Promised

Thais

No, no, this is not happening.

"EVERYBODY BETTER DROP DOWN ALL THE MONEY AND GOLDS YOU HAVE!!" The stranger was screaming near my left ear.

His breathe was not constant and he is shaking my whole body while standing behind me.

"One step near her, she will be slashed!" He commanded to the others in front of us.

I couldn't move at all.

My whole body is in a frozen state. One move if I try to escape, I'm gone forever.

The stranger held me as his victim.

His grip on my arm was getting harder.

I don't know what's happening around me.

I can see people in front of us standing with so many emotions in their faces.

Is Niel there?

Is he watching me?

No, will this be my last sight of him?

We, we....have just got together.....I can't let him go like this.

My Devil and Angel he is.

"NO! NOT A SINGLE STEP I SAID!!" The robber screamed again.

My blood had flushed down from the shock I had of being the captured one.

I was running out of breath.

My feet feels weak and wobbly.

And the worse part of it, no one can do anything.

"NO! Don't. Do. Anything to her!" I heard a voice.

"Leave her alone!" again.

Niel.

I'm sorry Niel. I'm sorry I put myself into this.

I lov-

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! THAIS!!!! NO, NO!" Another scream.

Mum.

I blackout.

The last thing I saw in my blurred vision was Niel running towards me.


Niel

"Thais! THAIS! No, no, NO!"

This is not happening, No, No!

Thais, wake up. WAKE UP.

Stay conscious please.

"Thais! Oh, dear! Darling!!" Her mum came in view. Tears were rolling down non stop from her.

Her uncle had run after the robber who cut her neck.

Blood was oozing out of her neck.

I heard sobs and pain on everyone here.

The angel in front of me, on my lap, what had she done?

Why does she have to face this suffering!

I shook her body violently.

But no movement from her.

"Thais!!!" Then I realise my tears falling on her cheek.

"Get her to the hospital now!" I screamed at someone scouting next to me.

I don't know who it was and I don't care anything now besides her.

I carried her into my car and her mum, aunt and niece came with me.

My hands were bloodshot and my shirt were blood stained.

I hit the gas pedal and it forwarded to 100km/hour in minute.

I won't let you go, Thais.

I won't.

Never in this life.

We made a promise not to leave each other. Remember?


"You look very pretty and elegant in that dress," I commented.

"Emm...only today? And not all the other day?" She replied with a smile at my compliment.

"Em...let's see....not really but that's what I like about you, just pure and innocent,"I said with my seducing trademark that she likes.

I saw her rolled her eyes. She hit me in my arm and stuck her tongue out.

I grab her waist and pulled her towards me, her back facing me.

"What are you doing?!" She tried to unlock my hands from her waist.

"Stay still will you?" I whispered near the nape of her neck.

She flinched from my breath but she calm down and stood still.

"Are we going to stay like this forever?"

"Yes," I answered her coolly.

"Ok, ok! Let me go! I have work to do. The guest are going to arrive soon!" I loosened my grip

"I would never let you go," I said lying my back against the wall behind me.

She turn to face me.

Those eyes, soft lips, What am I thinking! Those thoughts! Throw it away!

"Niel," my name sounds beautiful from her lips.

I looked into her eyes, saying I was listening.

She came closer and I became aware of my surrounding.

Her face was serious.

"Promise me, you will always be there by my side at any cost. Danger, pain, lost, happiness, old age, fight, you will always be there," She was looking into my soul.

"I love you and only you," I held her arms in assurance and kissed her forehead.

She smiled and went towards the door, "Me too,"

My grip on the steering became tight.

And the meter shows 120km/hour now.

I honed every single car in my way.

A promise is a promise, Thais.

I would never let you go.

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"Hey," I croaked with my tired voice when I felt someone holding my palm.

She had a bandage on her neck but she made it.

She made back for me, to me.

Her eyes roamed around the hospital room. Her palm grip got tighter.

Then she smiled.

The smile that lit the my whole world bright.


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Niel?

My daughter and Niel are together?

Niel likes Thais? No not like but he loves her.

Looking at how he reacted when he saw her like this.

No, this is not a mistake.

I'm sure the two of them are in love.

Finally my daughter had found her other half uh? She had made the right choice then.

I'm happy.

Seeing him taking care of her every day. I'm relief.

They just remind me of my lifetime.

Thank, God. Thank you so much.

"Hello, aunty," Niel greeted me.

"Niel,"

"Yes aunty?"

"Take care of my daughter will you?Not only here but forever with you, can you? She seems so much brighter with you," I told him.

He took a deep breath. Calm and steady.

"I will and always will."





[ Seriously, I thought this when I went to Rawang for my cousins bday party! Just thought of writing it down! Do comment! Hehehehe!]

Dreams On Fire

I have lost my trust and hope in myself ?!
Have I ?

What should I do now ?
Should continue this ?
Something I never wished I did ?
Something that was for the good of my guardian who raised me up ?
My heart ache but I only had a poker face outside. I laughed when I saw my score! Hahaha! Wow....
Can't you believe it ? I laughed.
Now I have to answer my own question.
It really is something challenging.
Something I wish none would have to face this problem.

Well, the fact, everyone have to face it whether they like it or not. Because, it's life.
Truth to be told, I never chose this right?
What should I do ?
Confused, torture in my head, painful, sad...all the negative is in me right now.

Dad has started his usual mode: nagging. But all I did is just smile and gave a low laugh just to show him that ' i don't care' expression.
Deep in my heart, it really does hurt. Why am I being like this!
Why can't I just tell him the truth?
Because,I'm all writing but not good in talking it out.
If you want me to say something, I can express in in writing but in words...i get mixed up scared I wouldn't bring it out well.

So, here I am sitting in front of the screen staring at my AS results,on FB (continously waiting some miracle to happen at one page) and also typing it out, since I can't keep it to my self anymore.

Life.....life....life...

Thinking about the people who had gone through a lot of this like me and had become a successful person in life and idolized, it only makes me to become an even stronger person.

I always think about, how it is to be like one of them?

I have never been like this before...all I show is happiness but do you know, happy people could have a different side of them too?
All I want to do is be different.
It's nothing wrong to be different right? It only makes you to be a different people and an outstanding one and I want to be like that.

Why?
I have been influenced too much of my dreams.
And now, it's on fire.

Still, sometimes, it washes away when I think of another future I might hold.
A future which my guardians wants me to have.
Would I still be happy? contented with what I will have? blissful?
Aish, what am I talking?

They say hardwork will pay but it only takes the money away.
I have given my best to get my dream and also my parents dream.

In another few more months I finally had to jump in either one of this two things. It's like I'm standing in the middle of a wired gate where the other side, what I want and all I want,even it brings hardship to me,i know i will be contented, because I chose it and I won't give up even if I'm tired.
Another side, my parents wants me to be. Happy easy, normal life,with a simple job and family to take care.

Which one I still have my heart to?
Of course, one's strongest ones.

Sometimes I wish I could just walk straight in front of my both guardian, and talk to them out all my feelings and doubt
But I dont have the courage.
"Dad, why? why? why can't I take the road I want? Why do I have to always listen to yours? Why can't I be different from all those typical people in the world? I want to go out? Be out of the box. I want to explore new things, do something different from all the people who do the same and never wants adventure. I want what I want. I chose this and I know what I'm doing. I know I would never, never regret."

And I would always think my dad's answer will be," ARE YOU STUPID? CRAZY? BODOH? You never listen to me do you?"

That's when I give up sometimes, just sometimes.

Whenever I go to bed. I think of something I always had in my heart.
My happy future? How will it turn out?
Am I that lucky enough?

I'm still having my fingers crossed, even though a thunder had striked me today, I still have another result to wait by the end of feb or march.
Maybe, I could get lucky?
Could I?
Maybe I can get back my courage when I get my result.
I will. I already.
Think positive.
Think positive.
It's never the end of the world yet.
I am lucky!
I already have been chosen because I have confidence in myself.
I am already a trainee!
I am currently raining to dance, sing, on diet, thinking of being in a funny variety show.
Having new mates.
Think positive!
Sigh..

Gotto go.
Lunch time. I dont dare to face my dad.

Chapter 69:

Onew's POV

Uh?

"Chaerin-ah," I held her hand which was nearest to me.

Her hand is trembling.

And she was in sweat.

What is she thinking?

I was getting nervous.

She stood up and which made me stood up too.

We were the only ones outside. All the others went in already.

Personally, I was scared to see Minho too. I'm scared that I will cry and making Chaerin see Minho is this conditition, I doubt she will live it up.

She walked in without speaking any word at all.

All the others were there surrounding him.

Minho's mum were sobbing lightly now. His dad was next to his mum, holding her.

Jonghyun gave way to Chaerin to go next to him.

Taemin had a shocking expression and a cried face.

Chaerin held the bed's side bar.

Minho was wrapped with bandage in his head his hand and his torso.

There was a oxygen mask in his mouth.

And the cardiogram was moving really slow.

Chaerin took her left hand out and stretch it towards him.

"Excuse me, sir, may i know his guardian please.We need to talk," The doctor came in holding a file.

"I'll go," His dad say," Jinki follow me," I have to leave Chaerin behind. I took one last look at her and went with Minho's father.

Outside,

The doctor waited for us.

He took out the paper from the file and showed us.

"I'm sorry sir, but he is really in a bad condition. We tried out best. Unfortunately, his torso bone has broken and he had lost a lot of blood during the ride to the hospital. We need to wait and see what's his result. All I can say is pray for luck," He then bowed to us and walked away.

Minho's dad was in shocked that he slide down to the wall and gave up. He broke down.

"Abbe-abbeojji, please you have to be strong," I held his hand to comfort him.

We went inside.

Chaerin;s mum was holding Chaerin shoulder.

Chaerin still had the same expression, blank.

But I saw tears.

Then I saw something in her eyes. Tired? Dizzy?

She fainted right in front of us.

"Omo! Chaerin!" Her mum supported her but she was not strong enough that Chaerin fell down and Key and Jonghyun ran to catch her before I could.

I made my way towards her.

"I'll call the doctor," Chaerin's dad went and came with a nurse walking past us.

"Move, excuse me can you please move. Give her some space please," the nurse advised us.

The nurse approach Key who was holding Chaerin.

"Can you please put her into the next bed," She ordered him and he did it.

The nurse then took out a syringe, injected it into her vein. She didn't even wince at all.

They are taking a blood sample I think.

She checked her heart beat and the nurse struggled for a while.

She rechecked her heartbeat.

Then she check her hand's artery beat.

"I'll be back. We need her to get an x-tray. She having abnormal heart beats," Then she walked out of the room.

With both of them lying in each bed. It looks so pathetic.

Why on earth would they have to face this!

I sighed and sat next to Taemin who had his eyes closed but not really sleeping.

The nurse arrived with a doctor. A woman.

"We'll bring her to the x-tray room," The doctor assured us.

She was brought out of the room still lying on the stretcher.

Then I heard a scream. Inside the room among us.

"MINHO!!!!"

"Minho!! Can you hear me? He moved! I swear I saw him moved!!! Jagi, I saw him moved!" It was his mum. I'm not sure she is hallucinating or what but Jonghyun saw it too.

This made me and Taemin to stand up.

I saw the cardiogram beating high now. It went to the maximum beat and to the minimum.

Then his whole body started to move.

"Minho?" Was all I could utter.

I didn't realise the doctor was here already.

"Move aside please," then all of was step back.

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Dumbstuck, everyone couldn't move from their position.

Minho.

He left us.

All of us.

His parents.

His members.

Most importantly,

Chaerin.

Chapter 68:

Onew's POV

"I'm sorry sir, your phone ID says you are Jin Ki are you?"

"Yes, yes, I am. Please tell me what happen to the car or to the driver?!"

"We need you to be here any minute. His life is at stake right now,"

"MWO??!" I screamed not caring about my surrounding.

"We found out he is SHINee's Choi Minho, so you must be one of his band member right?"

I couldn't answer any of his question already.

His life is at stake.

His life is at stake.

His. Life. Is. At. Stake.

Okay, calm down, Onew-ah, calm down. Everything will be alright.

"Hyung? Anything wrong? Who was that on the phone?" Jonhyun came towards me with a tray full of empty glasses.

My eyes felt teary and I tried to get distracted.

I have to tell it somehow by not making a fuss out of it.

I slowly took my courage to tell Jonghyun first.

"Jong, Mi-Min- Minho is at the hospital, someone ca-cal-call me and told that his life is at stake,"

Jonghyun didn't talk, he was speechless but his expression show it all that he was shocked.

Eyes wide, mouth rounded and his hands were shaking.

*Clash!!!* He dropped the tray and all the glass broke.

"Does, Chaerin know this?!!" I guess he was thinking the same as me.

Chaerin, how and what should I tell her? It's their wedding, and they have gone through a lot to get here and today is their special day.

"We should inform the others," Was all I could tell.

"I will tell the others," Jonghyun nod and run away leaving the broken glass shattered.

"I will tell Chaerin," I told myself.

*Knock, knock*

"Yes, come in," It was Chaerin's voice.

I opened the door and went in.

She was with 3 other make up artist.

And she look

Perfect and gorgeous in my eyes. Like an Angel.

And I am going to be the Demon who is going to break this Beautiful Angel standing in front of me smiling not knowing what she is going to face.

I took the courage to tell her. I have to tell her!

"Chaerin, err.....we need to go the hospital now,"

"Eh? Waeyo?" She frowned looking confused.

"Minho is at the hospital. I think he had an accident,"

"WHAT?! Oppam what are you talking?! Tell me this is not one of your Onew condition is it?!"

"Jung Chaerin, I'm not lying or playing around!" I cound't take i, I shouldn't cry, no control!

But Chaerin look so calm and I couldn't read her expression at all.

"Jinki-ah, is Jonghyun telling the truth??!" Minho's mum came in with her eyes wet and hair looked messed up.

Behind was Chaerin mum and both the dads.

I just nod.

"Omo!" Mrs.Choi covered her mouth in shock.

"Hyung! We got to got here now!" Jonghyun came in with Key and Taemin having a blank face full of furiousity.

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Everyone came running into the Hospital.

The parents went in fisrt with Key and Jonghyun while I bring Chaerin in.

She was not even talking at SINGLE word after the incident in the room.

Minho was in ICU ward.

Everyone of us were waiting outside.

Half sitting and half standing.

Chaerin just followed us quietly. Still in her Hanbok.

People around us staring.

She plopped into the bench and stare into space.

I went ans sat next to her and held her hand.

She just let me take her hand and I grip her hand.

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After what seems like eternity, just 5 hours, the doctors came out.

He talked something to Minho's dad and Minho's mum heard it too. Both of them held their tears and went into the ward.

"Minho!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I heard her mum scream and cry.

I looked at Chaerin for reaction but

No. She is still staring at the space.

What is going on to her?

"Chaerin, come on in, you have to see him,"

I stood up gesturing her to stand up too.

But she sat there still.

"Chaerin..." I whispered.

"I'm not going in," she said expressionless.

"Chaerin?"

"I don't want to go in,"

Chapter 67: Wedding.

Your POV

"Chaerin, is this the right vow you guys going to read?" Min was at the doorway with a paper script for the wedding vow.

"Ne," I told her who was in her elegant black dress.

I am currently surrounded makeup artists.

One doing my hair, one fixing my make up and one with my Hanbok.

The room is air conditioned but I still feel heaty in every single cell of mine.

I guess this is what you call excitement of getting married or just nervousness?

*Knock knock

"Girls, 25 minutes more," Minho's mum came in through the door.

She stood there half bemused and half awed at me.

"Omo! Darling, you are so...Oh, I'm speechless! by the way 25 minutes more," She reminded us.

And she went out.

Every single family members are busy with their task.

The dad's are busy with the invited guest.

Not much people were invited only close family and friend's of mine and Minho's and his labelmates.

Of course the SHINee boys are so much willing to do anything to help their member's wedding day, so Onew's in charge of decorations.

Key and Jonghyun willingly wanted to be the guest servers.

"Chaerin, come on, look at yourself in the mirror," One of the makeup eonni told me.

I stood up and face the full length mirror.

Is that ME?!

Wow!

A pink, blue hanbok chosen by Minho's mum is really suitable on me.

I wonder how Minho looks like and what would he think about this.

I smiled at my reflection and it smiled back right at me.

I took a deep breath. Calm down.

How can I be calmed down when it's MY WEDDING DAY!

"Chaerin,you ready?! Minho's supposed to be coming on his way with the Girukabi ( Person who leads the way to the bride's place) but he is a little late with his ring I guess," Min came in asuring us to get ready.

A/N: Chaerin and Minho are having a Traditional Korean wedding. So the first procedure is the Groom's Parade where the groom will be lead by the Girikabi tothe Bride's place with musical instrument to announce his arrival.

For some reason I somehow felt worried. He shouldn't be this late. He won't be late for this time of occasion, he is always punctual.

He told me that he was going to get the rings we ordered at the ring maker's shop before going and make his way straight to his place.

"Min, can I have your phone?" Maybe he was stuck in traffic or something?

The phone rings.

But no one picked.

"Aish, come one, pick the phone," I mumbled to myself.

It rings, rings and rings.

I gave up and put the phone down.

Sigh.

Nevermind, just wait, everything will go just as we plan.

All we want is the normal wedding and I hope it will be over soon.

I was already sweating and my tied hair is a little tight.

"Don't worry, he'll be here soon," Min told me and took her phone, "I'll beright back, ok," she went out.

What is this weird feeling in me?

Like something is not up?

Suddenly, I felt sick. My stomach began to twirl and I fell like vomiting.

"Oh, eonni, I need to use the toilet now," I told one of the eonni sitting with me.

"Now? You can't go out now," She put down the magazine she was reading and had a worried face on her now.

"Eonni, I think I'm going to puke, my head's aching now,"

"Oh no, dear, are you sick? Wait let me get you something to vomit in," she ran out of the door and in a minute came back with a dustbin.

"This is all I could find. I don't want to let the other worried so I got this," She put it in front of me.

My stomach twirled again and I held it in my hand.

I vomited inside the bin.

"You okay now?"

Much better but still the same.

"Ne," I nodded.

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Minho's POV

"Shoot, I'm late," I saw the time and I'm supposed to be at the temple in another 15 minutes.

"I'm so sorry for the delay," the shop keeper hand in a small bag with the ring in and I quickly thank him and went out toward my car.

I had to run.

I took out my car key and drove out of the parking lot in hurry.

"Oohh!! Minho oppa!" I heard someone screamed my name. It was a fan waving and I waved at her back.

"Come on, come on,fast," I took the car out of the lot and into the driveway.

There was no car in the street. I think I can make it in time.

I press the oil pedal to near 100 km/hr.

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Someone's POV

"Oh, there's the car," He informed while standing at the car door.

"Look, I don't want to do this, please," I begged him.

"Yes, you are doing it and now!!" He screamed.

I was scared and my life is at threatening state by him.

"Please, no this way at least," I was on the urge to cry but I kept it away.

"Now, or never!" He slammed the door and stood out motioning me to go after him.

I took a deep breath and hit the pedal. It zoomed up to 100km/hr in just a minute?!

I drove straight into the empty road knowing that he would pass by in front of me by any second and I'm going to finish him.

I don't want this. I don't WANT HIM TO DIE!!

I don't care if I die but I'm going to take my fault for what I've done to him before.

So I changed my mind. And hit the brake pedal. I don't care what he is going to do to me but I'm not going to kill Minho!

Hit again and again but it's NOT STOPPING!

What the?! No, no, no!!! No! NO!

I hit it one last time but the brake is not working.

I had to steer the steering into a different direction to avoid my car crashing to his.

But the tire drifted and AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I honed him to warn him.

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Minho's POV

What is that screeching noise?!

And where is that coming from??!

I heard honning but where?

I turn to my right and I saw a car coming straight toward me in a very fast speed!

WHAT?!

There was my phone ringing next to me.

Caller ID: Chaerin Honey.
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A loud crash was heard and there was a lot of smoke coming from the street.

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Onew's POV

"Anyeonghaseyo, is this someone related to the guy with car number plate Seoul 0991?" Someone on my phone asked me.

"Ne, waeyo? Is there anything?" It's Minho's car.

"I'm sorry sir, but I'm calling from Seoul General Hospital. Could you make it in time here by any minute?"

My face went read and every single part of my cell hit a warning button.

"May I know why?"

The Experience Of An Inexperience.

It all started when I got an consideration e-mail from Alpha Entertainment for another audition.

I told my friend Ariel first and she was shocked? She asked me whether I really want to do this or not. But at that moment the only thing I could think is 'I really want to do this!'

She told me to tell m parents. I was planning on how and when to ask. Inside myself I was fighting with my heart and brain whether they will think twice and accept my request or just say I'm stupid.

Before I asked my parents, I plan a little something so nothing could go wrong. I asked my Singapore friend whether I can come over to her house to stay over because the next day they were coming over to stay at my house eventually. She text me back saying

WOW! Cool! Sure, sure! You can come over!

I was happy for a second then, I thought about her parents, what will they think of me?
I asked for her parents permission and fortunately, uncle was willing to help me after all!

Then I asked my dad on an engagement party three days before the audition. I wasn't sure what his answer was but I was already practicing my songs. I had this feeling tht I will go to the audition no matter what. When I asked him he got really mad and said,

"What?! You crazy, no,no!"
"Why can't I go?! They called me back!"
"I sad no means no! You are just wasting your time!"
"Why?! Give me a reason!"
"No, means no!" And then I god mad and didn't talk to him.

Why wouldn't he tell me his reason for his denial?

Then, that day I couldn't sleep at all. I text my Ariel and she gave me a lot of encouragement. I was on the rage of crying and I did.

Sleeping with a heart break was not a good idea. I woke in the middle of the night thinking what should I do.

The next day, I ask for confirmation from my Singapore friend. saying that if I come one day before and you help me take a bus and go there but she was really good she said her dad can help me send me to the auditioning place and her brother will stay with me.

I was all great and I messaged my dad since it was awkward talking to him for me. Then he called me back. I knew he was going to asked about it.

And we talk. He said, "Ma. what is this? You really want to do this is it?"

"Yes. Can I? Please! I asked permission from uncle already. they say can!"

"Okay, okay, I will bring you then,"

I was seriously jumping up and down.

Then I had a dream of me in the audition and I was lost of lyrics and I couldn't sing and I mumble something. Weird....

Then I still didn't talk to my dad the next day. I told Ariel that I was going for the audition! My brother kept on saying you are crazy, as if they are going to choose you...!

I was a little heart broken because I didn't get any family support. The only support was from my two dearest friends.

And the next day, one day before the audition, In the morning, while having breakfast. My brother brought up the topic. So are you going to Singapore today? Loud enough for my dad and mum to hear.

I said, "Yes, appa is bringing me,"

"What?!" My mum started.

"Appa told me he is bringing me,"

"Dad what is this?" My mum ask dad.

"Ah...she is just crazy. You are not going," He simply said. I was frozen. Did he just say that?!

"Dad but you told me you are bringing me!"

"No you are not going! Think about what uncle will think when you just go and burden them!" My mum shouted.

"I just want to go!" I was on the verge of crying but I control.

"What are you going to do? People with talent go not you!" tht hurt me a lot.

"Ma, just keep quiet," my dad told me.

I just stood there fidgeting with something in my hand on that time. I think it was a pipe presser. Then my brother asked me what are you doing? I threw that thing over him and ran out of the kitchen, sat on the sofa and read my novel.

I keep on reading and listening to the song I wanted to sing for the audition.

I never moved away from my place. Then after my dad went to work about two hours later, I had a call from my dad.

He said, "Okay, get ready at night later. You are going today,"

I was jumping already inside!!! and I asked," What? why?"

"Uncle called me he said he got no work and wants you to come over,"

"Oh! Okay, "I kept cool on the phone and I kept cool outside too but seriously happy inside!!!!!!!

Then at night I got ready, pack my stuffs and clothes. My mum didn't know that I was going. And I told her whn she ask me what are you packing?

I told her Dad is bringing me and my mum stay, "You crazy?" but I ignored her.

I told her goodbye and went out.

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Reached Singapore and stayed at my friends house.

You know what time I slept? At 1.00am! And I had to wake up at 6.00am the next day!(Well, it's officially the next day already)

Me, my friend's brother and my friend were singing talking and talking and then we had to sleep. Uncle wanted to wake us up at 6am.

I felt like I just slept for one hour and it's already 6am! Uncle came in and wake us up!

I went and took my bath after Satish( My friend's brother's name) and Jaishree took her bath after me.

I wasn't nervous in the morning. We had breakfast at a hawker centre at 7am. I had roti canai but I wasn't that hungry at all but I still force myself to dump it in my stomach.

Then after a five minutes drive we reach our destination or MY destination.

It was an auditorium. And I reached there at 7.55am. The registration starts at 8.30am, I was early.

When I reach there there where only like 25 of them there and I thought am I in the wrong place why so less people?

Then after a few minutes the crowd came flooding like a sea!

Luckily I lined up in the first row with my printed Special Audition form. I was the 6th person in the line and when I turn behind to see............

I was ONE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGG QUEUE!

I guess around 500 people?! I didn't really count!

Then the CEO came and told us to go inside the auditorium and we took our seats!

Jaishree and Uncle left because she had to go to school and Satish stayed outside playing with his Iphone.

I made friends with two girls next to me. I can't remeber their name actually. They are 0951,0952 (They tag number. Everyone supposed to have this tag! Mine is 0953!)

They were friendly and one of them told me I had a sweet smile?! (For one second I was like uh??! My smile is sweet??!! Then I thanked her! She was really sweet!!!)

We talked about where we came from and what we were studying. They were surprise that I came all the way from Malaysia.

Then we told to line up and it was so fast!

I stood up line in the row, Went into a room where the judges were.
3 of them!
(Here's a brief explanation on them!)

3 casting directors from Alpha Korea for this coming auditions and Jan's JYP Alpha audition: all are formerly from SM
1) Manager of TVXQ, SNSD, Kangta
2) Casting Director - most of the artistes from SM
3) Head of Training - scouted Zhou Min and Victoria. Trained SNSD, SJ, SJ M, F(X), 3 members from SHINee

The nthe 1st person started to sing! She had great voice! Then 2nd then 3rd, 4th, 5th! And finally me!!! the 6th!!!!

I was having a weird nausea in my stomach but I calm myself. I started sing my Keep Bleeding verse

And it's draining all of me ( I lost myself in the song!)Oh, they find it hard to believe ( I NEARLY FORGOT THIS LINE!!!)I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see (I crack my voice at the 'SEE')

I cleared my throat 'erg emm' and continue singing.

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you They try to pull me away but they don't know the truthMy heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing
You cut me and open I ( The guy judge stop me before I could go on high tone!)
I went back to my place and the next person went for her chance.

Then it was over! I was in the first batch and my audition WAS OVER!

I went out and went into the auditorium back because the staffs asked so. Then a lot of reporters came in taking pictures of us and asking questions. One came to me!

She told me she took a picture of me singing and she ask for my details.
Like where am I form? What am I doing? How long did u practice? How old am I?

You know what a lot of them couldn't just believe I am 18 YEARS OLD!! WHY???!!! WAEYO??!!

Then some one just came up to me and said Mediacorp wants to interview you, can you coem over? I was like what??!! me??!! OHNO!

Then I followed him. He said this is for Channel 5 news and Vasantham Tamil News!
I was shaking already? Would everyone see this??!! Great, I'm DOOMED!
The reporter told me to answer her questions in Tamil.

She ask Why did you came here?
Ans: (I seriously was babbling something!!!! )I told them I like singing since I was introduced to music. I've know kpop for tow years and my friends gave me encouragement do I came to try my best.

What are you going to do in future?

Ans: (In future??!! I have no idea what to answer and I can't remember what I told them!)

Then they said thank you and you can go.
I saw Satish waving at me and putting his thumbs up. So I just laughed at him from far away.

Then when I got back to the auditorium, they say we can all go back and wait for the results in a month time!

I came out running towards Satish and I told him. Well I came at 8am and finished at 11.00am! So fast rite?

I told him about my interview with the Mediacorp and he was excited!

Then we went back home, Uncle came and fetch us.

We had lunch, drawed for Satish some bicycle parts and then followed him to his tuition place and stayed there for 3 hours!

Then Jaishree's mum bring us to McD! When I was buying Vanilla Ice Cream I saw a Human Size Card of MINHOO!!!!! SHINee's Choi Minho for Etude House shop! He was standing outside! Hahaha! I couldn't keep my eyes away from him! I wanted to take a pic with him but my aunt use the other way to go back! Bad!

Then we went back home! Uncle wanted to see me in the Vasantham News at 8.30pm and then he told me he will bring be back home together with Jaishree and Satish!

So we waited for the News to air! I was excited but nervous at the same time! The News went on but I didn't appear. Then we thought they didn't air it or what...then 5 mins before the New going to end, the News reader talked about Alpha Audition that was held in Singapore that few dreamers came to get a chance for their stardom! And I screamed when I saw me! Omo! ME!!!

It's me!!! IT'S ME! I ran to the TV to hide myself! I was seriously babbling! I was embarrassed! I thought of my parents. What would they think of me?!

Oh, no, no! Without me knowing Satish recorded me talking in his Iphone! That's super great! ARGH!!!

Then we went back home! My dad called Uncle and uncle told about me appearing on News. He didn't believe my uncle at first but then he got a call from his insurans client telling him she saw his daughter on TV talking to the journalist. He thought I was stupid and crazy because he didn't see the news.

We reach home. JB finally and I messaged my friend to tell her I came back!

Then Satish showed my parents the video he recorded! I was really shy and I said NO, NO! DON'T SEE!!!

Then at around 11.30 another one of my aunty called my dad saying she saw me in the News! My dad was like, "What is going on?!"

So, the fame goes on where one of my college friend called me saying she saw me in Channel 5 news! She was like." Hem!1 I saw u! I saw on the news! You were auditioning!!"

And then, after a few days later, I went to Singapore again for my Dad's friend;s Party and The Whole Family saw me on News! They keep saying that!

Goshh! I don't know what I was feeling happy or ....err....because it's something new to me! I've never been so much talked like this before by others.

"Hey, I saw you on the News! What did you do?! Korean pop song? What song you sing?"

This is the only line I keep on hearing from the others!

I even addad the CEO on FB! How cool could that be??! Uh?! But I don't know what he expect form me when he asked that question to me! "What do u want me to do if you are not selected?"

So, Yup! That's it!

I, Coffee, sincerely thank my friend, Ariel, Tea and Jaishree's family and my family for all they have been supporting!

I'm looking forward for my result!

I Don't Care What They Say!

Helloo,

Sorry It's been like days ever since I last post about my CRAZY life right?!

So here's something to update on.

1. Life is not an easy road. So let's everyone take a slow ride.
2. My college holidays are ending and 3rd semester is starting soon.
3. I need to decide what I want to do even though it give so much of an headache.
4. I hope something could happen. Like a I had a wishing lamp and when I caress it the Genie gives me JUST ONE WISH! At least I got one!
5. Sometimes something sad cannot be told out.
6. My parents thinks I'm going crazy whenever I start listening to songs.
7.I help my parents these days. Well, I'm 18 and I got to learn something since I'm growing.
8.I decided to keep some secrets to myself.
9.Only one of my friend knows about my deepest dream! or is it two?!
10.I give up everything I want to my faith!

That's it for this time! Got to go!
It's 26 December 2011.

Coffee!