Chapter 56:

Is he already here?

I was walking up the mountain stairs.

It's still quite dark.

The sun haven't rise yet.

The sky still looks pale blue.

I'm meeting Minho for the last time.

Then, that's it.

It took me all my courage to make a decision to meet up with him.

At least I have to say I'm leaving.

I told Onew oppa to bring him to Mount Wonju where we met last time.

Who would be awake so early in the morning uh?

I had no choice.

My flight is at 7.00am and i have to be there by 6.00 at least.

While I was climbing, I received a text message.

Onew: He's up already.

Me:Thank you

Onew: Meet me down after talking to him.

There was not even a single person on the way.

I 'm all alone.

Then I saw someone.

It must be him then.

He was wearing a scarf around his neck with a thick jacket.

It's really cold actually in the morning.

He saw me coming.

It's really awkward to talk to him like usual after this situation.

I just bowed to him.

He just stared at me.

Oh, those eyes! Could you please don't do that! I was talking to myself.

"I.....I'm leaving," was all I could say.

He didn't talk back.

All the sudden, I fell pain everywhere in my body.

My heart, my head, my mouth.

It's because of the tears I'm trying to control.

"Miahne," I said.

"Why?"

I have to be cold heart.

I have to be cold.

I didn't talk back.

Let him do anything he wants.

He can scold me, hate me as much as he want now.

"Waeyo?Why! Why!" He asked back.

I smiled.

This is insane. Seriously!

"Thank you," thank you? something in me made me say it.

He frown at me.

"Be who you are, show others your talent and shine as your group. Ok," What am I talking!

He was just looking at me.

I'm not going to answer his question. It's too much.

That stare.

What is he thinking? I can't read his mind but I can tell from his expression he is not in good condition.

Both of us.

It's for his good.

"You decided to leave for my good?" His voice made me go red.

I just nod my head.

"Mianhe," I couldn't take it anymore. I promise myself not to cry but I was crying already.

"Aniyo, please. I thought we can make through anything? We promised, remember?"

"I know but, I also told you when time goes on, it might change.That promise is unavailable now," I was looking in his eyes.

Those yes that I will never forget even where I go. The eyes that changed my life into this.

"No,"There was tears in his.

"Yes," I said merely a whisper.

"So, that's it? You are just going to leave?"

I took a deep breath and went closer to him.

I 've done this so many times to him.

But now, it's seems like the first and last time.

A little more closer to him.

He stood there still.

I removed his scarf from his face.

I cupped his cheek by my hand.

I can feel the heat in his body.

Our lips touched.

I kissed him.

This time with passion, full of sincerity and love that I will never forget.

He was expecting it. He kissed back too.

His hands snaked around my waist and pulled me closer.

I kiss him deeply. Our love is shared through this one kiss.

I pulled back.

I had to stop. He didn't want to let me go but I have to.

I know if I continue, I will never stop.

I dried my tears.

"Goodbye.We'll meet again when there is destiny, Minho,"

"Sarangeyo," He whispered.

"I love you too,"

Now all I need is the courage to walk away.

I looked into his eyes for one last time and turned away.

But something was preventing me.

I know it's my heart and

A string from my clothe is rolled up with his jackets button.

He untie the know and hold my wrist.

I'm sorry.

I pulled my hand away and walk away leaving him behind me.

It's all my fault.

I shouldn't have sat next to you,You shouldn't have helped me,

I shouldn't have looked into your eyes,

I shouldn't have joined the show,

I shouldn't have fallen for you,

I should have...I should have...

Tears rolled down non stop.

Down the Mountain, Onew oppa was waiting for me.

Oh, Onew.

I 'm going to miss you too.

I ran towards him and his hands were open receiving my hug.

I merely sob on him.

But all he did was caress my hair until I stop.

"Sorry,"

"Gwenchana," He told me still looking worried.

His shirt was nearly soaked with my tears.He ignored it.

"You really sure about this?"

I simply nod.

Bye.

Bye bye....

Chapter 55:

Your POV

Minho again.

Ugh!

My phone rings again.

*Calling: Minho.

Onew oppa must have told him.

Should I pick or not?

I get atleast 10 missed calls from him everyday.

I press he 'ignore' button again.

I don't even dare to talk to him in this situation.

I've been so busy this week with my final exam and with the documents I have to settl brfore leaving to Paris.

College application forms, entrance exam,approval letter from my former school.

It's hard not to think about the memories I will be leaving behind.

It's hard not to think about him.

I miss him so much.

Minho.

Only tears came out of me.

Cry.

Cry.

Cry.

Cry all you can, Chaerin.

Cry until there's no tears left to cry anymore.

So that when yo face him, you will have a cold heart.

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Graduation Day.

So many people?! Wow.

All of them are graduating in the same year?

I thought it was only our batch.

I'm siting in the first row as arranged by the teachers with some of my classmates.

Min is sitting in the second row right behind me.

She's ben grinning for the whole day.

"Omo, Chaerin, finally we are draduating!" she whispered in my ear.

The school prncipal is still giving his speech.

I'm so proud of you, I hope you will achieve success in future...blah,blah,blah...(not listening at all)

All the students' parents are seated behind the students seating.

Dad came with Ilhan.

Mum couldn't make it to come over becasue of her work.

"Now, let's announce the best scored student," the Master of Ceremony was talking.

Everyone kept quiet.

"Best results of the year...wow..we have two person here.Ok, first, it's none other than Choi Minho!" There was a loud applaud for him.

I was shocked not because he was the best scored but he came!

I clapped with my eyes wide with shocked.

"Chaerin, it's Minho!" Min was clapping too.

So all of them are here?

Shouldn't be right?

Oh, I hope he don't see me.

Oh, no.

I don't dare to face him so looked down.

He took the certificate and gave a small talk.

"Ok, now the second best goes too..." I dont even know who she is.It's a girl.

She looks more nerdy than me.

Everyone clapped for her too.

I had to look up.

Then my eyes met Minho's for a second and looked away.

He was staring at me.

Oh, those eyes.

Please stop looking at me!

One by one all the other students name was called to get their certificate.

I was not in the top scored student.

I'm just an average scored student.

I went up on stage and took my certificate.

I saw my dad from far away looking at me.

Min was clapping for me too.

I bowed to the principal and took a picture.

Then the MC wanted all the students to take a group picture.

I saw Minho walking up the stage.

Oh, no, no,no.

I should stand somewhere far.

Somewhere at the edge.

"Ya, Chaerin, where are you going?"Min grabbed my hand.

"Ya,ya,let me go.I'm not going to stand in front,"

"Oh, come on!"

She pulled me to the middle.

Minho was just two to tree people away.

I'm not looking at him.

I'm not looking at him.

"Chaerin, you sure you are not going to talk to him?" Min know what happened. I told her the next day after I talked to Onew.

I just nod my head.

After the photo session ended, all the students scattered around talking to each other and congratulating.

I went down the stage to see my father.

Then I heard a voice calling me.

"Chaerin,"

I know who it belongs to.

So I ignored it and walk.

"Chaerin, wait!" he held my hand this time.

I look at him one last time and pulled my hand and ran away into the crowd towards my dad.

He never came after me.

Oh, stupid me!

Stupid me!

Stupid, stupid!

Pabo!

I was scolding myself.

"Appa!" I saw him. I gave him the certificate. Then he looked behind me.

Did he saw him?!

"Noona, chukhahamnida!"

"gomavo, Ilhan,"

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Flight

*KRINGGGGG!!!

Oh, alarm!

It's 4.00am already?!

Uh!

I woke up from my bed.

And all I could see is bags in front of me.

My clothes.

Yes.

Today is the day I'm leaving to

Paris.

Chapter 54:

Minho's POV

where is Onew hyung?

He has never been late like this before for dinner.

He has been actingso weirdly this days.

Am I not realising anything.

Then I heard my room door open.

Onew hyung came in.

He was totally soaked in the rain.

"Hyung, you got wet in the rain?!"

He didn't answer me. He just came in quietly and dump his jacket into the basket, took his towel and went out.

What? Is he mad at me?

"Hyung, Lee Joon hyung called me just now," that woke him up.He stopped where he was heading.

I know he never went out with Lee Joon hyung.

He lied.

But why?

"He said you weren't with him," Lee Joon hyung called me to ask about my status.That's how I get to know that Onew hyung is not with him.

"Where did you go?"

He continue walking to the bathroom.

Was it too personal? But he never hide anything from us.

Why now?

I went back to my room and sat on my bed.

Key,Jonghyun and Taemin slept early.

I tried calling Chaerin but she didn't pick her phone.

She must be busy.

I miss he so much.

It's been more than a week since I last saw her or talk to her.

Those eyes, smile, he innocency.

I was smiling.

I took a paperband my mind flowed with so many words..

All my eyes can see is your figure,

This is the confession you've been waiting for,

Show me your eyes,

I will give you my love,

I like you so much, I'll love you forever..

Onew hyung came in when I wrote the last line.

"Hyung,"

"Minho,Wait.I'll tell you but please could you just give me some time," his voice sounds soar.

I respect him. So I kept quiet.

He went out of them room.

After several minute, I heard something like a glass broken into pieces.

"Hyung!" I heard Taemin too.

It was from the kitchen.

I ran out quickly.

Onew hyung was staring at the floor.

And Taemin was standing at the kitchen entrance.

"Taemin, what-" I saw it already.

Glass broken into pieces and water spilled.

I looked at Onew hyung who stoodthere frozen.

"Hyung,move," I pushed him aside and took a broom and dustbin to throw it.

Taemin came in to help.

"Hyung, you alright?" Taemin was worried.

Onew hyung just nod his head.

"Sorry,"

"Taemin you go back to sleep. I will take care," I told him. Taemin went back to his room.

No one injured. The floor is clean now.

Onew hyung was still not himself.

I started walking out of the kitchen, that's when Onew hyung called me.

"Minho,"

"Ne, hyung?"

"I...I met Chaerin just now,"

"Chaerin?You met her?Where?" I was confuse.

"She....she..wants you to let go of her,"

Uh?

What?

Did I heard right?

"Hyung, what did you just say?Let go?Let go of Chaerin?" A lot of things ran in my mind. Is he pranking me? Is there a hidden camera?

"Minho I'm sorry. I'm only the messenger. I just tell what she ask me to to.She is going to Paris next week after graduation.She wants you to forget her and move on,"Onew hyung's eyes was red and he was shivering.

This doesn't seem like a prank at all.

I was half frozen from what he just said.

My fist tighten and I was getting angry. I don't want to listen to Onew hyung anymore.

Why is she going t oParis? Why the sudden decision? I thought we settled it already?

What is going on?

Then I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"If you really love her, let her go.She is doing this for your good.She loves you and only you.There is always ups and down.Understanding is most important," He told me looking into my eyes.

"Hyung, stop talking non sense!" I was getting angry for nothing.

"I'm not talking non sense," He said it in a low voice.

"Why can't she just tell me herself? Why?why?"

He didn't answer that but just walked away from me leaving me thinking.

Confused.

I can't think.

I dialled Chaerin.

It rings but nobody picked.

I slam my hand in the kitchen counter out of confussion.

Let her go?

How? I can't just simply do that!

She is doing it for my good?What good does that bring me?

Anger and sadness filled me.

I love her.

I ws controlling myself from bursting.

I tighten my fist.

Calm down. Calm down.

Talk to Chaerin first.

Why let her go? If she is going to Paris to continue her studies, she can still come back after that right?

My brain is totally scattered.

I'm so confused in my mind and heart.