How could I've been so stupid!
At least I should have ask her out when I gave her the letter.
In another one more day we are going to debut.A lots of training had been going on to perfect out our debut.Our song will be released first tonight and tomorrow we are going to make our first public appearance in M!Countdown.
"Hyung, come on. Are you ready?"
I nodded quietly.
I was lying in my bed. I'm a bit nervous mainly because of critics and comment of others.At the same time, it's our first day in public view, so, I don't want to make any mistakes.
When I came out of my room, Jonghyun's voice can be heard in the living room.He is practicing his lines.
Onew is talking to someone on the phone.
Key and Taemin are playing scissors, paper and stone.
"It's the last day of rehearsal guys.Make sure no mistake is made," Manager hyung was here.
"Sure manager hyung," Onew had put his phone down.
"ok, let's go now," He said motioning us out of the dorm.
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We are practicing our Romantic now.
Yeah, my girl
I'm an idiot
Your unforgettable love,
The final tears
Are ripping away at my whole heart
It's ripping away,
(I'm Sorry) I'm so sorry
I thoughtlessly walk
Wherever my heart takes me
It seems I am looking for
Those that look similar to you
I'm still standing at the same place
It almost seems like you just tapped my sagging shoulders
And hid from my sight
Why are you not there? can I not see you?
Are my eyes looking too far?
I trusted that I could love again
Still you stay, branded in my heart unmoving.
What do I do?
It can't not be you.
I am so miserable
That I realized this now
The pictures
Make it look like I am still your love
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.
So many days I had
Everything of you.
But why is it (baby why)
That now (tell me why)
That I can't find you?
I'm so frightened that
In the places where our memories are deeply embedded
That I may (I know) see you there with the perfect man.
I trusted that I would meet a love like you again
The pain of you branded in my heart is death
What do I do?
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/shinee/romantic_english.html ]
It can't not be you
I am so miserable
That I realized this now
The pictures
Make it look like I am still your love
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.
I guess I'm exhausted.
Left alone I wander,
Looking for the love left in the empty space where you were.
I'm begging you to look at me.
Look at the one so similar to you
This ordeal is too much for me
It so much worse than simply waiting
I became so similar to you that I copied even your habits
There is more of you inside me than myself
I wanna be, wanna be your man
Let's go back to the way things were
I want be reborn as a man that loves you
I won't hurt you ever again
Can I go? I wanna be... I won't let you,
Be your man
It can't not be you
I am so miserable
That I realized this now.
The pictures
Make it look like I am still your love.
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart.
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.
It can't not be you
I am so miserable
That I realized this now.
(Your unforgettable love,
The final tears
Are ripping away at my chest
Leaving only scars that will never heal
Leaving me as my miserable self
I'm so distressed, what do I do?)
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart.
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.
What do I do now?
I'm an idiot
Your unforgettable love,
The final tears
Are ripping away at my whole heart
It's ripping away,
(I'm Sorry) I'm so sorry
I thoughtlessly walk
Wherever my heart takes me
It seems I am looking for
Those that look similar to you
I'm still standing at the same place
It almost seems like you just tapped my sagging shoulders
And hid from my sight
Why are you not there? can I not see you?
Are my eyes looking too far?
I trusted that I could love again
Still you stay, branded in my heart unmoving.
What do I do?
It can't not be you.
I am so miserable
That I realized this now
The pictures
Make it look like I am still your love
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.
So many days I had
Everything of you.
But why is it (baby why)
That now (tell me why)
That I can't find you?
I'm so frightened that
In the places where our memories are deeply embedded
That I may (I know) see you there with the perfect man.
I trusted that I would meet a love like you again
The pain of you branded in my heart is death
What do I do?
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/shinee/romantic_english.html ]
It can't not be you
I am so miserable
That I realized this now
The pictures
Make it look like I am still your love
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.
I guess I'm exhausted.
Left alone I wander,
Looking for the love left in the empty space where you were.
I'm begging you to look at me.
Look at the one so similar to you
This ordeal is too much for me
It so much worse than simply waiting
I became so similar to you that I copied even your habits
There is more of you inside me than myself
I wanna be, wanna be your man
Let's go back to the way things were
I want be reborn as a man that loves you
I won't hurt you ever again
Can I go? I wanna be... I won't let you,
Be your man
It can't not be you
I am so miserable
That I realized this now.
The pictures
Make it look like I am still your love.
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart.
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.
It can't not be you
I am so miserable
That I realized this now.
(Your unforgettable love,
The final tears
Are ripping away at my chest
Leaving only scars that will never heal
Leaving me as my miserable self
I'm so distressed, what do I do?)
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart.
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.
What do I do now?
Somehow this song reminds me of someone, someone I've been long forgetting.
A girl.
Her jokes, her laughs, her smile.
"Ya, Minho-ah, concentrate," Key was signalling me with his elbow.
I nod my head slowly.
Who is she?
It's not Chaerin but...
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Your POV
Phone rings
"Yoboseyo,"
"Yoboseyo, is this Chaerin?" the voice is so familiar.
"Ye,"
"Chaerin-ah, it's me Jinki," oh! Onew-shi?!
"Haha," I laughed "Onew-shi, how did you get my number?" a little shock.
"I got it from Key,"
"And how did Key get it?"
This time he laughed.
"Key got it from Min," uh?
How did Min got Key's number?
It doesn't matter now.
"Waeyo Onew-shi? "
"It's nothing.Tomorrow is our big day!"He sounded happy and excited.
"Wait, let me guess.....you guys are going to debut right?!" A little shocked that I could know what day is for them tomorrow.
"Wah! That's an amazing guess.Yes.I thought you would say, it's my birthday or something,"
"Haha, chukhahaeyo Onew-shi!"
After a several second, he responded.
"I want you to see us debut.You are one of the reason our popularity increases,"
"Me? I....,"
"You are coming,"
"But...."
"No buts,"
"Wait...but.."
"I got two tickets, you can bring _ too,"
"Uh?"
" See you later,"
"See me later?"
"Bye gotta go,"
End of phone call
WHAT?!!
Sigh.
Well, I have to support them!
It's just I'm nervous, I have to face _ too.I haven't seen _ since that day.
AH!
I'm totally not me!
I called
"Yoboseyo,"
"Chaerin!" She knows my voice well or she saw the caller ID?
"Min-ah, we are going to M!Countdown tomorrow,"
"M!Countdown?"
"Yes.I got two tickets from my friend,"
"From your friend? I thought you only had me and the other 5 from our school,"
"You'll know something soon,"
"Me? Are you hiding something from me?"
"Sort of,"
"ok..ok..,"
"be ready,"
"Of course i will! Who would miss such an opputurnity!"
I chuckled at her random cuteness.
End of phone call
I cooked dinner for myself.Daddy and Ilhan went for mens day out.
Ding dong.
"Coming,"
I opened the door and it was
Onew
"Oh! come in,"
He smiled.
"Here you go," he passed me two small rectangular size paper.
He knows my house! you silly!
"Thank you," i bowed to him.
"Anytime,"
"I cooked dinner.Would you like to eat?"
"You cook,"
I glare at him.I know he is teasing me.
He motioned me to calm down.
"I just ate,It's ok.Thanks."
"Well, congratulations.You are going to be famous soon!"
I shook his hands.
It was getting awkward.
"So,"
"So,"
"I should be going now,"
"Oh, ok,"
"See you tomorrow then,"
I nodded.
he turned to look at me one last time and I spotted something.
His face.
It shows something.He looks handsome in blue sweat jacket and black tight pants.
WHAT AM I THINKING??!! NO!
Then he walked away.
I closed the door and lean against the wall.
PHEW!
I'm so confused with my own feelings!!
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