I KENOT 'TAHAN' THIS.

YES, THE TITLE SAYS IT ALL.
If you are asking about what do you mean by that title, it is about 'BOREDOM'.
You read it right. BOREDOM.

I AM TOTALLY BORED TO DEATH RIGHT NOW. LIKE SERIOUSLY. MY HEAD IS GOING CRAZY. I NEED TO DO SOMETHING, I NEED TO STUDY SOMETHING, I CANT HANDLE MYSELF BEING CAGED IN MY OWN HOUSE.

Excuse me for typing all my words in capital letters. I just had the need to release all my bulked up boredom into writing it out that it came out bold and mad.

Let me give me a basic routine of what I do in my house;

Morning;

Wake up 9am/9.30am, pick up the phone next to me to wish Waikeong and some others who I got notifications from the other social networks, 10am go downstairs, brush teeth, make breakfast, eat. 11.30/12pm, starts cleaning up study room, my room and parents room, sometimes go out to buy something for mum for lunch preparation.

Afternoon;

Shower, sit, do dad's paperwork at the same time procrastinate, reply Waikeong and chat with him on Whatsapp, scroll FB, Twitter, Instagram at the same time, listen to songs/covers, talk to mum sometimes, then go back to bussiness, do dad's paper work, and repeat, makan.

Evening;

Same thing. Except no more talking to mum. Just help her hang the washed cloths. Sometimes tries to do workout.

Night;

Surf the net till bedtime, makan, sleep.
So alll these repeated routine is driving me NUTS. Its insane staying at home and doing things that bores me. I have tried doing some other things like baking, watching korean shows but all these comes to an end and my boredom kills me again.

I just cant wait for my semester to start so I can get my ass back to Taylor's and start with my Final Year Project.

3 MONTHS OF FREAKING SEMESTER BREAK IS WAY TOO MUCH FOR ME TO TAKE IT.

Its not like I'm on holidays or what not to enjoy it. Its just going back to home. Though there are times, my parents bring me out for a small outing. Even that doesnt last long okay. I mean I can come up with something, like write a story, or read up my novels, or continue my FB adlibs or draw but it just didnt struck the interest in me for now. All I can think of is going back to my University and start my semester. I'm all hyped up for it to start!

This got me to realize that, I'm not the kind of person that can stay at home and do nothing. I need to walk around, make myself busy and make myself interested in something.

Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock. Time seems to fly so slow when I'm eagerly waiting the it to pass by.

Sigh, anyway I'm sorry for taking up your time to read my bored up boring post because I got bored and blogged. Hahaha.

Love,
Coffee. 

Will always be there.

Hello to everybody who's having the holiday of their life and to those who's life is just as boring and meagre as me. TT,TT Tht's because I'm on my semester break which is not really a holiday for me. 3 months of semester break is just too longggg and horribly boring ya know!

Anyway, it's been ages since I blogged something proper right? So here's something I just thought of posting after reading tonnes and tonnes of articles about being in a relationship and keeping it long distance for a certain period of time. I know I'm gonna crap stuffs again but bear with me ya~.

I was thinking of posting it after I start my semester but then nah, I'm too bored and I wanna blog something and post something. =P

So it's been almost 2 years eh? Like not yet but almost, very close.Ah, yes its about my relationship with this most lamest, silliest, and also ridiculous boyfriend I ever had. Never thought I could hold on to this for this long actually. When I first accepted him, I was never on the mindset to see my future with him. Never did I thought I was going to set my heart for him. All I thought was I should give in and give myself and him a chance. After all, I rejected him few times and he was still after me for months and months. In the end, he took this one chance I gave him and showed me he's worthwhile by just being plain himself.

Being in a relationship got me to realize, not all guys are the same. When you expect him to be your king or prince charming or whatever Korean drama type of guy but no. Reality is wayy, wayyyy different than you think it could be. At least its not as worse as Korean dramas.

As for this fella, he's just plain himself. I mean he does try to make me happy. His effort that I always treasure. Even it is just plain simple things like visiting me out of the blue, getting me Famous Amos cookies, bringing me out for dinner or dessert eating and even inviting me over to his house for dinner too. He's always trying to make me happy.

And our relationship was nothing like Korean dramas. It was just plain simple and we always go with the flow. He's willing to be responsible. The most important thing being in a relationship that I learn was both the girl and the guy have to be responsible. Its not just the guy that has to take effort but the girl too.

I've done my part to appreciate what ever things he has done to me, make it it was romantic or not such as just driving me to school even when he's no more attending or bringing me out for dinner after his work even when he's dead tired (yeah he was working for time being till he got accepted to go Aussie to continue his studies if you guys are wondering. He was doing his internship.). To that I've tried to make him my own made cards, photo books of us, giving him letters, get him small things that he likes (especially foods), cooking for him. Though I know I kinda suck at that still and I even tried baking (This came out successful because I ended up taking baking as my new hobby!) Even it is not big I hope he understands.

So now he has already flown to Australia to continue his final year there for 10 months. I supported his decision on letting him go miles away from his family and me to study. Its also one of my way to let him know that I trust him no matter where he goes. I was happy that he's going overseas, few thousand miles away to continue his last year. He can finally get to see the outside world without his parents and also learn to be independent (though he was already independent) XD. But yeah.

I thought I could handle the relationship with him being so far away. With me not being able to see him face to face, with me not being able to hold his and tease him and bully him, cry to him, go out 'makan' with him and his family and what not. I thought I was super ready because its just freaking 10 months. But I guess I was totally tiny bit wrong. :( I was totally holding up my tears, showing off he's the weak one crying. :P but then when he left us (me and his family) standing there looking at the signboard 'international departure', I realized the biggggggggggggggg hole.

When I reached home that night, I couldn't sleep, thinking how am I going to survive when I come back to KL again? Its not going to be the same anymore. He wont come and visit me, or he wont be there to surprise me, I have to go out dinner by myself and also do grocery shopping alone. All I can do was miss him. Ah, the next 10 months (my Final year project and also my internship) gonna be totally different I realized.

But we got a chance to challenge our relationship. Its to take up all the ups and downs by being far apart and come out clear after that!

#random


From,
Coffee.