"Let's break up Lisa," His voice taunted me.
"Let's break up?! Let's break up! Break up!" I imitated him loud with my anger boiling in me reminiscing that moment he said that. The moment my wonderful 100th days together with him came down like an erupted volcano.
Walking down this empty park facing the river, alcohol bottle in my hand, my face probably looks like shit from all the crying and screaming because I fail at containing myself.
Watch shows 1.00am and here I am looking at the so called lovers river.
"Let's break up Lisa,"
I was chewing the delicious pork chop and stop midway as I process what he just said.
"What?" Questioning just in case I heard it wrong.
"Let's stop this relationship for now,"
"What are you talking? John, we are celebrating our 100th day together. What are you crapping right now?!" I asked putting my utensils down. Something in me is making me shiver.
"Lisa, I'm sorry. I know its sudden but I'm extremely sorry. Right now I need to focus on my career. I need to start focusing on my training. You know the agency is pushing me and all to make me debut right? I have to give my 100% for my debut, its one of my dream Lisa,"
"We talked about this John. We did it before. If there were time to come for you to debut, I'll support you and we will still be together no matter what. You told me you would not let me down no matter what and who you become of. What are you saying now?! Is this the agency? Is this them telling you to break up with me?!"
"Lisa, no. Let's just stop. Let's have a proper meal and part our ways in a nice way, can we?" His eyes was pleading with sincerity but only hatred came through me.
"Part in a nice way?" I snickered and stood up. Too much cliche but I dont think I can give him what he want right now. I took out my wallet and put my share of money on the table. "I know things were changing. I know you were busy with your debut schedule but I wonder how you are gonna be responsible for all the money your company is going to pour after your debut when you cant be responsible for a simple thing like this." and I left.
Sighing deeply, I took another sip from the bottle I was holding.
Strangely I feel like there was a shadow walking pass me. Turning to look who it was, I was taken back when I saw him wobbling towards the bench.
Stranger.
He could be a kidnapper Lisa! Walk away! My brain said.
Trying not to be too obvious but still watching him, it seems he is drunk. Did he break up with someone too? While my brain was bickering, I heard him making weird noise and he stood up. Walking towards me, my brain cell were shouting 'run! run! run!' but I froze.
"Ah- Ah, sir-,"
Before I could muster up my sentence to ask if he was okay or not, he puked just a few centimeters in front of me. Oh my gosh.
"Why did you do that Naeil ah?" He asked. Oh? Is he talking to me or is he just mumbling?
I look around before I walk towards him.
"Excuse me sir, I are you alright? Do you need help?" I patted his back while he was still in a bent position.
"Why Naeil? Am I not good enough already? I have money, I have a house and I- I am famous too, but why?"
He's famous? Now that I realise, I couldnt see his face in the dark. Who is this person? I tried to take a look at him but too much of his face was hidden.
"Sir, is it okay for you to be out like this?" I look around just in case there were someone who followed him or something. No one. What should I do? Leave him? Yes, I should. I tried backing up but somehow I felt guilty.
He seems to be in a worse position than me for being famous. I wonder if he's an actor or singer? Damn why is it so dark and shadowy. Should I call someone from his side? Oh, phone, where is his phone? All the sudden he plopped on me. Oh! Ohmygosh! No, no, I shouldn't be involved with these kind of people!
"Ah, Sir, is there anyone I could call for you? Sir-," He wasn't balancing and his body on me was getting heavier. I tried to move him to the bench but his footing weren't good. Aish!
"Naeil ah, thank you for coming, I know you would," I can feel him smiling.
"Sir, sir," I shook him off and that made him fell off and onto the ground. Omo! "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, are you okay?" I feel bad pushing him now. Why am I talking to him like he is in his right state of mind.
Look for the phone. I tried to find his phone in a less molesting way and found it in his front pocket. Taking it out, I saw the lock screen pic of a couple and goosebumps took over me.
Oh my God.
He is, he is. I took a good look at the person in front of me now and back at the phone.
Sunday, 1 May 2016
Sunday, 20 March 2016
Something
The lack of something.
What is it?
I keep trying to find it but its like trying to find needle in a haystack.
Something I need to find it myself.
Something in me.
What is it?
What is it?
I keep trying to find it but its like trying to find needle in a haystack.
Something I need to find it myself.
Something in me.
What is it?
Monday, 21 December 2015
Song For You
A perfect tune up. Some one was playing guitar in the neighbourhood.
A young girl walking pass by the junction can hear it. Its half past ten at night. Her tiring day went in a blink of an eye with the guitar playing in the background. She sat on the bench near the neighbourhood walkaway and kept on listening to the play. Few times that person adjusted the tune and corrected the melody in between but she loved it. She smiled as it ended and there was no more music in the background.
Little did she know that, this music was going to change the course of her life.
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"Alice! Take the order for table number 8,"
"Okay,"
Alice walked to table number 8, where a bunch of young guys were seated looking at their menus.
"Hi, welcome to Honey Star Cafe, ready to order?"
"Hi, sure, I'll have one green tea latte and a glass of water,"
"Hi, I'll have a hot chocolate,"
Alice took down the order and was waiting for the next two of them to order.
"Milk,"
"..." No response from the last one.
"Your order?" Alice looked at the last person who was busy scribbling something on his white paper. He was on earphones.
"Alex," The guy next to him swatted his arm. Now everyone was looking at him.
"Coffee, thanks."
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Its afternoon after Alice's first day of college. Her orientation ended early so she decided to head back home before her shift work starts. The weather was getting windier and clouds were getting denser. And all the sudden, it started pouring. "Oh shit."
She rushed towards the nearest shop she was walking by and entered to avoid getting her papers and books wet.
Turning around, she realised it was an instrument store. It was as though she had entered heaven. The smell of the wooden crafted ukuleles, guitars and pianos made her want to live in them. She saw a beautiful white piano displayed. She got closer to it and laid her fingers on the key.
"Beautiful isn't she?" Alice was awaken from her trance by a male voice and jumped back.
"Oh, sorry I didnt mean to touch it," She apologize.
"No, no, no worries. If you can play, go on," He smiled. He was a young man.
"Oh I, I-, I don't play," Alice was embarrassed by the fact. "I just love music but I'm not a good player," She snickered a sly laugh.
The young man moved closer to the piano and laid both his hands on the piano. Fingers spread, he started playing a tune. Though she couldn't recognize the play, it was a slow and smooth melody.
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Alice was walking to her next class when she heard something very familiar. She stood still. Turning around looking for where it was coming from, she saw a closed door labelled "Music Room". Interest pitched in her but she was already running late for class.
Anyhow she took the chance to glimpse through the glass window to only see a about 10 people sitting in a round. She couldn't guess who was playing it.
Why was she so curious about it anyway? She shook her head and ran for her next class.
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A young girl walking pass by the junction can hear it. Its half past ten at night. Her tiring day went in a blink of an eye with the guitar playing in the background. She sat on the bench near the neighbourhood walkaway and kept on listening to the play. Few times that person adjusted the tune and corrected the melody in between but she loved it. She smiled as it ended and there was no more music in the background.
Little did she know that, this music was going to change the course of her life.
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"Alice! Take the order for table number 8,"
"Okay,"
Alice walked to table number 8, where a bunch of young guys were seated looking at their menus.
"Hi, welcome to Honey Star Cafe, ready to order?"
"Hi, sure, I'll have one green tea latte and a glass of water,"
"Hi, I'll have a hot chocolate,"
Alice took down the order and was waiting for the next two of them to order.
"Milk,"
"..." No response from the last one.
"Your order?" Alice looked at the last person who was busy scribbling something on his white paper. He was on earphones.
"Alex," The guy next to him swatted his arm. Now everyone was looking at him.
"Coffee, thanks."
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Its afternoon after Alice's first day of college. Her orientation ended early so she decided to head back home before her shift work starts. The weather was getting windier and clouds were getting denser. And all the sudden, it started pouring. "Oh shit."
She rushed towards the nearest shop she was walking by and entered to avoid getting her papers and books wet.
Turning around, she realised it was an instrument store. It was as though she had entered heaven. The smell of the wooden crafted ukuleles, guitars and pianos made her want to live in them. She saw a beautiful white piano displayed. She got closer to it and laid her fingers on the key.
"Beautiful isn't she?" Alice was awaken from her trance by a male voice and jumped back.
"Oh, sorry I didnt mean to touch it," She apologize.
"No, no, no worries. If you can play, go on," He smiled. He was a young man.
"Oh I, I-, I don't play," Alice was embarrassed by the fact. "I just love music but I'm not a good player," She snickered a sly laugh.
The young man moved closer to the piano and laid both his hands on the piano. Fingers spread, he started playing a tune. Though she couldn't recognize the play, it was a slow and smooth melody.
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Alice was walking to her next class when she heard something very familiar. She stood still. Turning around looking for where it was coming from, she saw a closed door labelled "Music Room". Interest pitched in her but she was already running late for class.
Anyhow she took the chance to glimpse through the glass window to only see a about 10 people sitting in a round. She couldn't guess who was playing it.
Why was she so curious about it anyway? She shook her head and ran for her next class.
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'MUSIC CLUB AUDITION'
"Hey want to join?" Alice heard people whispering to their friends.
She was standing at the official notice board looking for something to join but he eye caught the music club audition. What can a girl like her do there? She can't sing and she can't play. Defeated by her own low self-esteem, she walk away but she took note of the date since it was an open invitation.
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"Next! Jason," One of the audition conductor called out names of each participants for their performance.
"Jason?" Alice wondered where she have seen that face before.
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It was Alice's free time and she told her new friends that she was not going to join them for lunch and catch them during class.
Walking down the familiar hallway, she found the room again.
This time she opened it. It wasn't locked and no one was in. The minute she stepped in, she felt a totally different vibe.
Someone cleared their throat from behind her. Goosebumps.
Turning, she saw a guy standing behind the opened door looking at her.
"Are you a new member?" He asked.
Familiar face again but her memory was blur on it.
"Err, I n-, ye-, err, yes, yes, I thought there was going to be a meet up or something?" She lied.
"There is?" He questioned more to himself.
"I guess not, maybe not today, I might have mixed up the date and time. I'm sorry, I'll get going," She was about to leave when he said, "Maybe I'll teach my juniors something if you are free,"
Stoned, Alice stood still figuring out a way to run away.
"You play or sing?" He asked.
"Sing," She answered straight away and facepalmed inside her heart.
With few tuning on the bass guitar chords, he started picking on the strings with a plectrum.
Alice don't quite understand what got into her but she started singing, "and at last I see the lights, and its like the fog is lifted, and at last I see the lights, and its like the sky is new,"
Alice don't quite understand what got into her but she started singing, "and at last I see the lights, and its like the fog is lifted, and at last I see the lights, and its like the sky is new,"
He kept on playing while looking at her.
"I can't continue, I have class to attend," Her face was burning.
"Okay, see you soon then,"
"Okay, see you soon then,"
Alice made a quick move to leave the room.
"Hey you sing well," was the last she heard.
She closed the door and ran.
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Wednesday, 2 December 2015
Tuesday, 24 November 2015
Sunday, 15 November 2015
Lessons from How I Met Your Mother.
So I have finally finished watching this so called super popular American TV series 'How I Met Your Mother'. The wholeeeeee 9 seasons in 1 months plus. LOL. Thanks to my crazy bestie (Well you know who your are) for recommending it to me. I totally fell in love with the series from the first episode itself. I highly recommend it to everyone. YES, EVERYONE. I went through hell of emotions while watching this series. Laughing when its silly and crying when it got tooo emotional. Besides, Watching How I Met Your Mother has made me learn a lot of lessons not just about relationship but also life lessons. What real life would be like sometimes. Here are few quotes, dialogues, maybe some are opinions that have made me realize about life and love.
"Shouldn't we hold out for the person who doesn't just tolerate our little quirks but actually kinda likes them?" - Ted
"There are certain things in life where you know its a mistake but you don't really know its a mistake because the only way to really know its a mistake is to make a mistake and look back and say yeap that was a mistake. So really, the bigger mistake would be not make the mistake then you really go your whole life not knowing it was a mistake or not." - Lily.
"Life has plenty of good parts, its the rough parts that makes you thankful that you have people to share it with"
When choosing your friends, imagine sitting on your front porch with them 50 years from now. Do you still want them to be there with you? If not, they’re not worth your time.
When you meet the right person you know it. You cant stop thinking about them. They are your best friend and your soulmate. You cant wait to spend the rest of your life with them and nothing else can compare.
"Your gonna lose a relationship if you keep lying, cutting a person out of decisions, if you keep using words like winning and losing when we talking about our marriage, its not gonna happen all at once but little by little, you gonna lose me," - Lily Aldrin.
"Its not crazy. It's love. If your looking for the word that means caring for someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want no matter how much it destroys you, its love and when you love someone, you just don't stop, ever. Even if people roll their eyes, call you crazy even then, especially then you don't give up because if I could give up, I take someone elses advice and move on, that wouldn't be love, that would be some other disposable thing that is not worth fighting for," Ted.
'Most importantly, whatever you do in your life, its not legendary unless your friends are there to see it.' - Barney.
No matter how hard we try even the best of us goes a little wild sometimes and in those moments we all need someone to help us rally.
Every relationship requires some level of compromise, after all, a couple can't work if they both had a personal mandate of "my way or the highway".
When you find someone you wanna keep around, you wanna do something about it.
None of us can vow to be perfect, in the end all you can do is promise to love each other with everything we got because love is the best thing we do.
"The future is scary but you can't just run back to the past because its familiar. Yes its tempting but its a mistake," - Robin.
"Being in love doesn't mean being "perfect." If you're afraid to have arguments, everything will just build up to the point where it's unhealthy, resentment breeds or things become completely explosive."
Learn to read between the lines. The most important things aren't directly said.
Chemistry is important, but its not eternal. You need a strong foundation for when the sexy stuff fades, because it will.
Do not postpone your own happiness.
I wonder how the screenwriter can come up with such nice things to say and some of them are kinda true too. Well though the ending of the last season was kind of a bummer @@ I had a great time watching it.
Peace!
Love,
Coffee.
"Shouldn't we hold out for the person who doesn't just tolerate our little quirks but actually kinda likes them?" - Ted
"There are certain things in life where you know its a mistake but you don't really know its a mistake because the only way to really know its a mistake is to make a mistake and look back and say yeap that was a mistake. So really, the bigger mistake would be not make the mistake then you really go your whole life not knowing it was a mistake or not." - Lily.
"Life has plenty of good parts, its the rough parts that makes you thankful that you have people to share it with"
When choosing your friends, imagine sitting on your front porch with them 50 years from now. Do you still want them to be there with you? If not, they’re not worth your time.
When you meet the right person you know it. You cant stop thinking about them. They are your best friend and your soulmate. You cant wait to spend the rest of your life with them and nothing else can compare.
"Your gonna lose a relationship if you keep lying, cutting a person out of decisions, if you keep using words like winning and losing when we talking about our marriage, its not gonna happen all at once but little by little, you gonna lose me," - Lily Aldrin.
"Its not crazy. It's love. If your looking for the word that means caring for someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want no matter how much it destroys you, its love and when you love someone, you just don't stop, ever. Even if people roll their eyes, call you crazy even then, especially then you don't give up because if I could give up, I take someone elses advice and move on, that wouldn't be love, that would be some other disposable thing that is not worth fighting for," Ted.
'Most importantly, whatever you do in your life, its not legendary unless your friends are there to see it.' - Barney.
No matter how hard we try even the best of us goes a little wild sometimes and in those moments we all need someone to help us rally.
Every relationship requires some level of compromise, after all, a couple can't work if they both had a personal mandate of "my way or the highway".
When you find someone you wanna keep around, you wanna do something about it.
None of us can vow to be perfect, in the end all you can do is promise to love each other with everything we got because love is the best thing we do.
"The future is scary but you can't just run back to the past because its familiar. Yes its tempting but its a mistake," - Robin.
"Being in love doesn't mean being "perfect." If you're afraid to have arguments, everything will just build up to the point where it's unhealthy, resentment breeds or things become completely explosive."
Learn to read between the lines. The most important things aren't directly said.
Chemistry is important, but its not eternal. You need a strong foundation for when the sexy stuff fades, because it will.
Do not postpone your own happiness.
I wonder how the screenwriter can come up with such nice things to say and some of them are kinda true too. Well though the ending of the last season was kind of a bummer @@ I had a great time watching it.
Peace!
Love,
Coffee.
Monday, 5 October 2015
Mis-takes.
"There are certain things in life where you know its a mistake but you don't really know its a mistake because the only way to really know its a mistake is to make a mistake and look back and say yeap that was a mistake. So really, the bigger mistake would be not make the mistake then you really go your whole life not knowing it was a mistake or not." - How I Met Your Mother.
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