Chapter 49:

Your POV

We came back to the waiting room together.

SHINee's manager was there with the others around him.

Onew looked at me,but when i looked into his eyes, he turned away.

"Minho, schedule will be tight this week.We have to start your Amigo promotion already," their manager told Minho.

"But...,"

"No buts. Onew had agreed to it,"

I was only looking at Onew but is he ignoring me?

"Chaerin, I'll send you home in a moment,ok," SHINee's manager told me.

I just nod my head.

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I am already at my house doorstep now.

Should I go in? Dad should be home already right?

Oh! Why am I scared?

I clicked in the password on the security code box in front of my apartment door.

And the door unlocked.

I took a deep breath and went in.

The sound of tv could be heard.

It must be dad.

I gulped.

Oh, how am I going to face him?

I walked past the living room.

I slowed down my step as I took a glance at the tv.

"Breaking news in entertainment world. Famous K-pop artist, member of contemporary boy band SHINee's Choi Minho confess on being in a relationship with his school classmate in a press conference held this morning with them. All five of them together with his confessed girlfriend attended the conference," the news reporter reported.

Then a short video of the press conference were shown.

* " Well, he was talking about talking to me about something that he saw on the net the other day. It was a funny video.He did a small demo on how the girl tricked the guy," *

* "How sure could you be it was me and her when the photo taken was not showing their face. The picture was taken from their back," *

* "Let me tell you. Yes. That picture is true. It does show that I was kissing her. Is there any problem? Is there anything wrong? Yes. She is my girlfriend. She's been a good friend to me too. She has always been there for me, comforting me everyday. That picture shows you that we are in a relationship! So why asking it again?!" *

Goosebumps were all over me now.

I went straight to the kitchen because I needed some water to digest this!

"You happy now?" the voice of my dad asked.

I didn't stop, I need water.

Dad was quiet after that.

After having a glass of water. I feel....

feel like screaming!

I washed my face to calm myself at the kitchen zinc. Now I feel refreshed.

My mind was still running, thinking.

I wiped my face using the kitchen towel. Then I came out of the kitchen.

Dad was still there.

"Dad, I've decided to go to Paris after graduation as you wished,"

"Have you given all your thought wisely?"

"Yes. Yes, dad," my stomach rolled. I feel the pain in my heart.

It's as though its broken, scattered with my own words.

Yes. I am going to Paris.

I 've the whole night yesterday before going to the press conference and I cam up a decision.

As I pass the living room, Ilhan passed by me.

"Noona, you have made the wrong decision," as low as a whisper.

That made me stop my next step.

I looked at him.

He just walked pass away from me, leaving me behind staring at his back.

I made a wrong decision?!

I thought I made a right one?!

Going to Paris will end all this problems that;s happening and that will happen in future. I would never be a trouble for them.

To Minho.

To Onew.

The press wouldn't go crazy chasing after their personal life.

Especially Minho, I'm giving him too much trouble.

But I love him.

I know this is love because I cried so much when I had to made this stupid decision!

I have to give up.

Chaerin, you have to.

You can't keep this up.

It's hard for you and all for them.

And I know I couldn't stand seeing my loved ones' being hurt.

I 'm already confused with my own feelings.

Onew.

Jinki oppa.

I have to talk to him.

I need to talk to him.

Only he can help me.

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