I Wish I Wish.

Why am I always like this?

Why am I so gullible and vulnerable to everything?

Why am I not selfish for myself?

Why?

I wish I could just get out of this place for now and never come back for a year or so.

Would some one at least care?

I know few. Yes, I know they do.

But who am I with now is not what I want.

I wanna run away. Isnt it cool to just go some where far, forgetting all your past and just think of your present and where you are now in this new world? No one to think about, no studies to concentrate, no phone calls, and its all about you.

Who am I to the people who sometime see me and sometimes I become a invisible cloak?

Am I just a usage?
Existential Crisis. Yes that's the word.
I wish there is a song that could describe my feelings.

Friends?

Distancing? Normal? Not normal?

Love You.

Jessica
I hated schools, I hated my college life and now here I am running late for my next lecture class in my university life.

Most of all, I hated being around people. Its always those who look down at me, or either never look at me. I was not the one of a kind girl, but I am the non-typical too. I am just me.

"Hello?" I answered my phone while running up the stairs.

"Jessi? Why are you panting early in the morning?" Mum asked me. She calls me everyday to check on me and my condition since I stay away from them.

"I-, Mum, I-" I really was panting badly. "Mum, I talk to you later, I'm fine, just late for class, see ya, love you!"

"Okay darling, love you," She kept the phone.

I was one floor below my next class. I am not a good runner or what, I am not a thin skinny girl with long legs. I have fat on my body, i have short legs and long messy hair that I dont really comb sometimes. I am 56 kg and for a model looking girl, its not normal. So I am just a short chubby girl and being friends with me is a disease, that's what people think of me. Do they? I rarely had friends and if I do, they only asked for my help and gone.

I was never bothered about it, since it always happens to me-

"Excuse me, excuse me!" I heard someone running and couldnt really catch where the voice is coming from, I turn to look behind me no one and when I took my last step up the stairs, BANG!

What the-

And the next thing I realise I was falling down the stairs backwards, with a whole plate of sauce on my shirt.

"Oh my, are you ok? I'm sorry. I'm sorry! I, ur clothes, err.."

I went black for a few second till I can see myself again. And I got what he meant. I was soaked with his plate of sauce. Seems like he is a culinary student who stuck his head into a science students head.

Well, I'm obviously already late for class, thanks to my alarm, and now here it is now. This disaster.

"Its ok, I'm fine. I could need you help though," I showed my hand so he can carry me up straight, I think I hurt my back.

"Oh,sorry," He help me out.

And for the first time, I realize how close he was to me. And also how good looking he actually is. This random boy who we bumped into each other. Oh? Since when did I started observing boys, Jessi?!

"If you dont mind, I can bring you back to the student clinic, you can get changed in there,"

"No, no, I'm really really fine,I'll manage its myself. You seemed like you were in hurry, you should better be going,"

"Oh, I, errmm, but, you-"

"Look, I can go back and change, I stay in the uni hostel so dont worry," I smiled at him. For the first time,I actually smiled at a guy after so long.

"Sorry, and I'll see you soon," He took up his plate and hesitated a little, he saw the mess we made and sighed.

That made me chuckle. He finally took a final look at me and went of.

Well, I have to change then.

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Kattley

"Look you cant be doing this! Always! Its always me! Why am I the only one feel like I'm getting hurt! I cant do this anymore, Jake, I really can't and even though I tried so many times, I feel like a useless pig,"

I was crying. This is it. I know this is it. If  I continue this relationship, I would be doing stupid things that could hurt me.

"Kate, do you know what you are talking? Are you drunk or something? Its late now, you should go and sleep,we will talk about it tomorrow," He said on the other side of the phone calmly.

"First, I know what I'm talking, I am not drunk and its up to me when I want to talk about it. No, we really are done Jake. We are done. Don't you get it? I'm breaking up," I cant believe I said it. After 3 years of relationship with him, I can't seem to think of breaking up with this guy I'm so much in love with. But as years pass by, he wasnt giving in anything I thought he would, he didn't play his role in a way I thought he would. All I wanted was him to love me, that's all. But no, its been 2 years since we started fighting and getting back because I wanted to be with him. I was blind to go back to him.

But now its so clear to me that I should move on. Move on with my life, move on to the new one that is awaiting for me. My friends who I neglected, my family who I ignored, all these people I missed while I was in a relationship because I was too blind.

"Kate, don't do this,"

"I'm sorry Jake, this is the only, onl-" I was controlling it but I know I can't stand it anymore. I'm so exhausted that I cannot do this anymore. No more.

What else you can say when you know your own boyfriend was in another relationship besides her?

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Rose

"What are you doing Rose?" My friend asked me, when I bought a card for Alex.

"A birthday card, can't you see it?" I Showed her.

"Oh, come on, not again," She sigh under her big black sunglasses.

"What?" I looked at her.

"You are sending all these gifts you bought for him without your name. For Heaven's sake, how on earth will he know that it was from you? All these years you have sent him so many presents and did u receive anything back? No. Why are you doing this. Why can't you just go and give it to him yourself?"

"I can't,"

"Why can't you? That's my question!"

"I just can't. I-,uh, forget about it. I'm buying this," I took the card and went over to the cashier.

Yes, this has been my habit ever since, I had an eye on the Mr.Perfect of our work place Alex. He is the all in one guy I've ever met. Just the person all the girls will fall for and guess what? I'm one of them too.

He talks to all the girls in our office. He goes out with them, but never once was I one of them.

So I decided to send him gifts by not stating my name but just Miss. Mysterious.

Whenever he receives something I delivered, his face lighten up, because I know he would like it.

Seeing him happy is just enough for me because I know I am making him happy even though he doesnt know it.

Its been 12 months ever since this routine has taken place, I had always had this urge of telling him all of the gifts he receive are from me. But I know I don't dare.

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It was my late night shift and I was packing up to get back home.

Then I heard the main lobby door swung open with Alex on the shoulder of a women. A pretty one.

Alex on the other hand was, was drunk.

He came in wobbling over his desk and the girl helped him out. I was looking at both of them, when the girl noticed me.

"Hey, I need some help here,"

I walk towards them and stood still, staring at her.

What were this two doing at the middle of the night?

"Hi, Errm, I saw this address in his namecard, you must know him or something? Please, do help him. He is drunk,"

"Oh?" I looked at the fallen Alex on his table top.

"I have to go, sorry," She left the lobby. With just her and him alone.

I stared at the door after she left. What am I suppose to do now?! I dont even know his house!

"Errm Alex?" I shook him, but it doenst give any effect to his drunkeness. "Alex," I shook him again.

Sigh. Now what?

I called my usual taxi driver that drives me to my apartment.

He help me up with Alex up to my house.

"Thank you, and sorry for the trouble," I thanked the driver.

"No worries sweetie,"

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I just finished my class and was walking to have my lunch. I have a group assignment where I was teamed up with few of my classmates I rarely talk to.

Text message
Meet up at discussion room 2 at 3pm. Thank you all.

Leader.

I replied an 'OK-"

BANG!

Oh-oh!

"Hey, becareful where you are going!"

"I'm sorry, I didnt see- Hey! Its you again," It was him. The boy whose sauce poured on me like a fondue.

"Hi," I have no idea why but I think my cheek just turn like a tomato.

"Hello, how are you? I'm really sorry about that day, I never had done this before," He laughed though and I saw he had a dimple no two.

What's happening to me?! I can feel my stomach flutter. Jessica, keep hold of yourself! He is just a random guy who will leave you once you get to know him.

"I'm fine, haha, its ok, it was my first time experiencing it too. I mean the fondue thing, oh I mean getting soaked," Oh gosh, i am not even talking properly!

"Hahhaha, you have a great sense of humor," He said smiling. "Oh man, ..look at this, we have been talking and I dont even know your name,"

"Jessi," I offered my hand. He took it, "Sebastian,"

I nodded and repeated his name in my mind, Sebastian.
Well, I didnt know he would be part of my life after all.

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"I broke up with him,Kai," I told him. Kai the boy who seems to have a crush on me ever since we were in high school. I didn't wanted it to distract our friendship though. He was my best friend beside the other two girls I had.

"Kate, listen, you made the right decision, its ok, calm down" I was crying in front of him. Kai is the person who I can tell him anything anytime I want.

"I do? I dont even know what I did!" I burst again.

I can see Kai wanted to hug me but he was resisting himself. He knows if he does he will never let me go.

"Kai, I-"

"Shhh," He came closer and finally hugged me. He enclose his strong muscle around me. It strangely felt comfortable. "Shh,"

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I was in the canteen with my friend when I received a call from Jake.

"I need to see you, where are you," I felt my heart jumped. I promised to not to see him again. But here he is coming to me everytime I avoid him.

"I am not seeing you,I'm busy," I said. I was with Kai. And I'm sure he knows who I am talking to by the way I am talking.

I kept the phone and we continued eating.

"So this is who you are busy with uh? The high school jerk?"Came a voice I dreaded the most. I saw Kai's muscle tighten. I looked at him and he quieted down.

"What do you want?" I stood up leveling up to him.

And here it goes again. I would always analyse Jake when he is close to me. His sharp curve jawline, his strong scent of perfume that I used to fall for. The light shade brown eyes of him. I'm doing it again. I'm falling again.

"So you hooked up with someone in just a few days? Wow, that's not surprising,"

"Jake,no, you know Kai is my friend. He will always be my friend," Kai flinched at my words but he was still looking at me and Jake.

"Is that so? I dont think he wants to be friends with you,"

"What is wrong with you! I told you-"

"Back off, man," I heard Kai moved behind me.

"Oh, here comes her little knight,"

"Jake, stop it,"

"Oh you think I will just let you go? So you think this is the end of both of us? Not that easy my darling, not that easy,"

"What are you talking about?" I had this weird feeling again.

"I have pictures of you, being intimate with me," He smirked.

And all the blood in my body washed out. I turned pale. I know what he is thinking. No!

In a split second I saw Kai holding up Jake's collar and banged him on the wall of the canteen.

"No! Kai, dont! Stop it," I tried pulling him away but he was too strong.

"You never deserved her in the first place at all! You cheater!" Kai swore and punch him in his face that I was terrified.

"Kai, come on, stop it!" I was tearing up. No, this is not happening.

Kai pulled up and kick him one last time and walked off. I stood there looking at Jake's swollen face and all I could think was the memories we had, was it all just fake? How could he be so mean? So devilish in his angel body?

I turned and ran after Kai.

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I never once turn to look at Alex after what happen that day. He stayed over and I woke up early and went of to wear after writing a note on the bedpost, where he could see.

"You were drunk yesterday, so I picked you to my house, hope you were ok with it.
You can take a shower and drink up something from the fridge,"
The moment he entered the office, I saw him changed. He wasnt the same Alex I used to see. He was more imperfect. I saw his tie wasnt tied properly, he wore a mismatching pant and T-shirt. He rushed into this cubicle and sat.

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I was walking outside of my office building after work,when someone called my name,"Rose?"

"Alex?"

"It was you isn't it?"

"Uh? You who?"

"Its you, I know its you. Your handwriting its so similar!" He was frustrated I can tell that.

"What-"

"Those gifts you send me, those gift cards and so on, its you," He said it firmly.

"I-I, no, its not me. No, its not me!" I pushed him and bolted pass him without turning. What is happening? Why can't I just admit it? It was me!

Yes, it was me. I gave you all those. But I don't dare to agree? How pathetic I could be! Without knowing, I was tearing up.

I wish, he knew. I wish, I could be the someone he likes. I wished I could just bury myself and not do this anymore as what my friend said.

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It Just Happened.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" All I saw was a white car straight into me and I went black.
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"Juliet? Ju?? Ju? Wake up! Ju!" I cant seem to open my eyes, but the voice is so so familiar. So much clearer in my ears. I can hear but I cant see? Where am I? Am I awake? Unconscious? Why is everything white?

"Ju!" Tht was the last time I heard his voice. His worried casting shrill ran through me.

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How long I had been asleep after my accident I didnt know. All I know was that I woke up after my operation. My left leg is fractured and now its wrapped with white bandage. I was given a stick to walk with.

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"Ju!!!!!" I remember him turning behind to take a look at me screaming. I saw a flash of terror in his eyes. The look where shows emotions tumbling out of his eyes.

I remember clearly now, that I was talking to him unconsciously. Asking him to stay with me, asking him not to leave me. Begging him to hold on me tight.

"Shh.." He quieted me down. I was trembling. I saw blood. My blood. I know what happened. I know its my leg that had been overrun.

"I'm scared. Jinki, I'm scared," I couldnt feel my leg. But he was holding me. I could feel that. He was holding me close. I saw him shaking. Then I heard the sirence of an Ambulance.

I looked into his eyes. And he gave me a assuring kiss on my forehead, "Everything is gonna be fine,"

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It came all to me at once. It was Jinki. Jinki AKA Onew. The famous Idol I had been working with in Korea. The guy who I fell for madly but I couldnt tell him. I don't dare to tell him. He was my friend. My closest friend when I first came to Korea without my Mum's guidance.

I was appointed as a make up stylist for artist at Korea's biggest selling company, SM Entertainment. I got to know him through. A solo artist he was. A interestingly funny guy. Hot Chocolate, was what made me go out  with him. He ask me out in a friendly way. As a friend.

"Juliet! Come on, let's get some Hot Choco after this. It would be heavenly to have it in this type of weather,"

"Hahaha yeah, of course!" I smiled at him.
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He is no longer here. I waited for him to appear into this white painted wall hospital room through that door where the nurses come and go to check on my leg.

But no. He didnt. Or he couldnt? I waited for him to text me. No text. I waited for him to call me. But no calls. Its been two days. I couldnt go to work, so I couldnt see him.

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"Miss Juliet, the doctor has officially decided to discharge you off. You can go anytime you want," The nurse smiled at me at the happy news. But I was still waiting for someone.

I guess its no luck. I decided to stay one more day, to take a look at the hospital and to relax at the pond side I've been wanting to go. Its a beautiful view from my room. I can see the pond surrounded by the garden. Patients, old and young couples feeding the ducks.

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"I'll be fine, Thank you Miss," I thanked the nurse who help me out with my walking. I was nervous to be walking after three days on the wheel chair.

"Ok, dear, just take care and becareful ok?"

I nodded, agreeing to her.

It definitely was a great day today. With the windy breeze. Cool air. I took one step at a time to reach the pond side. I took a sit on the ground slowly and stretched my leg out, with my back on the tree trunk holding me.

I didnt bring any food with me but the ducks were everywhere around me walking and pecking on the grasses.

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"Her room is straight and turn left, room no.303," I thanked the receptionist of the hospital.

I bought Juliet's favourite hot chocolate, a bunch of her favourite carmellia flower and some home cooked food.

I dont know how am I going to face her after three days of not talking to her. I still remember her scared face when she fainted on my arms. When she cried looking at her leg. I should have been with her. But the job i'm doing is not an easy one and I couldnt just back out to see her. I've got an off day today and decided to see her.

I knocked on her door. No answer. Her room door wasnt locked. I clicked it open and went in.

"Ju?" No answer and from the silence itself I know she is not in. Her bag is packed but she hasnt taken it yet.

I saw a nurse walking in the room.

"Oh, who is this young man?"

"Ma'am may I know where did the patient in this room go?"

"You mean Juliet? She went to the garden there," The nurse pointed to the garden outside the window.

"Thank you ma'am," Putting the food box and flower down. I took the hot chocolate cup with me.

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There We Are 2

"Deal?"
"Er..deal," Max nod his head in agreement. This girl is already making him crazy about her. "We will be moving out soon. I'm living away from my parents due to my work. I heard you work somewhere near the place I stay. As what? Clerk or something?"

"What?! Hello? I'm a eye specialist!" Max was taken back by her pride.
"Oh, you are? Ok,"
"You are? I heard you work in an IT company, one of the worker is it? Right?"
Max was still dazed and he nod to her, "Yeah, worker,dealing with paper stuffs." In actual he is a the Manager of the International ICT. And she didn't know that.

The deal was not to tell any of their family members that they are up to this relation. For Anna its still awkward t act as a wife towards Max. Max respects hr decision and falling for her was easy.

They came out of the room. Anna went to her mother in law to help her with the cooking. Max kept an eye on her because it hard for him to get away from her. He loves her smile. The way she thinks on what to talk next, he smiled like a retard.

"Way to go, you are staring at her too much," Max cousin sister poked her.
"What?" he gave her a poker face.
"So how was last night?"
"What? What are you talking?" He gave her a blur face.
"Like nothing happened? 'Nothing'?" She pointed out the word 'nothing'.
"Jamie, that's too much," Max pushed her away but after she was gone, he smiled at himself.
Jamie could be very childish at times even though she is 20.

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"Ok, mum, I will," Max bid goodbye to his mum and dad while they were on the car to his own house which is a few hours ride.

The journey of their own married life starts.

Anna will be minding her own business, she usually goes to work before Max in the morning. She works in a eye specialist hospital. Max goes after that. But breakfast would be ready on his table though. Anna makes breakfast before she goes off.

"How is your wifey doing Max?" One of his Co-worker asked.
"Doing good," He quickly hide something he was writing away from the file he was holding.
"We have an invitation to New York for some International Conference on the Mobile Exporting.
"Sure put that aside, I will take a look at it later," Max's friend put the card aside and went out.
Max took the paper he was scribbling and looked at it.

See Get to know Friends Love Marry.

He was scribbling this on a blank paper.

He called Anna.

"Hello?" She took her phone.
"Anna? Can you come over our house in 15 minutes?"
"Max, I can't I am busy right now," She said.
"Come on, I bet it will be good,"
I can't, can't you see, I'm busy,"
"Ok, maybe later dinner?"
"I will be tired Max, next time ok?"
Max tried but she pushed it.
He kept the phone.

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Anna was home and she was playing a piano when Max came into the house.
Its the first time Max listening to her playing piano. And she was marvelous.

"You play piano?"
"Yes," She said with a final key hitting the note.
"You?"
"Err...I- Yea, I do, I love Beethoven, Picasso's sheets,"
"Picasso is not a pianist, he is an artist," Anna told him doubtly looking at him.
"Oh.yeah yeah, a little confusion that's all," He kept his bag on the couch and move closer.
"You read novels?"
"Novels?"
"Like Dan Brown, Paulo Coelho, J.K Rowling?"
"I know J.K Bowling,"
"Its Rowling,"
"Yeah the guy who write magazines right?" Max was trying to talk out something.
That made Anna laugh.
"Haha, first J.K Rowling is a women and she wrote Harry Potter Novels,"
"Oh, really?"
"I made lunch today, since you came home early you can eat,"
Max looked at her. Usually both of them eat outside during their work time lunch break.
Now it feels weird to be sitting together and eating. Max was happy with it.

"We are going on a dinner party next week. My err..my boss invited us to his house for some opening on our IT product," Max reasoned out. Actually its a congratulatory ceremony for the idea of him that the product is launched.

"Sure, maybe I can try asking him for promotion?" Anna looked at Max. Max nearly spitted his food.
What? "Oh? Oh.." Max realized Anna doesn't know his real job description yet. How funny.

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"Anna you ready?" Max knocked the door to make sure she is there.
"Yes, I am," She came out with a most elegant dress. She was wearing a black knee cut dress. Max couldn't talk back and he kept quiet.
"How do I look?" Anna asked for Max's comment.
"Erm, wow! You-look, you look breath taking," Was the word he was thinking.
Anna laughed at how stunt he looked at her. She waved her hands in front of him because he keep staring at her while she was walking around the house checking before going out.
"We can go now," She told him.
He nod and walked to the car.

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Anna and Max separated because of the crowd in the party.

Anna was walking around when she met one of her hospital colleague and she started conversing.

Max was being congratulated, Anna saw him being hand shaken and frown. He is just a worker, why are they congratulating him?
Anna started walking around looking at him from far away. It's when she realize how he looks. All this time she was busy with her job she didnt even take a look at her own husband.
Max, he is tall, he looks gorgeous with his coat suit, broad shoulder, black eyes and slick hair. He have a smart look and cunning smile. She immediately had a weird feeling growing. Shews looking at him all this while that she didnt realise she bumped into someone. "Oh!"
"Oh, I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" She was apologizing continuously.
"It's ok, you must be Max's wife?" The guy she bumped asked.
"Oh, yeah," She stood still.
"I'm James, Max's second assistant. I've seen your picture in his office," He said smiling.
"His assistant? You work under him?" She was surprised.
"Oh, yes madam, he is the manager of the International ICT Company. Everyone works under him,"
Anna just gave him a shocked face and thanked him before walking away.
She was finding for Max.

Then she heard something familiar.
Something that she played in her house. The piano verse!
Someone is playing it.
She walked towards the key and she found Max sitting in front of the piano and playing.
She went closer to him and asked, "You play?"
"I learned,"
"And you are the Manager of the company. Why would you hid it from me?"
"I don't know," Max shrugged. But Anna couldn't contain her smiled and she smiled widely.

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Anna has maid coming to house to clean the house every week since they are busy with their own work.
That day Anna wanted blessing from elderly because its her birthday.The maid was an elderly so she asked for blessing. "Thank you for the cleaning, and please do bless me, its y birthday, my mum is not here to bless me,"
"Oh, ma'am. Why are you asking me, but bless you child. All will be good in you life,"

Max who was passing the kitchen saw Anna being blessed and heard her saying its her birthday.

In Max's break time, Max got to a book store and got a heart shaped card and a bouquet for Anna.
He wrote in the card and was ready to give it to her at night.

At night after Anna took her shower Max was waiting at the balcony. He heard Anna inside the room removing the comforter to go to bed.

"Anna, erm.."
"Yes?" She stood waiting for him to ask.
"Err..err..here," He gave her the bouquet he was hiding behind his hand first.
"Oh?"
"Happy Birthday," He wished her.
"How did you know?"
"I overheard you talking to the cleaner,"
Anna smelled the roses in her hand. It was so pretty and she was happy.
"What's that on the other hand?"
"Uh?" Max was wavering on whether to give it to her now or not.
"Behind, what are you hiding,"
"What? Nothing!" He showed his empty hand and at that time there was a phone call for him and he answered it turning his back to him.
Anna just ignored and looked at the flowers. She put it in an empty vase and went back to sleep.
After answering the call, Max return into the room and saw her already sleeping peacefully figure.
He thought maybe next time. So he hid the card in between his books in the rack.

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One month has passed and Anna and Max has to the friends level.
Anna makes coffee in the morning for Max before he goes to work nowadays. There's been an improvement  in their relationship.

One day when Anna was cleaning the house with the cleaner, she caught the card in between the books in the rack when she took out to clean it.
It was the heart shaped card that Max bought for her Birthday. She opened it and it was return.

"Would you be my other half?"
Happy Birthday.
Max.

Anna couldn't contain her smiled and she smiled at it.
She took the card to her room and she wrote on it.

"I am"

She kept inside her file.

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Inside Anna's office cubicle, she was staring at the card.
She was looking at Max handwriting.
She wanted so badly to give him but she decided to give this on his birthday.
She know that she already had fallen for Max now.

There We Are

"Mum! Mum!!" She was running after her mother who was busy getting ready for the function.

"Anna get ready! You have to be presentable when they are here. What are you still doing?! Go!" Her mum was getting plates on the table now.
"What is this?! You never ask me for my permission. You decide everything by your own self and you go on deciding who I got tied to?" She crossed her arms and stood still waiting for her answer.

"Your dad and I were into this, not only me,"
"But you never asked me! Me! I'm the one going to live here. Hello," She put her hand up asking.
"Everything is decided when you were busy with your degree. We thought you would be okay with it. Now its too late to cancel this," Her mother carried the rice bowl outside to the dining table.

That got Anna speechless. It is no use. What's the point when the groom's side is on their way already. And everything is already prepared. Her dad's on the phone with the groom giving direction. Anna's brother's helping with the decoration. 

Its the first wedding engagement in Anna's family and its an arranged engagement. Its their only daughter's wedding and they want it to go on perfectly well.

Anna stumble up the stairs and got ready. She wore the dress her mum bought for her when she wasn't around. She was on her best make-up so this wouldn't upset her parents. She sat on the chair inside her room thinking.

All Anna wanted was to get married to someone she loved. Someone she thought she will meet after her graduation and start working. To get to know this person and become friends, then fall in love and then to get married. But Boom, out of nowhere Anna's parents called her when she was on holiday with her friends, saying they got her a groom.

"Anna!" She heard her mum calling her name.
"Coming!" She stood up and took a deep breathe. All she is hoping is for the groom to be as her expectation.

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"Dad! I'm stopping this engagement!" Max was on the car with his whole family. He was forced to go with no choice in his hands.

"You shut up and listen to your elderly. Can you?!" His dad was driving and scolding him at the same time.
"Since when did I told you guys I wanted to get married now! I'm not ready yet and this is not what or how I wanted my marriage life to be, to get tied to an unknown girl!" Max was so frustrated.

"Darling, I promise you  won't regret. She is my friend's daughter and I know they would have brought her up well. So behave son," His mother tried calming him down.

"I will stop this. This is so unfair. I will have my own way, you will see,"
"That' it! You stop this engagement, you are out of this house!!" Max father put a stop to the driving and turn behind to face Max full face. That intimidated Max and he kept quiet.
"You are 28 Max! You are our only son! We want to see you get married before anything happens to us, me and your mum. We are no more youngsters. We are getting old, we want to see you have a life,to hug our little grand kids. Can't you do this small thing at least? One more word there. You are out,"

Max shut up and sighed. This better be good was all he can say.

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"Come on, come on in," Anna's dad was welcoming the groom's family inside the house with wide smile.

The other side of the family shook hands and came in.

"Anna," Her dad called her and the mother.

"Have a seat. Let's talk after we have something to eat ok?" 

"Sure, sure!" Max father agreed.

"Anna. I want you to behave. Don't give that frog face of yours to our groom's side. Understand? Here. bring this in front to the table," Her mother warned her and passed her glasses of drinks where she have to bring it to the visitor. She just nod and walked of quietly.

On the other side, Max was wavering between telling the bride's parents about him not interested in the engagement or should he just get married to her. He really wasn't ready to this because its not easy for him to  get into a relationship that fast and he had his own ideal girl.

"Oh dear, look at her," He heard his mum awe-ing and looked up. He saw a pretty girl with blue dress walking towards them with a long plate balanced with glasses of drinks and mumbling something. And he heard, "Please don't fall, please don't fall," She was concentrating on the glasses not to fall. That made Max smiled. Cute he thought. 

"Hello," Anna put down the glasses on the living room's table and gave a hearty smiled to the groom's side.

"Hello there Anna," Max's mum was so happy to see her.
"Anna, this is Mrs Kimberly, Mr. Bennet and their son Max,"
"Hi, I'm Anna,"
"Come on, sit down darling," Max's mum held her hand and ask her to sit next to Max where there was an empty seating.
"Don't they make a perfect couple?" Anna's mum joined in after a while.

"Oh yes they do," Max's mum agreed.

All the both of them did was laugh at it.

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It is their wedding day. Its gonna be the second time Anna and Max meeting up after their first meeting at Anna's house. None of them wanted to see each other after the engagement. 

Anna's friends were all teasing her when they got to know she is being arranged married. 

Max's friends were the same too but Max was supporting Anna ever since he first eyed Anna. He knew he wouldn't fight back to stop this marriage. During his working hours, he sometimes starts thinking about Anna. The way she fiddled with her hands when they sat together. The way she responded kindly to his parents, the way she looked at him when they introduced them selves. The way she smile. He agreed to himself that she is pretty.

"Anna, you ready?" Anna's bridesmaid was her bestie and she was hyperventilating with happiness.

"Kiara, Kiara, calm down. I am the one supposed to be hyperventilating not you," That made both of them laughed.

"Isn't is so strange getting married to a stranger! Oh my god, if I were in your position I would definitely done something weird," She shrugged her shoulder in bewilderment. 

"Ok, ok, you should get up and go now. Oh and I love you Anna finally you are going to have a life of your own. All the best!" She hugged Anna before letting her go.

"Thank you Kiara," Anna smiled.

"Maxey~" Max's friends were all surrounded him in the waiting room.

"Jake, stop it!" The guys were in the teasing mood while Max was actually nervous.

"You must be lucky you wife is so pretty, smart, and an awesome girl man," 

"Thanks there guys,"
"I think its time for you to be there," He his dad's voice.

Max took a deep breath.

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Both of them were in the groom's house and in Max's newly decorated room.

Anna was sitting on the end of the bed post fiddling with her fingers.
Max came out of the bathroom wiping his hair with the towel.
Its gonna be their first time being together after the wedding.

"I have something to say," Anna and Max voiced up together.
Both of them looked at each other.
"You go first then," Max said.
Anna wanted this straight up and not bring up any confusion.
"Look, this was not what I was expecting. I always wanted a guy who can take my breathe away. So first get to know, then become friends, then go out together, then fall in love and the get married. But the problem is we are already married, so we leave that aside and take in the get to know each other first?"

Max was amazed by her. Max wanted to smile at her but he kept to him self and nod in agreement. He thought this girl is definitely gonna make me love her. Anna divided the bed by putting the bolster in the middle and went to sleep.

Proposal

"Wake up! Wake up! Leo!" I heard my sister's voice screaming in my head.
Oh my gosh! Can't somebody just let me sleep peacefully a day!
I kept my eyes close but I hit her and turned the other way back.
"Leo, get up! You have a letter from some one~"
Uh, who is she kidding me. Trying to trick me into waking up and do the house work? I'm not.
"YA! LEO! Wake up already! Or I'll read the letter. Its from your dear Luhan,"
"LUHAN?!" I immediately woke up and snatched the letter she was holding.
My sister laughed at me and my sudden reaction.
DANG! She knew I will wake up!! Uh!
"YAA!!" I hit her on the back.
"Mum is calling you down, lady," She whispered to me in my ear teasingly and ran out.

Well, I'm Leo. A 25 years old girl with a degree in Mass Communication. In love blindly with a crazy loving guy named Luhan who I had a great relationship with after my family. Its been 5 years we are together and till now his names gives me a butterfly in my stomach pit. And I love it. Just the whisper of his name gives me pleasure.

In the end, I end up getting up and walking down the stairs like a zombie.
"Leo, get ready, you are going out today. We have a lunch party with Uncle Jo," Mum sounds so groggy early in the morning. What's happening?

"Eh?? Lunch Party?"

"Yes, now go get ready. Wear something nice,"

I went back to my room and look around. Its Saturday. Missing Luhan and I have this urge of hugging and kissing him but he is back to his hometown. He must be busy enjoying his holiday so I dont want to disturb him even though he calls me every night. His presence is the one that I miss the most, to hold his hand, to his kiss lips, to hug his muscular body, to hear his heart beat when I hug him. I sighed and sat at the end of the bed.

After getting ready in 30 minutes, I was looking at myself. Its a dress Luhan brought for me. I thought of wearing it today. And I started smiling like a retard in front of the mirror until my sister barge in.

"Ready?" She ask excitedly.
What's up with her? Whys is she so excited?
"Yeah?" I looked at her questioningly.
"Ok, come on, we are gonna be late,"
I came down with my sister dragging me.

Mum is already going out of the house with her car key.
I have a feeling its gonna be a weird party.
As I got into the car and mum starts driving, I received a text from, Luhan. Oh, Luhan!

Open up the drawer in front of your mum's car dashboard and read the letter.
From,
L.

A little goosebumps reeked on the back of my hair. What is this??!!
I looked at my mum who is driving peacefully and my sister who had a earphone on her ear and eyes on the phone.
I read the text again, again and finally opened up the dashboard drawer and saw a blue letter cover with a love shaped heart stick on the corner of it. I opened the heart shaped heart and saw a picture of us together smiling. And now the letter inside it.

Remember the first day I brought you to my parents?
I know you do and you will never forget that day. Haha! XD
You were so afraid that you couldn't even decide what to wear and how to talk to them too.
You couldn't get down from my car until I dragged you out.
My mum's first impression on you was the way you looked at me.
She told me she doesn't only like you but she loves you.
And that's when I know you have gained my mum's trust.
For my dad, during the meeting up in the house my dad slipped off his glasses?
And you picked it, wiped it and gave him, mt dad's smile was genuine and I saw it that he agreed on you being by my side.
My family loves you for who you are and they know you will be happy with me.

The letter ended. I know I'm smiling, he wrote it, its his handwriting but how did it end up here??!

"Mum?" I showed her the letter and gave her my what-is-this questioning look.
"Emm? What's that?" She took a peek at it obviously which her acting skills is not good enough to trick me. I know my mum is in this and so do my sister who is rarely quite all the while.

She drove the car till the car stopped in front of my University where I used to study my degree.
Now what??!!

My mum showed me a face asking me to get down in a teasing way."Bye!!~" My sister waved at me. I frowned at her.
Now what? Where and what am I suppose to do?
This is not to my liking.
I called Luhan, I know he is up to something behind this.
"Sorry the number you are dialing is currently busy,"
Uh!
I started walking into the University's compound. 
Some how this place brings me a lot of memories that changed my life.
My friends and my love. I smiled. Its so fresh in my mind the day he confessed to me in here. It was in the afternoon recess and  I was dumped by my two friends.

Something on the tree in front of me caught my eyes. Oh! The blue letter with the heart again! I ran towards it. I laughed at myself before plucking it out from the tree. 

The heart shaped is stick with another picture of us again. I opened the letter and the similar handwriting.

I know all the memories are coming now for you while standing in front of this tree and reading this rite?
Its still fresh in me too. So much clear. I remember your reaction to my confession. Your face and your body language. The eyes that looked at me with clear utter surprise.
I know you weren't expecting it from me. Haha! 
But I know that day was gonna be it. The day that I have to tell you that I've have fallen for you. That you had taken a special place in me. You had made me gone crazy. And till now even how many small fights we had, I know I wont regret this relationship we are having and still going on happily. 
You ran away from me after my confession, but I know you need some digestion. 
But you came back so fast. After 15 minutes, I was still there thinking about it and you came back asking me a question. 
"Would you bring me to the moon if I agreed?" And I know that moment you wanted the same.

Oh my dear. What in the world. I didnt realise I was tearing up. My eyes got flooded. My I swallowed it back. I'm so gonna urgh, where is he?? Why isn't he answering my phone?

Then at that moment another message from Luhan.

How was it? You like it so far? Haha! Patience ok? You'll get to the point soon. Now I want you to get into a car that will come in a while for you. Trust me, you know the driver well.
From,
L

In just a few minutes, I saw a car riding towards the parking lot I was standing. And there came out, my friend! My one and only best friend Stephanie! Oh my gosh! Its been years I last saw her.

She was in her best oufit. "Step!!!!" I fall my self over her out of happiness. "Oh my gosh, Step!! What the hell! What are you doing here?? How? And what is going on??" I was laughing and also she was doing the same. Jumping up and down like lost kids.

"Leo! I have a lot of things to talk to you but please no time for that now. I need to bring you to a place and that's my job for now," She opened the door for me and show me inside. I gave her a look and she put her tongue out.

She drove me to a place where there were gardens and flowers. Oh! I know this place!
Its where me and Luhan went out for the first time and also the place we fought for the first time and also got together after that at the same place.

"Here you go, I'll see you soon!" Step told me. See me soon?
"Step wait, what's going on?? Where are you going?!"
"Oh, you will know soon sweetie, now be a good girl and get down," She laughed at me getting down reluctantly.
Then she drove away.

The windy fresh air, the smell of the flowers and green grass. The beautiful scenery. Just for a perfect day for relaxation but everything happened here between us. Love and Fight. I walked further into the garden and spot the place we used to hang out. Looking at the sky and laughing or talking non-sensical jokes. He and his corny jokes never gets me bored. I would just stare at him while he talks. Then he would snap at me to wake me up from my trance. I was in love. I knew it very clearly that day. I was madly, deeply and truly in love with this boy.

A text message.

I know you will be looking at the spot we usually sit and talk so do walk around there several time and try spotting something.
From,
L

Where is he actually leading me into?? A trap? Haha! Impossible, but just what is this thing I am doing?? Finding for letters and reading all out memories.

I walked around the birch tree few times and I spot a blue letter again, this time between the outer roots of the big tree. A smile formed on my lips.

The heart shape with another funny picture this time, I was kissing him and he snap the picture that time.

So here you are, my love, the place ,where I realize everything I'm gonna face is with you. 
Ups and downs, bad or good, happy or sad, I know you will there for me. 
This place has a lot of memories in store for us rite? XD The fight we had that broke us apart. Thinking about it, its silly actually for us to fight just because of jealousy. I had anger and yes I agreed I got a little mad when you went out with a guy without me knowing. You tried reasoning but I didn't take it in my head. I'm truly sorry for that even now. I got a little jealous and wanted you to be mine, and I became over protective I guess. 
Does that prove I love you? 
But the day I saw you sitting at the same place after our little break up, looking at the sky. I know you were waiting for me. The way you hit me in my chest with your anger shows you missed me. 
I hugged you tightly promising I would never let you go.

I really in need of seeing him now. Luhan please stop this thing and come over to me now.

Another text message.

Sorry if you are already getting hyper or emotional due to my writing. So now that you have read it. I told you I will never let you go. Walk a few step in front and can you see a small bridge that connect the small river to the next land. Come by there.
From, 
L

I can't wait. I really need to know what is going on and what is he up to now. I walked towards the bridge and even before I reached the bridge, I saw Luhan standing there. There he was with  black suit and combed hair.
The blood in my body rushed to my face and I know I'm blushing looking at him now and butterflies are all over my body.
I did not cross the bridge yet because there were little kids standing and blocking me and he is over the other side. They gave me a flower and I took it, before giving them a peck on their cheeks.
A little girl call me down and so I bent.
She whispered, "Just say Yes,"
"Sorry ,what?"
"Say yes,"
"Yes?"
Then the little girls ran away when they saw Luhan walking to the middle of the bridge.
I walked pass the kids and towards him.
I looked at him with my questioning look and he opened his arm for me. There it goes, my all my missing him came all together now in this one hug.
"Hey," He whispered.
"Hi," I looked into his eyes.
"Can I ask you something?"
"What's with everyone? Luhan, you better tell me what's going on first,"
"You'll know soon after I ask you something,"
"What is it Lu?"

I saw him taking out a blue letter again.
Oh, no...
I laughed at him quietly.

"For all these years we have been together, I wasn't committed enough towards our love, I know I was busy with my job and you had yours too. But I promise that I will make a better person out of myself if you agree to be my wife. So with all my pride, I'm asking you Leo Anne Xavier, would you marry me and be my other half of my life? Would you spend the rest of your life after this with me? To have kids and grow old with me? Would you start your new journey with me? Would you agree?"

I was utterly speechless. Luhan, did you just proposed to me???!
Did he just asked me to marry him?
To be his other half?
I know I have found him, the person that I have been dreaming of all this while. To spend the rest of my life with, to give love and to get love, I know it will be with him and only him. Why am I being reluctant.
Say yes! Oh, now I get it, those kids wants me to agree. Haha!
But tears were rolling my cheeks non stop and all I can do is nod my head. I heard, woooo's and ahhh's and when I looked around, either side of the river there were boats with all my family members, his family members, my friends. I turn to look at him and he was kneeling down.

"I love you," He said and slide the ring he was holding on my finger.
"I love you too," And I kissed him. I wanted it so badly. I kissed him.
"You are mine now," He whispered.
And I hit him to shut him up and continued kissing him.

"Get a room!!" I heard someone from out family shouting and laughing.
So I stopped.
This is it.
I'm engaged and I'm on my way to my own married life.