The Waiting

A story of a girl who waited for her fiancee. Waited. And still waiting.
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Walking through the wind that pushes past our hair. Do you still remember this place, Ash?
I wish you would. I am here. Walking day and day around here. The sonata wind, the snow that sprinkles around me. Its the first snow I'm seeing without you. Its the first day I'm walking without you. Where are you? Are you here with me? Are you up there looking at me through the sky? Talking about the sky, its very beautiful day today. The sky is filled with bright cloud. Just like any day we used to walk hand in hand and see  the sky above us. I've brought out your bicycle out today instead of mine. Its been long since I rode bicycle. I hope I don't bump into someone else, like how I did to you. It was our very first day here that day. The day I set I set my eyes on you. Our more like you set your eyes on me? =) I came yelling at your back to move away because its my first time riding a bicycle out here. And you, you were walking with your bicycle next to you. When I think about it. It makes me sound like a most infamous silliest girl you could have ever fell for. Are you hearing me? Are my thoughts drifting to you?

We bumped. We met. I payed for your damaged bicycle and you kept coming after me asking me, "So you think paying me money for a new bicycle would make be much better? It was my favourite bicycle I got from my grandpa, it doesnt change anything that you ruined it." Making me angry and making me feel guilty so much. You annoyed me the most. But as day past, we kept meeting each other co-incidentally at this place. I used to ignore you everytime. But one day you didnt appear. I thought you were late. I waited. Next day, the after but you didnt came.

Why do I feel empty when you weren't there? Why do I feel so clueless? Like how I feel now. You are not here like that day. I thought you left. Like how you did last time. But you came. You came back for me.

You stood under those beautifully blooming tree with your new bicycle smiling when I saw you. I didnt know what came into me but I remember I ran towards the tree. Ran towards you. I was embraced by you. Then I knew how its feel to be contented and I didnt feel empty anymore. You fill my heart, Ash.

But where are you now? You promised me you will bring them and come for me. You promise to give me what you took away from me. My heart. You promised me to be here with me. Are those promise meant nothing. You filled up my eyes and heart. I keep thinking about you. Where are you now Ash? Are you up there looking at me being empty and clueless again?

The ring on my finger doesnt give me any answer. I can't find it either. I can't seem to let go of it. Tears. I cant seem to let go of the tears that kept rolling.

Its a beautiful day, Ash. Look down at me wherever you are. I brought flowers too. I'm sitting under the same tree I came looking for you when you disappeared. It still has our name carved in it.

'Ash n Tess'.

What do I do now, Ash?

Give me a sign for the day.

I would love to walk away from this tree and never look back. I set his bicycle aside leaning across the tree and set the flowers down.

I walked. Walked and never looked back.

You can have you bicycle back, Ash. I love you.

Rest In Piece always.

Sincerely,
Tessa.