking about them. They are your best friend and your soulmate. You cant wait to spend the rest of your life with them and nothing else can compare.

"Your gonna lose a relationship if you keep lying, cutting a person out of decisions, if you keep using words like winning and losing when we talking about our marriage, its not gonna happen all at once but little by little, you gonna lose me," - Lily Aldrin. 

"Its not crazy. It's love. If your looking for the word that means caring for someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want no matter how much it destroys you, its love and when you love someone, you just don't stop, ever. Even if people roll their eyes, call you crazy even then, especially then you don't give up because if I could give up, I take someone elses advice and move on, that wouldn't be love, that would be some other disposable thing that is not worth fighting for," Ted.

'Most importantly, whatever you do in your life, its not legendary unless your friends are there to see it.' - Barney.

No matter how hard we try even the best of us goes a little wild sometimes and in those moments we all need someone to help us rally.

Every relationship requires some level of compromise, after all, a couple can't work if they both had a personal mandate of "my way or the highway". 

When you find someone you wanna keep around, you wanna do something about it.

None of us can vow to be perfect, in the end all you can do is promise to love each other with everything we got because love is the best thing we do.

"The future is scary but  you can't just run back to the past because its familiar. Yes its tempting but its a mistake," - Robin.

"Being in love doesn't mean being "perfect." If you're afraid to have arguments, everything will just build up to the point where it's unhealthy, resentment breeds or things become completely explosive."

Learn to read between the lines. The most important things aren't directly said. 

Chemistry is important, but its not eternal. You need a strong foundation for when the sexy stuff fades, because it will.

Do not postpone your own happiness.

I wonder how the screenwriter can come up with such nice things to say and some of them are kinda true too. Well though the ending of the last season was kind of a bummer @@ I had a great time watching it. 

Peace!

Love,
Coffee. 

Mis-takes.

"There are certain things in life where you know its a mistake but you don't really know its a mistake because the only way to really know its a mistake is to make a mistake and look back and say yeap that was a mistake. So really, the bigger mistake would be not make the mistake then you really go your whole life not knowing it was a mistake or not." - How I Met Your Mother.

Stars of Libraria

"Ella you can't keep daydreaming! This is our life, we have to accept it," Lea was hanging on me with her hands on both my arms.

"I hate it Li. I hate what we are doing, I hate this place and I hate that I hate it!" I'm not crying but anger tears are escaping.

Lea folded her arms against her chest and sighed, "I've got to go. Lady Jane will be waiting for her wine. You'll be alright alone?" There was concern on her eyes and voice but I just nod.

Lea, I call her Li and she's used to it. Serving the Majesty Lady Jane of Libraria, we are servants of the house.

Yes, servants.

Coming from a fourth tier family, people like us either opt to work as social servants outside this castle or inside. Females/ girls like us usually opt for inside because its definitely safer than outside. Social servants outside are mostly mans and work as soldiers, facing interstate wars for state peace.

Recently there is an eruption of wars due to placement of Lady Jane as Majesty of Libraria. Its not the interstate but in state as well. People hating each other, talking behind their backs. Well, only ways that got us surviving is to be neutral and work as nothing is happening around you.

Lea and I got into as servants 4 months ago. We are not related but our family comes from the fourth tier.

There are 5 different tiers of family.

First are the Majesties and his or her family.

Second tiers are the ministers who are directly under the Majesty

Thirds are sellers. They are usually those who can afford to open markets to sell stuffs from vegetables to cloths to guns.

Fourth tiers are people who volunteers to work with the Majesty as servants or soldiers. That's where my family stand. Dad was a soldier and he died in a war. Mum doesnt work but she uses our money and survives in our house back in Water Alley. My bro is still young and he's under a must go education system that really does not help your future.

And there's fifth tier, people in this tier are people who cant afford anything. They are either homeless or works with the sellers for small amount of money. That can only afford to buy food.

I was forced to work inside because girls my age are not allowed to be soldiers or go to war. I have knowledge in medicine and healing but what's the point if I'm cleaning house and doing house chores in this big house?

I've helped people with my healing stone and medicinal knowledge. That was when I met Julian.

To describe him, it might take me hours. But his eyes in the color of deep sea. You can't see past his eyes if you look at him. Shoulders broad enough that shows just how much power he has in his hands at the The First Son of Lady Jane. If there's one thing I know about Julian is he has this bright charming smile and kind heart. He fights for the state with other soldiers below him. People trust him. He brings the trust in them. Tousled brown hair that grows pass his eyebrow as well as being a brainiac is enough for girls to swoon over him.

Julian.



"You have got to go back to the castle El, its not safe to keep roaming around here,"

"I'm not leaving. People need me here. Its not getting any better with this war Julian. I've got to stay! You cant just ask me to go back after everything that is going on and will happen! I can't leave you like this too,"

"Dont make me do it," He was talking through his breath. Anger. A very rare one.

"I won't,"

"If people find out who you are and what you are, you cant longer help them. They will take away your stone and your knowledge in a blink of an eye," He was whispering. So much closer to my ears now.

It was dark and were were surrounded by tall trees. It was not really a good spot to talk secretly but what choice do we have? Not his camp and not mine either.

"But I'll miss you," Ii was so low but  he heard it. Julian has sharp ears.



I came in as a healer because my dad was able to get me in. People who knows my dad knows me but not everyone. Most of them think I'm a guy who covers himself with emergency mask and cap. Keeping my hair short was an advantage. This was what I wanted to do. To help people and it took me almost a month to convince my dad.

Julian. How did he know? Because of a most pathetic reason. He knows. He just knows.

One day when there was a retreat from another state, I was helping Julian for the first time. I have no idea who I was helping.

"How did you got in here?" He ask quietly as I was wrapping his arm with bandage.

His question was tricky but I got the idea on what was his question.

"My dad told me you were hurt. He pointed to this direction," I told him anyhow to divert it.

"No. You. You are not-"

"Shhhhhh" I silenced him.

He was shocked at my action of putting one of my fingers on his lips.

I quickly took it away knowing my mistake.

"Please. Dont tell me in. I want to help you guys. Please,"

He chuckled and I wasnt sure if he's serious or teasing. That was when I really saw who he was.

"My Sir, is everything ok?" My dad came up to us. Sir? My face started to heat up realising who I was treating. It was The First Son of Lady Jane. I locked my eyes on him but he wasnt looking at me. So this is the son?

"Ah, yes," Julian gave a no-problem nod.  Dad looked at me and it signaled my time to leave the place and go find others who needs my help.



"Ella? Ella wake up," Some one shook me awake and I stood straight up realizing I shouldnt have fell asleep in the first place.

It was Lea.

"Oh my gosh, I-, I was supposed to bring dinner to Kyle!" My face started to turn red. It seriously was a big mistake to fell asleep. Oh no, no, no. Kyle is not your kind of person to handle.

I look at Lea agaped. Thinking of an excuse for bring his dinner late.

"I've already gave him his dinner," Lea said smiling and I can see she was tired.

Kyle, The Second Son of Lady Jane was a ruthless guy, he throws food if he doesnt like it, he shouts at the servants if they didnt bring his breakfast to his room. He ignores his mother's command at times. He get drunks. I've seen worse of Kyle when he threw all his dinner away because I was late by few minutes for the first time I met Kyle. He was the total opposite of Julian.

When I was a Kid

Helllloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,

Readers/people/strangers/acquaintance/besties/whomever reading this XD

It been almost a month plus I last updated, even though I go online a lot to check on peoples blog update. Haha. Well, I'm actually busy with my final year and labwork and assignments and presentation. Pretty much what everyone goes through in their final semester.

Well, lets come back to my title, 'When I was a kid' is a copy paste of When I was a Kid by Beoy, a Malaysian author who writes about his childhood experience when he was a kid, I read all 3 of his books and it always reminds me of my younger days and how I ridiculously funny and weird and lame I was. 

And I thought why not I try to write out mine while I go down my own memory lane :P


1. Run, dinosaurs!

When I was kid, Jurassic Park was famous. I remember watching the movie over and over again on TV. 
There was this scene in Jurassic Park where, the kids and their dad were being chased by dinosaurs and they were running to save themselves. They finally came to this fence and had to climb over. 
Me after the movie, pretending to be chased by invisible dinosaurs and runs around the house and climb over staircase, pretend to fall and hurt and pretend to run again.

2. Washing Machine Ride

My house had this washing machine, well you know how it looks like right? It spins when you press start. So when I was a kid, I used to sit inside the washing machine because I fit perfectly well inside it and spin myself around till I get dizzy. Hahaha.

3. Grass Cutter?

Last time before my house was renovated, we had a lawn of grass at our house compound. There would be grass cutters covered in boots and mask and looks like fire fighter weekly.or monthly coming over to trim the grass. When I was a kid, I dreamt of becoming a grass cutter because I thought the equipment for trimming the grass was just too cool. 


That's all for today XDDD

From,
Coffee. 

Amnesia.

"Morning! Rise and shineee!"

"Hmmm, let me sleep for a while moreeeeee," She growls and turns away from the sunlight that was hitting her face.

"Its our honeymoon, we are supposed to be out enjoying," I tried peeling the blanket.

"Its our honeymoon that's why we are suppose to be sleeping in a day long," she mumbled and let the blanket goes off.

"Are you gonna wake up or do you want me to wake you up?" I climbed on the bed.

Her eyes opened the next second she felt the bed squeak or was it the part where I  told her i'll wake her up?

"Go away from me you pervert," She moved to the side and pushed using both her legs but it wasn't good enough to move me.

"Hehehe," I made an evil laugh and close in towards the lying body.

"AHHHH!" She screamed and laughed. "You are heavyy!"

That made me chuckle.

I pulled her on top of me and made myself facing her with my back on the bed.

She acted as though she was still sleeping.

I looked at that beautiful flawless face that I married to. Just enough to make my day bright and sorrow gone to the bin. Her ruffled hair made her look more sexy and mature. I smiled and kissed her sharp nose.

"Morning," She whispered.

And it went black. I couldn't see anything. I open and closed my eyes but it was still pitch dark.


"Peter? Peter? Can you see me?" A voice that wasn't familiar was floating above me. Then I could see everything. The bright light was coming back but I wasn't at the hotel room with Emily. I was at a place surrounded by white walls and machines and a glucose bottle was going into my vein. Hospital?

I saw the doctor rushing towards me.

"Mr. Peter, stay calm, you are alright now," The doctor said but took out a stethoscope to check my heartbeat. "Do you remember you name sir?" Said the doctor.

"Well yes, I'm Peter of course. Wait why am I in the hospital? Where's Emily?"

"Mr. Peter, you have been in coma for a month now,"

"Is Emily here? We were at out honeymoon when I went blank. Where is she?" I tried to look around but I only saw another girl/women with worried look.

"Oh, Pete," She sighed but sadness can be seen in her eyes.

"Who are you?"

Her face went blank and she ran out crying.

"Is there anyone else?" I asked the doctor who was still standing there.

"Son! Peter!" I saw my mum and dad and sister walking in now.

"Ma? Appa? Nelly? Where's Emmie?" I was so confused.

"Oh dear lord. She's not here Pete,"

"Why?! What happened? How come I was in coma for a month?"

"You met an accident Pete," My sister said with her stern tough voice she always use when it comes to serious matter. "Emily is no longer with us nor does she belong to you anymore. The doctor said you might have an amnesia that leads you to forgot what happens for the past years," Her eyes were teary.

I was frowning. "What?"

Random Story.

"Sena, you will be looking after the members for a few months till their manager comes back," Says the president.

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"Kai!" Sena almost shouted but she suddenly got aware that they were in a building full of people.

"What?" He stopped what he was doing and turned around to look at her.

"Were you blind? I am right in front of you!" She said almost annoyed by his attitude.

"Oh really? So what? You've seen me changed before right?" He smirked.

Sena frowned as Kai neared her and wrapped his arm around her. "That was in your house. Not when there's people around," She growled and pull away to walk out.

Sena has already gotten used to this stupid thing Kai does like Sena was just a guy and not a girl. At times Sena wonders if he is a homo or what.

"Suho, where are you guys? Kai is already here," Sena asked through the phone call she made on her way out of the changing room.

"On our way Sena. Stuck in a jam. Will be there soon," Suho answered on the other side.

"Okay," She settled down on the corridor benches outside the changing room.

Kai got here early because of his different schedule from the others.

The changing room door opened and Kai came out with the performance outfit and walked passed her. "YA! Where are you going? The others will be here soon, you better stay put,"

He ignored her as if she didnt even talk and walked away and turn to the left of the corridor.

She took a deep breath.

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"So are you guys ready?" She asked one last time before they take the stage.

There were already loud cheers from the fans when the group name were announced.

"We are!" They said together. Sena looked at Kai. He wasn't looking at her.

"Okay, I promised you guys Korean BBQ after this right? So, do well!" She cheered them up and smiled.

"YEAY!" Chanyeol and Baek squealed.

"Your mics are gonna be on soon, so no more mumblings ok!" She pushed them forward.

Everyone moved except for Kai.

She looked at him and saw that he was staring at her.

"Kai, faster, before they start the music!" Her eyes gotten wide when he came close and kissed her cheek and walked towards the others like usual and joined them.

Her heartbeat rose up so much that she can feel blood rushing to her cheeks.

She looked down at her hand and noticed the ring she is wearing, carved, Kai.

Random Story.

"Oh come on just finish those Cyanne!" Kate was yelling at me for leaving two bites of food on the plate.

"I can't. I'm super duper full," I showed her my puppy face though I know it won't work on her. 

"Eat it." She was stern and stood up to clean her plates and spoon and the empty dishes.

Yeap, that's Kate my housemate I've been living with for almost a year and half. I've left my hometown Georgio to continue my studies at in Broadcasting and Journalism in the university miles away from my house. Kate's a friend I will rarely get with her sarcasm and wit but she does hate it when people don't finish her food she cook. So I chunk all the food in the plate in one go and swallowed. Not that its not nice, its just my appetite is very tiny to go on with. 

"How' your preparation with the concert going on?" Kate ask while washing the dishes at the zinc counter.

"So far no problem. I have Dave, Rick and Charles helping me with the flyers and tickets. Sophia is helping me with the decoration and stage arrangement. I guess one thing left for me to look for is the sound system and lighting," I fiddle with the waste on my plate. 

Its been a crazy month for me because as the president of the Music club, I have to take an initiative to be active on something and the members and myself have came up with the idea to do an open concert collaboration with other universities around and also from each school to perform.

"I have someone I know that might help you with the sound and lighting system. Let me see if  I still have his number," She put the last washed plates on the plate hanger and took her phone out from her pocket. "Oh here it is, take down, name, Harry, number, 06-675893202,"

"Harry?" I gave her a quizzical look.

"Oh come on! You can't possibly think only your ex has the name Harry?" Kate rolled her eyes.

"Ok, ok, I'll call on check on it then," I stood up and went back to my room while Kate continued cleaning the table.

Harry, no. Please, dont do this. Harry! You can't do this. Listen we can talk through it, come on. Please pick up my phone.

I looked at the dial-er with the name Harry on it. Sighed and pressed call.

"Hello?" A voice of a guy answered. Oh come on, just talk! He's not the Harry that left you.

"Hello? Who's this on the line?" The voice asked again.

"Sorry, sorry, hi! I mean hello, this is Cyanne,"

"Cyanne how can I help you?"

What's' wrong with you Cyanne! Talk.

"My friend gave me your number so I could ask/talk to you about sound and lighting system for a concert I'm planning,"

"Oh, is that so? Great. That means we must meet up to talk about it with my boss,"

"Oh, great. Okay, I'll see you then, Harry right?"

"Yeap, See you,"

I shut the phone.

I KENOT 'TAHAN' THIS.

YES, THE TITLE SAYS IT ALL.
If you are asking about what do you mean by that title, it is about 'BOREDOM'.
You read it right. BOREDOM.

I AM TOTALLY BORED TO DEATH RIGHT NOW. LIKE SERIOUSLY. MY HEAD IS GOING CRAZY. I NEED TO DO SOMETHING, I NEED TO STUDY SOMETHING, I CANT HANDLE MYSELF BEING CAGED IN MY OWN HOUSE.

Excuse me for typing all my words in capital letters. I just had the need to release all my bulked up boredom into writing it out that it came out bold and mad.

Let me give me a basic routine of what I do in my house;

Morning;

Wake up 9am/9.30am, pick up the phone next to me to wish Waikeong and some others who I got notifications from the other social networks, 10am go downstairs, brush teeth, make breakfast, eat. 11.30/12pm, starts cleaning up study room, my room and parents room, sometimes go out to buy something for mum for lunch preparation.

Afternoon;

Shower, sit, do dad's paperwork at the same time procrastinate, reply Waikeong and chat with him on Whatsapp, scroll FB, Twitter, Instagram at the same time, listen to songs/covers, talk to mum sometimes, then go back to bussiness, do dad's paper work, and repeat, makan.

Evening;

Same thing. Except no more talking to mum. Just help her hang the washed cloths. Sometimes tries to do workout.

Night;

Surf the net till bedtime, makan, sleep.
So alll these repeated routine is driving me NUTS. Its insane staying at home and doing things that bores me. I have tried doing some other things like baking, watching korean shows but all these comes to an end and my boredom kills me again.

I just cant wait for my semester to start so I can get my ass back to Taylor's and start with my Final Year Project.

3 MONTHS OF FREAKING SEMESTER BREAK IS WAY TOO MUCH FOR ME TO TAKE IT.

Its not like I'm on holidays or what not to enjoy it. Its just going back to home. Though there are times, my parents bring me out for a small outing. Even that doesnt last long okay. I mean I can come up with something, like write a story, or read up my novels, or continue my FB adlibs or draw but it just didnt struck the interest in me for now. All I can think of is going back to my University and start my semester. I'm all hyped up for it to start!

This got me to realize that, I'm not the kind of person that can stay at home and do nothing. I need to walk around, make myself busy and make myself interested in something.

Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock. Time seems to fly so slow when I'm eagerly waiting the it to pass by.

Sigh, anyway I'm sorry for taking up your time to read my bored up boring post because I got bored and blogged. Hahaha.

Love,
Coffee. 

Will always be there.

Hello to everybody who's having the holiday of their life and to those who's life is just as boring and meagre as me. TT,TT Tht's because I'm on my semester break which is not really a holiday for me. 3 months of semester break is just too longggg and horribly boring ya know!

Anyway, it's been ages since I blogged something proper right? So here's something I just thought of posting after reading tonnes and tonnes of articles about being in a relationship and keeping it long distance for a certain period of time. I know I'm gonna crap stuffs again but bear with me ya~.

I was thinking of posting it after I start my semester but then nah, I'm too bored and I wanna blog something and post something. =P

So it's been almost 2 years eh? Like not yet but almost, very close.Ah, yes its about my relationship with this most lamest, silliest, and also ridiculous boyfriend I ever had. Never thought I could hold on to this for this long actually. When I first accepted him, I was never on the mindset to see my future with him. Never did I thought I was going to set my heart for him. All I thought was I should give in and give myself and him a chance. After all, I rejected him few times and he was still after me for months and months. In the end, he took this one chance I gave him and showed me he's worthwhile by just being plain himself.

Being in a relationship got me to realize, not all guys are the same. When you expect him to be your king or prince charming or whatever Korean drama type of guy but no. Reality is wayy, wayyyy different than you think it could be. At least its not as worse as Korean dramas.

As for this fella, he's just plain himself. I mean he does try to make me happy. His effort that I always treasure. Even it is just plain simple things like visiting me out of the blue, getting me Famous Amos cookies, bringing me out for dinner or dessert eating and even inviting me over to his house for dinner too. He's always trying to make me happy.

And our relationship was nothing like Korean dramas. It was just plain simple and we always go with the flow. He's willing to be responsible. The most important thing being in a relationship that I learn was both the girl and the guy have to be responsible. Its not just the guy that has to take effort but the girl too.

I've done my part to appreciate what ever things he has done to me, make it it was romantic or not such as just driving me to school even when he's no more attending or bringing me out for dinner after his work even when he's dead tired (yeah he was working for time being till he got accepted to go Aussie to continue his studies if you guys are wondering. He was doing his internship.). To that I've tried to make him my own made cards, photo books of us, giving him letters, get him small things that he likes (especially foods), cooking for him. Though I know I kinda suck at that still and I even tried baking (This came out successful because I ended up taking baking as my new hobby!) Even it is not big I hope he understands.

So now he has already flown to Australia to continue his final year there for 10 months. I supported his decision on letting him go miles away from his family and me to study. Its also one of my way to let him know that I trust him no matter where he goes. I was happy that he's going overseas, few thousand miles away to continue his last year. He can finally get to see the outside world without his parents and also learn to be independent (though he was already independent) XD. But yeah.

I thought I could handle the relationship with him being so far away. With me not being able to see him face to face, with me not being able to hold his and tease him and bully him, cry to him, go out 'makan' with him and his family and what not. I thought I was super ready because its just freaking 10 months. But I guess I was totally tiny bit wrong. :( I was totally holding up my tears, showing off he's the weak one crying. :P but then when he left us (me and his family) standing there looking at the signboard 'international departure', I realized the biggggggggggggggg hole.

When I reached home that night, I couldn't sleep, thinking how am I going to survive when I come back to KL again? Its not going to be the same anymore. He wont come and visit me, or he wont be there to surprise me, I have to go out dinner by myself and also do grocery shopping alone. All I can do was miss him. Ah, the next 10 months (my Final year project and also my internship) gonna be totally different I realized.

But we got a chance to challenge our relationship. Its to take up all the ups and downs by being far apart and come out clear after that!

#random


From,
Coffee.

You Smiled Back.

You were the only one, 

That looked into me,

That held me in your eyes,

You were the one that made me feel something. 

I do remember,

You smiled back,

When you did there was something,

Something that stirred in me,

I wasn't sure of that something.

Whenever you walked next to me,

My heart did something,

The light brush of our arms,

You smiled back,

And my world was lifted up.

You smiled back when I did,

And I went lalalalala, 

I went flying,

I was happy all because of you,

Because you smiled back.

You were the only one,

That smiled back at me.